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XXCadyBabbiXx• Show poetry

LOVE ME OR HATE ME ITS STILL AN OBSESSION..
Love me or Hate me, that is the question.

"I think I'll just push aside my feelings, and fake a smile through every second of this pain.. Yeah, I'm fine, dont worry about me. It only hurts when I breathe."

"You broke my heart in two...So I could cut myself with the halves"

"Isnt it funny how someone can shatter your heart in a million pieces, and you can still love them with all those little pieces..."

"Its hard to hold the cards close to your chest, when the cards reflect in your face.."

"Shes got the eyes of innocence, the face of an angel, the personality of a dreamer && a smile that hides more pain than you know.."

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You all can call me Cady.
I'm fifteen years young.
Im crazy and reckless, but at the same time, I have lots of responsibility.
I think color pencils can change the world with the help of crayons and a little imagination.
I have a hot temper, so dont play with fire unless you want to get burned.
Im a very good actress, but I have never taken a single drama class in my life.
I have two best friends, and they mean to world to me. Noah+Chestine, I LOVE YOU!
I have this one boy...I'm crazy in love with, and I plan to never lose my grasp on that.
I live with my grandparents, I have for the past....11 years.
My real mother is one of my other best friends, shes my shoulder to cry on just as much as I am hers.
Graduation night, were going to get tattoos together.
Then for Christmas, when we visit my grandparents, were going to dress up as hookers cause theres not a thing they can do about it.
Stick that in your juicebox, and SUCK IT.
Basically, Im lost.
Seriously, I have buried myself in rage.

There are two kinds of emos, ones who want attention and who are virtually babies and only wish there life sucked, and ones who seriously have something wrong and there lives actually do suck.
THEN there are pain whor3s, I fall under this title.
I am addicted to pain, I have been cutting for three years.
I dislike razors, they are to tiny and sissy for me.
I make my homemade stitches lovingly.
You can always tell when people cut for attention because usually its
in a very public place where everyone can see it.

NO! Im not emo, emo means your a whiny beotch. In my opinion anyways.

There comes a point in your life, when your sick && tired of chasing, and trying to fix things, its not giving up- its realizing that you dont need people..and all the bullshit they bring with them. As long as I have been breathing, people have been deceiving! Ive been through breakups, back stabs, and lies...There are a whole lot of people I despise. They never take me down with them, and they never will...Cause on my own two feet, I still stand! So, if you have my trust, dont lose it....If you have my love, dont abuse it. Because Im done with this shit.

I like simple things, such as the smell of the rain, and listening to your i-pod all alone, and the the feelings of static.
I write for myself, not any of you.
So, If you dont like it.....well, I dont really care.
But if you do, well....good.

I'm dying inside, and I dont know how to stop it..
The nights are darker, and it becomes hard to make myself get up, and keep breathing in the morning..
I just want to die without him, I dont know what to do..
He hates me with everything he has.
But, Im his heroin, and he wants to quit me, undo the damage I did.
The sad part is...I want him to forget me, but I cant do it.
I cant not send him messages, begging for him to talk..
I cant not think about him.
Hes my first thought when I wake up, and my last thought when I fall asleep....
I need him.
More than life, more than breathing.
I need him more than blood, and I shed it for him.

"If you wanna see a rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain...If you want true love, you gotta put up with the pain."

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I’m not a bitch . . . I just like being rude.
I'm not a sinner . . .I just cant do anything right.
I'm not depressed . . I'm just always sad.
I'm not crying . . .My eyes are just full of tears.
I’m not living . . .I just keep breathing.
I'm not a thief . . .I just take what I need.
I'm not a slut . . .I just embrace my sexuality.
I'm not stupid . . .I just don’t get it.
I’m not trying . . .I’ve already given up.
I'm not weird . . . I'm just different.
I'm not a rebel . . .I just don’t take orders.
I'm not worthless . . .I just don’t know my value.
I'm not a believer . . .I’ve already lost hope.I'm not a fuck up . . .I just make mistakes.
I'm not beautiful . . .Its only skin deep.
I'm not emotional . . .I just have a lot of feelings.
I'm not a cutter . . .I just found a way to get rid of pain.
I'm not immature . . .I'm just growing up.
I'm not a quitter . . .I just stop and re-think.
I'm not laughing . . .I need to smile first.+.
I'm not impulsive . . .I just act before I think.
I'm not obsessed . . .I'm just in love.
I'm not perfect . . .I don’t want to be.
I'm not ignoring . . .I just choose not to listen.
I'm not a gossip . . .I have my own life.
I'm not pessimistic . . .I just don’t get my hopes up.
I'm not impatient . . .I just don’t like to wait.
I'm not happy . . .I do have sparks of joy.
I'm not tough . . .I just don’t take shit.
I'm not clingy . . .I just wanna be held.
I'm not opinionated . . .I just voice what I think.
I'm not questioning . . .I just have my doubts.
I'm not hiding . . .I just want to disappear.

