X-Shadow Death-x• Show poetry

Before you read what's below I would like you to know I'm much happier now than when I wrote this..It is still true but I smile much more now

I am me, a girl, frustrated with my life. I now hate when people say change cause in my life change doesn't alter anything! I'm me, my own person, I'm not a fake. Some people call me Emo, others say I'm just troubled, But I havent really made my own decision yet. My friends call me soft hearted cause I don't act on everything somebody tells me. I keep alot to myself, but that's just because I care about how others feel and I'm afraid of how much I can do to a person when I'm angry. I can seem dead at times, that's when I'm in my own lil world. I'm very good at ignoring, it suits me best at times. I have a problem controlling how much I cry but I'm very good at covering any trace of tears upon my face. I'm me not you! I will never be you!


You should probably know these few things about me:
I type oki instead of okay or ok when I'm normal
When I'm upset I say okay then
When I'm sad I type ok
When I'm disappointed in you i type ... and stay silent for a while
When I'm silent I'm thinking
When I smile but not talk I'm wondering how long you're going to be around
When I laugh with a smile I love you
When I stay silent but hold your hand I want you to know that I'm here
When I'm listening to mcr I'm depressed
When I hold that butcher knife I only want to kill myself
When I say I'm going to do something and leave before you can say anything else
I'm going to cut
When I say I love you I mean it
When I say I miss you I mean it
When I type lol it doesn't necessarily mean that I'm laughing
When I look you in your eyes and smile I'm wondering why you're not kissing me
When I say I'm okay I'm lying
When I assure you I'm "fine" I'm still lying


I can be a very depressing person..but a fun one too..If you hate me then be it..I already hate myself

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LOVES:

MUSIC (Music is Ma Life..WIthout Music I would be [[DEAD]]
Sneakers: [[Red]] By Marc Echo,[[Converse]],[[Sketchers]],[[Nike]] are my fav out of all
SLEEP
FOOD
ANIMALS
TEXTING
IM
YENVER COURTNEY CAEZAR[[MYY BESTIEEE]]
TIPHANY REBECCA MONPLAISIR[[MY OTHER BESTIE]]
FREDERICK FELICITE[[TRUE FRIEND]][[MY BESTIEEEE]]
its too bad non of them wanna join AP

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DISLIKES:@
CATS
FAKES
JUDGEMENT
NEUROTICS:|
BEING COLD WITH NOBODY TO KEEP ME WARM
GOING TO SCHOOL AND FEEL LIKE EVERYBODY'S ON MY BACK
DRUGS:@
PEOPLE WHO HATE JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE DIFFERENT
DISAPPOINTING OTHERS
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AP Fam[ILY]
Sister:
Sinnocence *JoJo*

Sister and Bestfirend
Lexie!!!
I love youu hunn!!
Always gonna be there for you even if I'm miles away


Brother:
i am heart broken
*Mike*
I lovee youu hun!!

Crush and Real Life Bestfriend
JayBlue01
*Fredz*
I loveee youu babee
Always and forever babe!!

Big Sis
Angel of Dreams
*Kaela*

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HATE EMO?

READ THIS:

Isnt it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a a mini with a tshirt that barely cover anything?

Isnt it funny you can change your music taste to impress a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style, you give her a mouthful?

Isnt it funny that a guy can get away with being a gangsta but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone

are you laughing?

Isnt it funny an emo can be quiet all through the week but gets more *bunny* from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity?

Isnt it funny that you dont mind your friends drinking, smoking but the minute someone mentions emo music you can give them a lecture on melodramatic teenage outcasts?

im not laughing

Its so funny that you and your friends can make a girls life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.

Isnt it funny that you can call emos, punks, goths the retards but still manage to get through your day without an inch of guilt in your heart.

HOW YOU CAN CALL A GIRL A POSER, HOW CAN YOU SAY "YOUR NOT EMO" OR "ATTENTION SEEKER" WITHOUT SPENDING A SECOND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THERE ARE CUTS ON HER WRISTS AND WHY SHE SPENDS HER LUNCHTIMES CRYING INSTEAD OR LAUGHING WITH HER FRIENDS

keep on laughing

Isnt it funny you can say and do all this without any idea of what is going on in this persons life

without knowing her situation with her friends

or her family

or her LIFE

BRAVE ISNT GOING UP ON STAGE AND STRIPPING

BRAVE IS NOT SAYING A SPEECH

OR DUMPING YOUR BOYFRIEND

BRAVE IS

GOING TO SCHOOL ON MUFTI DAY AND NOT FOR A SECOND CARE WHAT THE *bunny*ES AROUND YOU ARE SAYING ABOUT YOUR CLOTHES

ITS LISTENING TO YOUR OWN MUSIC AND BEING PROUD OF IT

ITS GOING THROUGH EVERY DAY WITH THE THINGS PEOPLE SAY TO YOUR FACE AND BEHIND YOUR BACK AND YOU STILL KEEP QUIET

ITS KNOWING WHAT YOUR "FRIENDS" ARE SAYING ABOUT YOU AND STILL CALLING THEM YOUR FRIENDS

BRAVE IS KNOWING THAT TOMOROW ISNT A BRIGHT AND HAPPY FUTURE

ITS ANOTHER DAY OF DODGING RUMORS


Goths:
*Don't always wear black
*Don't worship Satan
*Are NOT evil
*Do not want to kill people
*Do not hate everybody
*Are not always depressed
*Can be happy too
*Are usually nice people
*Are normal, just like you

