I'm not that interesting but can be fun.
My nick name is cole but no one seems to call me that.
I only have two members of my AP family.
The first is my big sister and I call her my happy monkey. Her user name is lostsoul12. She is light in my night!
The second is SamanthaSam. I have not gotten to learn much about her but I look forword to in the futur.
I hope you like my poetry and comment!
I love to watch anime and read manga. Some animes I know are,
Death Note ,
Fruits Basket,
Black Jack,
Super Gals,
Boggiepop Phantom,
Blood+,
Escaflowne,
Ouran High School Host Club,
Vampire Knight,
Code Geass,
Bleach,
Naruto,
Inuyasha,
Fullmeatal Panic!,
Full meatal Alcamest,
Peach Girl,
D-Gray Man,
Air Gear,
Case Closed,
Kare Kano,
Tactics,
Samurai Deeper Kyo,
Wedding Peach,
Shingu,
Kodocha,
Best Student Councel,
Beck,
Trinity Blood,
Hell Girl,
Here and There, Then and Now,
Nerima Daikon Brothers,
Higerashi No Naku Koro Ni,(sp?)
School Rumble,
Excel Saga,
xxxHolic,
Ghost in the Shell,
Samurai champloo,
Gravitation,
Gurren Lagann,
and more but my mind is going blank.
Also I want to show you this neet poem by my favoret Band. There name is Nox Arcana.
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Nercery Rhyme By: Nox Arcana
Sandman come to me tonight
Comfort me till morning light.
As darkness falls and shadows blom
I bid you welcome to my room.
Place your bones beside my bed
lay you hands apon my head.
Cast your spell of slumber deep
And stay beside me as I sleep.
If I die before I wake
I grant to you my soul to take.
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Vigil By: Nox Arcana
Alone in a tranquil twilight
a distant church bell taols
the wind forms a qhostly quier
to sumen lost and way word souls
snow driffs down from the heavens
like ghosts lost in the night
and ice cristals cling to tress to set the woods aglow with light.
along a forgoten forest path there stands an arch of anchant stone
and amist the hollowed raowinds a solum figure stands alone
snow comes to rest on raven wings covering black quils in ivery white
and peace setals apon the earth beneath the evens shrouds of winters knight.
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I thought they was great and I hope you liked it too.
Also I you resite it to youself in a dark voice when other people are around you sometimes it scares the heck out of them.
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Isn't it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a mini with a t-shirt that barely covers anything?
Isn't it funny you can change your music taste to imperess a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style you give her a mouthful?
Isn't it funny that a guy can get away with being a gansta but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone.
Are you laughing?
Isn't it funny an emo can be quiet all through the week but gets more
from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity?
Isn't it funny that you dont mind your friends drinking smoking but the minute someone mentions emo music you can give them a leture on melodramatic teenage outcasts?
I'm not laughing.
Isn't it so funny that you and your friends can make a girl's life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.
Isn't it funny that you can call emos punks and goths the retards but still manage to get through your day without and inch of guilt through your heart?
Isn't it funny that you'll dump a girl if she happens to cut herself but you'll work it out with a girl who cheats?
HOW CAN YOU CALL A GIRL A POSER, HOW CAN YOU SAY "YOUR NOT EMO" OR "ATTENTION SEEKER" WITHOUT SPENDING A SECOND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THERE ARE CUTS ON HER WRISTS AND WHY SHE SPENDS HER LUNCHTIMES CRYING INSTEAD OF LAUGHING WITH HER FRIENDS?
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~I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.
I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bunny
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.
I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.
I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I'm JAMICAN so I must smoke weed.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage
I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a stuck up bunny.
I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a bunny.
I wear skirts a lot, so I MUST be a bunny.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking bunny.
I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible bunny.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a big peter.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be bunny them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.
I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a bunny.
I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool.
I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO
I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.
I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy.
I'm a STONER, so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.
I'm a VIRGIN, so I MUST be a prude.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon and fried chicken.
I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST have a small penis.
I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm PREP, so I MUST be rich.
I don't FLIRT WITH GUYS AT SCHOOL ao I MUST be gay.
I dont like the SUN so I MUST be albino.
I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo.
I wear BOY'S CLOTHES so I MUST be a lesbian.
I'm POSTING THIS so I MUST be a groupie.
Post this in your profile if you think stereotyping is just plain wrong
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A girl and guy were speeding, on a motorcycle, over 90 mph on the road..
Girl: Slow down. I’m scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it’s not. Please, it’s too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It’s bugging me. (In the paper the next day)
A motorcycle crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn’t want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
\\_*If you love someone this much put this on your site*_//
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What A Kiss Means
Kiss on the stomach-----"I love you"
Kiss on the Forehead ----"I hope we're together forever"
Kiss on the Ear ---"I'm corny"
Kiss on the Cheek ---"We're friends"
Kiss on the Hand ---"I adore you"
Kiss on the Neck ---"We belong together"
Kiss on the Shoulder ---"I want you"
Kiss on the Lips ---"I love you" OR "I want you"
What the gesture means...
