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"SOMEBODY CALL ME A DOCTOR...DOCTOR, THIS IS AN EMERGENCY MY LADYS STEPPIN OUT ON ME. MY HEART STOPS BEATIN AND NOW ITS GETTIN HARD TO BREATHE!"

Hey, my name's Gemma and formally known as FaLLeN - FaiR3. I've been away from the site for a while now and now that I'm back I thought it was time for a change...In my absence I wish I could say that alot of things have changed in my life but alot of it it pretty much the same...One thing I can say is have matured and with that so has my poetry. I hope you will enjoy my writes and please comment or hand advice in how I can improve. Lots of love and thanx xox

UPDATED:

Abt me:

I am: someone who is tryin to find their place in life
I hurt: because its impossible to forget
I love: those who deserve it
I hate: the pain im holding inside
I fear: that i'll end up alone
I regret: many things from my past
I hope: that one day I can forgive myself
I hear: the words she cannot bring herself to say
I crave: the things i'll never have
I cry: because I miss them
I care: about how others see me even though I shouldnt
I always: mess things up eventually its just a matter of time
I long: to be needed
I feel: Im on my own
I listen: but i never seem to be heard
I hide: the things that hurt me because I cant hurt her
I drive: Everyone away
I sing: To escape from myself for a while
I dance: to let go
I write: when theres things i need to say
I play: his games even though hes no longer in my life
I miss: her everyday
I search: for the answers i'll never have
I learn: but never change
I feel: the only way is up but i cant get there
I know: its never too late but ive gave up trying
I say: i dnt need you but i do
I succeed: but no-one notices
I fail: bcoz i give up
I dream: things were how they were before
I sleep: when my body gives up on me
I wonder: if we'll make it
I want: what i used to have
I worry: that i'll stop loving you
I have: nothing left to hold onto
I give: you everything i have but its never enough
I fight: but i lose
I wait: fotr the right time (bt by then its past)
I need: to be needed
I think: im going insane
I sadden: when she cries
I kill: all thoughts of suicide bt they come back
I break: your heart before you can break mine
I see: what you should have saw
I smell: shite
I taste: your greed and it makes me sick
I work: to keep you happy, it never seems to be good enough
I remember: her like i only seen her yesterday
I hold: onto you in my heart
I pray: just not in the way you want me too
I walk: away because im not supposed to love you
I read: too much into your words and i hurt myself
I burn: myself so i dnt have to cut
I breathe: but i dont want to
I touch: your heart but you still wnt let me in
I said: nothing but i should have talked
I have: nothing,so i cnt lose anything
I fall: everytime i hear they words
I live: because i promised i would
I die: every time i remember

NAME-GEMMA
AGE-21
BIRTHDAY-24/05/1988
BIRTH PLACE-GLASGOW SCOTLAND
MOTHERS NAME-SHARON
FATHERS NAME-

EYE COLOUR-BLUE
HAIR COLOUR-BRUNETTE BUT DYED PURPLE
PIERCINGS-A FEW
WHERE-8EARS, 2LIPS, EYEBROW, NECK AND NIPPLE
TATTOOS-THREE
STEREOTYPE-ALIVE BT DEAD!

FAV COLOUR-PINK
FAV BOOK-DESTROYED BY CATHY GLASS
FAV FILM-BEACHES/ANGELS WITH DIRTY FACES
FAV BAND-PINK/RIHANNA/ONE REP/THE SCRIPT
FAV PROG-OTH/THE OC/SEX N THE CITY
FAV PLACE-MY BED
FAV MEMORY-ME AND TINK @ PINK CONCERT 21/10/09
FAV PERSON-TINK
FAV CELEB-P!NK/SJP/HILARIE BURTON
FAV FOOD-CHOCO/PASTA/PIZZA

