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The closer we become, the more I push you away.
up for the challenge? try and break down my walls.



"I know the other night didn't mean for you what it did for me. But I don't regret it and I haven't stopped thinking about it since it happened. Not just because it was great which it was. But because it was right. It was so right and you may not see that right now but I do. And if I have to wait until we're both 80 years old for you to see it then I'll wait. I'm not going anywhere. This is it for me. You're it for me. I can't pretend to feel any less for you than I do. I'm sorry. I just can't."


You let go,
so now its my turn.
I can accept that,
but when i find happiness,
don't decide you love me.



-i am 16. sometimes i act 6.
-i love performing.
-sometimes i am too scared to audition for shows i really want to do because my phobia of rejection/failure.
-i think people expect a lot from me.
-i wont except anything but the best from myself, but have low standards for others around me.
-i am my toughest critic. no doubt about it.
-i am 5' 4" 1/4
-my favorite colors are blue and purple.
-i love lace.
-i am older mentally and more mature than most people my age.
-i would really love to be thrown a surprise party.
-dancing is how i express myself and vent best.
-i have not picked a profession in which i want to pursue.
-Mariah Carey and Kelly Clarkson were my favorite artists when i was little.
-Kelly Clarkson still is one of them.
-i am a freak for perfect grammar and spelling.
-all of the i's here will be lowercase because my right thumb is numb from Blair's class.
-i find it hard to express myself.
-like its easy to show affection, but not how much affection i have.
-i really would love to be Sarah Brown in Guys and Dolls.
-i never liked History class until my sophomore year when i had mr.caugherty.
-i dont care how much i disagree with her personal life, Brintey Spears songs rock my socks.
-i am VERY sarcastic. its funny to me. i know its not a good thing and i'm trying to stop.
-i LOVE being a woman. and express my sexiness freely.
-i do not find guys confusing.
-except my boyfriend at the time.
-i absolutely LOVE dressing up.
-if my family had more money, i would dress up more often.
-i have learned "to love what you have, and dont care about what you dont"
-it really takes zero effort to make me laugh.
-there is no doubt in my mind that i have been in love once.
-and yes i was heartbroken.
-i remember everything exactly that happened October 31-November 23, 2008 and on which day. Everything after that except January 1, 2009 is a blur until June, 2009.
-i cant talk about it.
-im often called the 'life of the party'; i really dont see it.
-im very negative on myself.
-i got this list idea totally from Kara Kloss.
-i miss her.
-i really miss 'the club'
-i consider myself smart because i never know whats going on in my honors class, yet i always get a few Bs away from straight-A's.
-i got my first B in history class 7th grade third quarter.
-i have never gotten lower than a B on my report card.
-i only swear to be funny.
-i have never eaten meat. except one time by accident.
-being social is my salvation.
-my favorite religion is Catholicism.
-i watched RENT everyday of my life 2 times a day for about a year.
-my favorite smiley is (:
-i dont cry during movies.
-i really dont cry at all. but when i do, its really bad. and its to myself or my bestfriend.
-i am an only child.
-i think i've come to hate my mom.
-it gets really lonely.
-i wanted to be in pagaents when i was little.
-my mom told me i couldnt do it.
-im afraid to fall in love ever again.
-i dont believe most teenagers when they say they're in love.
-my favorite number is 47.
-i have many regrets and think about the past way too much.
-my sweet sixteen party was one of the best days of my life.
-some general descriptions of my bestfriends are:
+the church-going, hilarious, beautiful young woman who would do anything for me but refuses to do anything for herself.
+the semi-rebellious, creative, talented, sarcastic young man who could do so much if he put his mind to it.
+the sensitive, respectful, understanding, hilarious, church-going young man who truly lives life to the fullest, has an inevitable past that he regrets and doesnt at the same time, and has a heart of gold.
+the determined, well-balanced, intelligent, talented young woman who is more hurt than she lets others know , but would still do anything for anybody.
+the hilarious but lost young man who tries to befriend and be beloved by everybody, but is losing his truest of true friends who have always been there because of it.
+the young woman who does the same.
+the quiet, hilarious, brilliant, fashionable, wall-flower of a young woman who does everything she can to get ahead academically, but is lost on every other stance.
+the hilarious, down-to-earth young man that everybody gets along with and claims to be bestfriends with. i dont see him often. but i still love him.
-i am extremely passionate and compassionate.
-i aspire to be a great and powerful Sop 1. im pretty much there but i can be better.
-one of my close friends is gay.
-when i was little i wanted to grow up and be a princess.
-most people tell me my singing is beautiful. everytime, i think they're lieing.
-i love english class.
-Aphrodite is my favorite mythical god.
-i want to try a melon and apricot.
-family guy is hilarious.
-what i truly want is to make others happy.
-i constantly second guess myself.
-i dont like sharing my dark side with people, fore i fear they will think i am a dark person, which im not.
-i really want my permit.
-I believe love is primarily a choice and only sometimes a feeling. If you want to feel love, choose to love and be patient.
-school is enjoyable for me. i see people i love and the work is mostly easy.
-i have a folder saved on my computer filled with quotes that i look at when im sad.
-i really love organic foods.
-my nutrition class this year is basically a review of what my eating lifestyle is. that made me feel good.
-i am very versatile with my music.
-i am abstinent.
-the longest and hardest i've cried was November 21, 2008. a close second was December 8, 2008.
-watching movies is something i can do for days on end.
-i LOVE cuddling. to the tenth degree.
-i dont like the kids in my grade.
-i hate girls. and i state it often.
-taylor swifts music is emotional for me to listen to.
-i like old school music.
-Step Brothers is a great movie.
-All Time Low is my favorite band.
-guys that 'act cool' are annoying.
-football players are the worst kind of guys. my bestfriend became one and i lost him.
-I loved Twilight before it became a fad.
-pre-teen girls annoy me.
-i dont like foods that are too soft, like jello, applesauce, and pasta.
-nor can i eat foods that are too hard, like jawbreakers
-i love affection.
-i sleepover at my friends houses sometimes just because i truly dont want to go home.
-im pretty good at picking up on things rather quickly.
-i think i could fall in love again. but i wont let myself.





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