Holding Hands ---"We definitely love each other"
Slap on the Butt ---"That's mine"
Holding on tight ---"I don't want to let go"
Looking into each other's Eyes ---"I just plain love you"
Playing with Hair ---"Tell me you love me"
Arms around the Waist ---"I love you too much to let go"
Laughing while Kissing ---"I am completely Comfortable with you"
"
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----///-\\\----If you have ever felt"
---|||---|||---Alone"
---|||---|||---Hated"
---|||---|||---Suicidal"
----\\\-///----Appathetic"
-----\\///-----Depressed"
------///\-----Or"
-----///\\\----Just"
----///--\\\---Feel in pain"
---///----\\\--Put this on your channel"
"If you'd walk 5,000 miles to spend 5 minutes with someone who you love, put this in" your profile."
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Ninety-five percent of the kids out there are concerned with being popular and fitting in. If you're part of the five percent who aren't, copy this, put it in your profile, and add your name to the list. AnimeKittyCafe, Hyperactivley Bored, Gem W, Bara-Minamino, Yavie Aelinel, IwuvMyKenshyPoo, Heidiplease, iNsOmNiAc BiLlIe JoE lOvEr, Black Panther Warrior,Mina the Mischevious, SnowNeko, KylaMizuki, SkyeEyesSparkle7135, Ms.Misery.SouthernSecrets15. ChristinaXCuriosity, SecretButterfly, SilverRain09, Blood.Stained.Tears, Falling Star, Jackie 12,XxXDeath-WishXxX, Bella Cullen,xxvampyregirlxx, shatteredmirror06, xXBloodyravenXx
Ninety-five percent of the kids out there are concerned with being popular and fitting in. If you're part of the five percent who aren't, copy this, put it in your profile, and add your name to the list. AnimeKittyCafe, Hyperactivley Bored, Gem W, Bara-Minamino, Yavie Aelinel, IwuvMyKenshyPoo, Heidiplease, iNsOmNiAc BiLlIe JoE lOvEr, Black Panther Warrior,Mina the Mischevious, SnowNeko, KylaMizuki, SkyeEyesSparkle7135, Ms.Misery.SouthernSecrets15. ChristinaXCuriosity, SecretButterfly, SilverRain09, Blood.Stained.Tears, Falling Star, Jackie 12,XxXDeath-WishXxX, Bella Cullen,xxvampyregirlxx, shatteredmirror06, xXBloodyravenXx
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"92% of American teens today would die if Abercrombie & Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. If you're part of the 8% that would be laughing their butts off, put this in your profile."
i am in the army of the dorks! we stick together always and forever. if you are a dork post this on your page and join our little army.
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I'm sorry
Im sorry if I don't meet your standards"
I'm sorry if I'm not a
"
I'm sorry if my boobs aren't big enough to "satisfy" your needs."
I'm sorry if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs"
I'm sorry if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl"."
I'm sorry if I'm not taned enough for you"
I'm sorry if I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you."
I'm sorry if I'm weird"
I'm sorry that I write about you every day"
I'm sorry if i don't have a dream body that turns you on."
I'm sorry if im not tall enough."
I'm sorry if I don't have sex with you on the first date."
I'm sorry if I'm annoying"
I'm sorry if my hair is not long enough."
I'm sorry that im different from those other girls"
I'm sorry i won't hang all over you, and be a complete tramp to make you happy."
I'm sorry that I actually care about you"
and actually call to see how you're doing."
But most of all..."
I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are."
If you're a girl and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry".
If you're one of the FEW GUYS with enough balls to repost and you would never make"
your girl feel this way, repost as "I love you just the way you are
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girl: hey baby i want to show you....
Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad
Girl: why? whats wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything
Girl: explain baby
Boy: just lost a championship game
parents flipped out on me for no reason,
and im catching a cold
Girl: well hey there will always be other games,
you know ill take care of you when your sick,
what your parents flip about ?
Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair
Girl: is it alot of money
Boy: no it just sucks
Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down
Boy: bye
Girl: wait i want to give you some...
Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?
Girl: yeah sure"
Girl: bye
Boy: bye
2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....
her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead
her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition
This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend
Sister: omg ( crying )
Boy: what? whats wrong ?
Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck
Boy: is she ok ? ?????
Sister: shes in critical condition
Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes
He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door
going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he
heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump
Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something
Girls mom: yeah this...
it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick
he opened it.....it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i
am and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you
sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to
and the first picture they took together
he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture
it looked as if in the picture she was crying
then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead
If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this.if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen....