COKE OR PEPSI-PEPSI
CATS OR DOGS-CATS
MUSICOR TV-MUSIC

LAST KISS-RHIAN MCKENZIE
LAST CRUSH-STEPH MITCHELL
LAST BOYFRIEND-STEVEN HART
LAST GIRLFRIEND-CLARE BENNETT
LAST HEARTBREAK-CLARE'S DEATH
LAST MEMORY-ME N LAURA AT PICS (SAW 6)
LAST WEDDING-LIZ AND MARTINS
LAST FUNERAL-CLARE'S
LAST PHONE-SONY ERICSSON SUMMIT
LAST HOLIDAY- AYR WIV LAURA N RYAN IN MAY

LAST THING EATEN-TOAST MMM
LAST THING DRANK-HOT HOT TEA
LAST TIME CRIED-THURS
LAST TIME LAUGHED-SAT MORNING
LAST FILM WATCHED-SAW 6
LAST OUTFIT WOREN-PJS, HOODY, LEG WARMERS (COMFY)
LAST PERSON HUGGED-CLARKY
LAST PERSON WHO SAID I LOVE YOU TO ME-LITTO TAYLOR
LAST PERSON I SAID I LOVE YOU TO-RHIAN
LAST TIME HURT-A CUPLE OF WEEKS AGO
LAST TIME DISAPPOINTED-TONIGHT
LAST SONG I LISTENED TO-WHAT ABOUT NOW BY DAUGHTRY
LAST PROGRAMME I SEEN-SKINS SEASON 4 TRAILOR
LAST TIME WORKING-FORGOT WAT THAT IS LATELY

ANY PETS-2 CATS
NAMES-MOLLY N SOOTY
FAV DAY OF WEEK-FRIDAY
BOOK CURRENTLY READING-STREET KID BY JUDY WESTWATER (I THINK)
LAST POEM-RHAIN - IL POST IT

TEN PEOPLE I LOVE MOST:

1.TINK - MY LITTO SIS
2. MONKEYCHOPS - MY BESTY
3. RHIAN - MY GIRLFREND
4. TAYLOR - RHAINS BEAUTIFUL TOT
5. MAIDAN - RHIANS HANSOM TOT
6. MY MUM
7. MARK - MI BRO
8. CLARE - MY EX WHO PASSED AWI JAN 09
9. EMMA - MY BESTY WHO PASSED AWI AUUG 08
10.CLARKY

Five things in my head right now:

1."WUD U KISS UR MOTHER WIV THAT MOUTH?"
2."ITS LIKE IV CHECKED INTO REHAB, COZ UR MY DISEASE!"
3."A GA DO DO DO PUSH MY APPLE SHAKE MY TREE"
4."WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE MWHAHAHAHA"
5."DJ IGLOO FREEZION MA BAWS AFF OOOH YEA"

Five things I couldn't live without:

1. TINK
2. LAURA
3. RHIAN
4. MUSIC
5. SOCKS

Five things I want right now: (realistically)

1. A JOB, ANY JOB
2. TO MOVE INTO MY FLAT
3. TO FIX THINGS WIV MY GF
4. GOOD NEWS OF ANY SORT
5. TO MAKE LAURA SMILE

Five things to do before I die:

1. TO PUBLISH A BOOK OR POEMS
2. TO HAVE CHILDREN
3. TO STOP CUTTING
4. TO GET MARRIED
5. TO DIE LAUGHING

ONE WISH: THAT EVEN IF JUST ONE PERSON CAN RELATE OR TAKE SOMETHING FROM WHAT I WRITE IT WILL BE WORTH WHILE.

"Always expect the unexpected!"

"Sticks and stones wont break her bones but names will always hurt her"


"GOODBYE'S NEVER PAINFUL, UNLESS YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO SAY HELLO AGAIN......"

I'VE BEEN TO HELL...AND I'VE BEEN BACK




Thankies to everyone here on AP who has ever been a friend who welcomed me with open arms and has stopped by my page now and again to see how I am. Love you all xox