My name is stephanie anne cristine marie walker and i will be 16 on july 29th. i am an only child, thank god. the reason i am happy to be an only child is because my parents, well, lets just say they are not the nicest people. lets just say i am thankful that they have make up to cover scars. when i have time i like to write poetry that is inspired by my personal life and the people around me. i also write songs and play lead electric guitar. i need to get a new guitar because it is broken now. ouch. i can not spell if my life depended on it. I can never keep a boyfriend. They always seem to hurt me mentaly or phycisaly. most of my boyfriends i have had has abused me in some way. i guess they think it is ok because my parents do it. i try my hardest to stay away from guys like that. they all say they will never do that but most of them do. i have a lot of emotional/ mental problems. i am bi-polar, i have manic depression, OCD, ADHD, and little self-confadence. to block out the world around me when i need to the most i put some music in and color/draw and creat my own little reality. sometimes i have a hard time realizing that life is real and not just a really long nightmare. i don't get to know people. when i find myself becoming attached i, well, leave. I'm sure you're discouraged now. it's my trust issues and phobia of being left behind. however, if you were to sit me down, look me in the eye and promise me you would never leave me, i will be silly puddy in your hands. i have been through almost everything in my life...literally. just ask and you'll find out for sure. my favorite times are when my parents are not home nad when i know i can go to bed safe...even just for one night. i very much dislike chocolate. i know, im a girl how is that possible? i just have never grown fond of it. and no i am not alergic to it. there is more to add to this even tho i know it is very long already. I try my hardest to write poems. I just never have time with all that is going on right now. but thanks for reading and it would be nice to get come comments on my poems. thanks again.
much love, unwanted teen
much love, unwanted teen
- Last seen on Jan 30 8:34 PM 2008. Member since January 19, 2006.
- I'm a supertopaz delight poet for 78 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is "im not ok, i promise".
- I am a 15 year old girl from Michigan (United States)
- Visit my homepage at www.myspace.com/punky420goth666
- I am in the groups A day stained in blood The life of a c
- I have 78 comments, 1 contest, 16 poems
My Poetry
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So many silent tears
(All for you) -
about my older abusive boyfriend. i dont know why i could still love him.
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i dont know where to go or what to do,
Even though i am lost with out you. -
my first love jose died in a drunk driveing accident.
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The Gynophile on August 2, 2006hey thanx for the bronz. mucho appriciation. i hope everything gets better for you. i know a lot of guys seem like jerks, but not all of us are. i loath cheaters, players, users, etc. my gf has been cheated on, shes been dumped, shes just had it really rough in the relationship department. shes going to public school soon and i dunno how long we'll be together
but i WILL cream any guy that tries to take advantage of, and now im ranting, arent i? lol. ok, ill shut up.
bottom line: hang in there. things'll improve sooner or later. they cant win if you dont give up.
sayanara!
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Nereida Nightshade on July 28, 2006Wow it like a reflection of me from 12 to 17. I went through a mental hell during those years. Reading your author info about how you feel towards people sounds so familar to me. I guess that is what made me become a goth idk but anyhow I know what you are going through and it sucks. And Happy Birthday!!! <:-P
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Tamaska Forsaken on July 28, 2006well met-
happy birthday! i just happened to look and it says that tomorrow is your birthday!!! i see that you're in a bit of a rut, but hey, it'll get better, you'll wake from this nightmare eventually, trust me.
I hope you have a great birthday!
may your fangs stay sharp-
Bella De'Winter