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BITCHHHH JESSIII HACCKINGGGG
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Poems I'm focused on

  • Good Luck.
    So she S-M-A-S-H-E-D the rearview mirror
    20 lines, 5 comments, January 13
  • Empty Eyes.
    Stitches, the only thing holding me together.
    These brilliant cuts, marvel me.
    31 lines, 5 comments, January 13
  • They Only See What I Show Them....
    My head shrieks against the cold metal of the bathroom stall,
    my lungs cry out in a harsh protest against the deep sobbing.
    26 lines, 2 comments, January 13
  • Heart-x-Break
    Her presence is intense,
    her emotions spilling over,
    23 lines, 5 comments, January 13
  • Already Broken
    Tables turn,
    glass is smashed,shattered
    80 lines, 6 comments, January 13
  • A Dead Tape
    My philosophy is that the world....
    is one giant electromagnetic device,
    13 lines, 4 comments, January 13
  • In Control..
    The cold metal chills my palm & fingers,
    sending electric jolts through my body, & I shiver.
    18 lines, 17 comments, January 9
  • Poison Love.
    The pain seeping from my heart,
    spills into the limbs of my body.
    21 lines, 10 comments, January 4
  • Abuse.
    The sharpness of his words,
    and the quickness of his mind,
    8 lines, 1 comment, January 4
  • Encounters with a sharp object.
    The S-L-I-C-E  of the thin blade,
    meets the warmth of my skin.
    6 lines, 3 comments, January 4
  • Fake Face
    I stare into the mirror,
    the reflections that looks back isnt me.
    12 lines, 10 comments, January 4. In Wierd
  • Trunk Full Of Diseased Mind
    I’m shaking, and I’m scared.
    I dont know myself.
    36 lines, 16 comments, January 2
  • I Bled Out, The Marks On The Wall Prove It.
    The cuts on my thigh are fresh,
    Thick and sticky,
    40 lines, 38 comments, January 2
  • Medicate this rage.
    semi innocent girls,
    take from the street,
    37 lines, 12 comments, December 30, 2008
  • Use me, Im yours.
    What are you looking at?
    My reflection?
    46 lines, 10 comments, December 30, 2008
  • Who will she be?
    She hides from herself and others,
    she is a blank outline,
    14 lines, 5 comments, December 15, 2008
  • Suicide Angel
    She fold her graceful wings towards her,
    drawing them as tightly to her body as she can.
    13 lines, 17 comments, December 3, 2008. In Angst, dark, pain, personal, sad, weird
  • XxCutsxX
    I press the tips of the knife to my wrist
    the skin parts
    9 lines, 22 comments, November 23, 2008. In Angst, pain, personal
  • → Show all poem

My journal entries

  • xxX...::HaCkErS::....Xxx
    ♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡-♥-♡ I just couldnt get rid of these, they make me laugh && giggle && smile. :]]] HACKERS: "Love by any other name is hate." Yeah,
    January 5, 400 words. → Make first comment?

Guest Book

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  • Behemoth-King : Hey on June 10
    Thanks for the kind words, Your poetry that I;ve read so far was a joy to read and interpret.
  • Snap.Crackle.Pop on April 24
    Cadi!
    How are you?!
    I miss you so much~
    <3anna
  • irlol : ok? on March 30
    so you cunt yourself but your not emo. now im confused.....
  • Joshua DePesa : hey on March 24
    Sorry I haven't been on in a while. But I just found new inspiration.(: So I'm up and running again

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