[if you suport goths or are one add this to your page]


I would like to share that

Emos:
*Don’t cut them self to get attention
*Don’t always cry
*Sometimes cry because they hurt
*Are not all bisexual
*Want to be included
*Are not babies
*Don’t always date emos
*Don't lable
*Want to be happy just like others

[if you suport emos or are emo add this to you page]

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╔═╦══╦═╗ Put this on your
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╚═╩╩╩╩═╝ or support emos xx
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To Every Guy

To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that took time to do what she wanted to do.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours
just to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful
no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared
through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything
so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her
when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy
even if you are not with her.

...This one bulletin is for you...

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...

i guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not repost this cuz they care more about their image

If you are a nice guy repost this with "We're a Dying Breed "

If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way
repost this with: "To Every Guy...



My name is Chris
I am three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I cant do a wrong
I cant speak at all
Or else I'm locked up
All day long.
When I'm awake I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home
When my mommy does come home
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe ill just get
One whipping tonight.
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's bar.
I hear him curse
My name is called
I press myself
Against the wall
I try to hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I starting to cry
He finds me weeping
Calls me ugly words,
He says its my fault
He suffers at work.
He slaps and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And run to the door
Hes already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken,
"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much to late
His face has been twisted
Into a unimaginable shape
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
O please God, have mercy!
O please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door
While i lay there motionless
Brawled on the floor
My name is Chris
I am three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me
And you can help
Sickens me top the soul,
And if you read this
and don't pass it on
I pray for your forgiveness
Because you would have to be
One heartless person
To not be effected
By this Poem
And because your effected,
Do something about it!
So all I ask you to do
Is pass this on!
IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE

Place an X by all the things you've done, or remove the X from the ones you have not, and send it to all of your friends (including me). This is for your entire life!
() Smoked a cigarette
() Drank so much you threw up
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
() Been arrested
() Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school
() Seen someone die
() Been to Canada
(x) Been to Florida
() Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Been lost
(x) Been on the opposite side of the country
() Gone to Washington , DC
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like dying....
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Played cops and robbers
(x) Recently colored with crayons
(x) Sang karaoke badly
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) Made prank phone calls
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
() Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(x) Danced in the rain
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
() Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) Blown bubbles
() Made a bonfire on the beach
(x) Crashed a party
(x) Gone roller-skating
() Ice-skating
(x) started a mosh pit
(x) own a knife
() ran away for more then a day
() get in a fight and lost
(x) get in a fight a won
() get a new girlfriend
(x) get dumped
() get smaked then dumped
() smack some one then dump em
() go to court
() go to jail
() get picked up by the cops
(x) tell a cop to :go to hell, go fuck him /her self ect...
() own a gun
(x) love some one
(x) hate some one
(x) love and hate some one ..what?
(x) think some one loves you
(x) think some ones hates you
() is gay
() is lez
() is bi
() is gay but no ones knows
() is lez but know one knows
() is bi but know one knows
(x) isint any of them
() has a fagot parent
(x) is beat by mom or dad
(x) works out
() has a tattue
() is goth
() is emo
(x) is something
() is an alien
() is "idk"
() has ever been in boot camp
(x) ever been to juvy
() loves life
(x) hates life
(x) whants to die
() whants to live
() whants to die but not kill them self
() whants to kill them self
(x) has ever cut
(x) likes to cut
(x) loves to cut
(x) fuckin loves to cut
() thinks cutting is wrong
(x) thinks cutting helps
() is a drama king/queen
(x) dosnt care what pepol think
() cares what pepol think
(x) has more then 1 friend
(x) has a best friend
() is a goody goody
() is a bad ass
() has gone out with a girl for over a month
() beleves in one gf one bf relation ships
(x) has some one to talk to

(x) think your smart

() think your dumb

(x) thing ur cool

() thik your lame

(x) liked this thingy?
(x) disliked this thingy

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Quotes

"Do onto others as you will like them to do onto you" - God, The Almight Father

"People only call you a liar when they're guilty of all the lies" - Me

"Don't cry before you get to the hell hole it would only make you more depressed"- Wyzelle Hippolyte

"Never let those who hurt you influence you to hurt the ones you love" - Me

"Let go of love and if it comes back then it was meant to be" - Shelton Michael

"Hang close to your enemies but closer to your REAL friends, they'll be there when you're dying whereas your enemies will be the ones who caused your death"-ME

"Don't say it unless you mean it"- Frederick Felicite

"I'm not your puppy, I'm not the snitch, I'm your fucking nightmare bitch!"- Me

"Never become someone you're not, because someone you're not can mess you up"- Me

"Screw your life and screw yourself"- idk


I'll write more later..