[_] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[_] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have a mp3 player or ipod.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You love your family.((my mom and dad and brother and sister only))
[_] There is a pool/spa in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 4
[x] You dress the way you want to.
[_] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you
[_] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to the movies.
T 0 T A L: 10
[_] You have over 500 friends on facebook
[_] You have pictures on facebook
[_] Your parents let you have a facebook
[x] You get allowance
[_] You collect something normal.
[_] You look forward to going to college
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[_] You play a sport.
[_] You want to do something after school.
T 0 T A L: 12
[_] You own a car/truck.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[_] You have never got a failing grade on a report card in your life
[_] You have friends.
[_] You never got a detention
T O T A L: 13
[x] You know what is going on in the world.((kinda))
[_] You are happy with your life.
[_] You usually aren't sick.
[_] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[_] You don't have any enemies.
T O T A L: 17
Total over all: 17
Multiply by 3= 51%
101%+: A+
90-100%: A
80-89%: B
70-79%: C
60-69%: D
00-59%: F
I got a F in life....That can't be good.
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She Was Only 5..this is sad!
Body: Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic
Her only friend
was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair
She always talked to it
When no one's around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound
Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endure
A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?
But she grabs her bear
And softly cries
She loves her parents
But they want her to die
She sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking,
"Please God, why is
My life always sinking?"
Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did
Then one night
Her mom came home high
And the poor child was beaten
As hours went by
Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made
She thrusted the blade
Right in her chest,
"You deserve to die
You worthless piece of
!
The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dying
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying
Police showed up"
At the small little house"
Then quickly barged in"
Everything quiet as a mouse"
One officer slowly"
Opened a door"
To find the little girl"
Lying dead on the floor"
It must have been bad"
To go through so much harm"
But atleast she died"
With her best friend in her arms"
A child dies every day from child abuse. And if you have an ounce of pity in you for
Auroura (the little girl), and you hate child abuse with a passion, you will repost this and help out those abused children,and let them know that someone cares for them.
It doesn't take that long only about 10 secondsso please just do it."
:
she was only 5 and never loved ...
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For me, crazy is a loose term. Crazy is when you stare at a pencil and laugh when someone asks you just what you find so interesting about the eraser. Crazy is when you have an hour long sob-fest, then start singing and dancing when your favorite song plays. Crazy is when you do or say a totally random thing, like "do you ever wonder where the eraser bits go?" or start having a thumbwar with yourself (i find that i am a very tough opponent). So if you're crazy, copy this onto your profile."
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Whether or not you know it, "
you are forever taught by the thoughts of a poet."
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- Last seen 1 day ago. Member since December 28, 2008.
- I'm a carnelian hope poet for 115 comments.
- My mood is
, and quote is "Halloween!". - I am a 14 year old girl (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm I'm listaning to music and reading. Also I love to watch anime..

- I am in the groups A Group for Memories of the Lost, A Place to Vent, A place for people to belong, Alone and Broken, Anime and Japanese Culture Love, Children of Japan, FRIENDS forever, For People Who Love to RHYME, Funeral Decay, Genshiken, Individual Poets, Loneliness Death etc, Loners, Love hate anger confused, People Who Love the Rain, The Children Of The Hollow, Young Mums and Young Mums to be, emo group, ouran academy ouran host club RPG, the forgotten, those who want someone to love
- I have 115 comments, 43 poems, 3 journals
Poems I'm focused on
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I press the blade deep in my skin
knowing the pleasher will soon begin.
My Poetry
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The soft whisper of the wind
gently carries the leaves to the ground12 lines, 1 comment, October 10. In Nature, Spiritual, Lost in thought, Longing, Inspirational, Happiness, Life, Other -
This pain I feel is real
and there is no way I can rid of it.
My journal entries
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I just got done watching the music video for 'The way she feel' by between the trees, for the fourth time and I want to cry. I thought about what dad would if he found out I was cutting again and it hurt to think about. He would wait till I got home and start to yell and scold me. Nether of my parents understand. The
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I hate this. For now I guess that my whole life has to be about my little sister. That is what my mom wants at least. I did not care about my family and this is not sibling jealousy, it is just that I have to care to her every little wish and demand. Every little thing she wants she gets. I don't want anything to do
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To me right now, everything feels like a dream. Nothing seems real at all anymore. Every thing I do is just a long, long dream that I feel I will wake up from soon. It is not a good dream either. Not even cutting will bring me back sometimes. Every minute of every day, my eyes feel so xcheavy and want to pour out teMay 14, In Self. 100 words. → 1 comment, Add one?
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stream of goodbyes : thanks on February 16thank you sooo much for the lovely comment.. that thrills me to know that people like whatever pops in my head..thanks again and I added you to my faves.
hope that's okay
Sarah
