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juat a lil abot me. lately i have been so alive and so complete. lately all i can do is fill this large empty void inside me dwell in a empty emotionless fear of lonelyness. for the first time in my life i now feel alone completely alone. took months for me to open up and actualy talk to someone and now i no longer have them. its a deep pitt of dispair that has over welled me now and a distant light i know is out there i no longer wish to find. my emotions might change over time. bt threw the pain and the sffering i have felt over the last few days all i can do is weap in a phase caused by hunger for a feeling i can not find. forced into this with out choice or knowlage of it happening i'm shattered and now torn. worn out and destroyed. if i had a heart i wold probly be able to move on bt now my chest has no beating movement that drives me to anything. no pulse to even psh my warm blood threw. my heart stolen and ripped out. probly in a back ally dumpster for all i know.

so if i feel emotionless and speachless for any reason that might be it. in time i know i'll find something. bt in the mean time my hnger press's on and like a vampire in the night of a world with no living creatures, all i can do is feel empty. forever and always.



my name is george. most my friends call me chief or whitefeathers cause of my native american back ground. i grew up all over the s in a way. lived in CA, NM, OK, TX, LA, KA, AR, NC, and out of all those places. i am still insearch of a home. i move alot lately. my job sorta makes me now. grew up in fostercare. cased alot of moving too. no family of any kind. just me and me alone. by myself. like god planned i guess. i donno and dont care anymore. been to 9 differant contries. i do beleave here in a couple of months i will be moving soon again. my plans are to pack what i can carry. drive till i can't drive anymore and see where my feet get me from there. sorta thanking about a plane ride to europe for a few yers wonder and do whatever. embrace the arts over there. i donno yet. sounds nice. if not i might make it to a asian contry and see what i can do over there and wonder about the same. exploreing for a few years and keep searching for whatever i am looking for there. i wold stay in the U.S.A. but right now i know there is nothign i want or can even have so there for i am forceing my self to go off the grid here in a few months. sorta like a massive wipe of my exsistance away from everyone and everythign i know. open my mind for a new beginning and see what happens...

when i was 15 i ran away from fostercare. they found me when i was 17 1/2 and whats funny i still graduated 2nd in my class, lived on my own for two years. held a steady job, state track and cross country gold medalest 3 years running. turned down a full ride to texas university and a and m. for what. exploreing you could say. been at war not only in life but with my self for years. not unhappy with who i have become bt with where i came from. where i might go maybe. i've never been arested or charged with anythign. never trouble with any law. try doing whats right and been told from time to time i was a great guy or realy sweet and perfect. yet i still find my self alone in a world of millions. the world is not small enough. hence forth i will be leaving the part of it i know. a few years maybe, i might be back. but for what i know now i probly have nothign to come back to sence i have nothing i am leaveing.


hobbies would be art, tattooing, music and creating music, rock climbing, camping and hiking, and lately destroying just about anything pretty or cute i own.... some times i need a lil chaos in my life. lately this has been it.

fav music is thousand foot krutch(TFK), saving abel, eels, apociliptia, kings of lion, deamon hunter, hollywood undead, korn, skillet, LP and zao... abot anythign in that wide genre of music i will listen to. depending on my mood. but i love those bands.

fav food is by far mexican, i love mexican food. been all over europe and spain, had a lot of itilian food and its awsome too. sea food. real sea food form like japan or korea.... wow its so good. middle eastern food not so great but ok. looking to try new foods when i am out and able to explore and go anywhere i want. see what new countries i find and what new foods i find.

i can be shy and not so much when it comes to doing what i need to do. got alot of leadership traits but im low on self confadence about myself in looks i guess. probly cause every relationship i choose turns out to become a massive wave of distruction. my last relation ship was great. far past perfect. the ultrament view of what i wanted and thought i knew. thanks to stuff out of our controle it now lays in a city of desalent waiste. like a gorgeous stain glass window that has fallen and shattered. thats what it looks like now. other than that i can be out spoken and great person to be around. do i beleave i can be confadent toward females.... probly not. not somethign i have ever been good at. what i am good at is my job. too good. but my time is over. now its time to write a new chapter in a new novel of my life. god knows every other novel i try to write ends up in the trash. lets see where this one leads.


if you know me i am sorry but you will probly never see this guy again. ever in your life time. not unless you want to travel the world and by some miricle run into me. 3 months i will be home from this war in iraq. yes i am in the army. 2 months after that i get out forever. got a few saved up. over 6 years of money. and then some. my plan right now. drive my car to the air port. the day i get out the army. spr the moment kind of thing. leave m keys on the hood and a few hundred under my keys on the hood. a lil note that says "to whom ever it concerns have fun, play hard and keep it running. its yours." walk in and buy a plain ticket to the first flight out of the u.s.a. dont care where. i've learned 2 langages i am sure i can learn another. got my card and access to money. all i realy need is a good back pack and good shoes. i am sure my feet and eyes will lead me everywhere else. got enough to disapear for a few years before i have to actualy find somethign to do. i am sre i will study arts and tattooing in differant cultures. other than that who cares what i do.