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my name is katie.
i am 16 years old.
i dont care what people think.
i wear my heart on my sleve..so its quite scared.
i am a cutter.
i have quit. and i always go back.
i am an "addict"
i have quit. and i always go back.
i dont need anyone to tell me how screwed up i am..i am already aware.
i am fucked up, a fuck up, and stay fucked up.
the end.
there's always more than meets the eye..and im not the book that appears on my cover..
so if you want to get to know me..i will get to know you.

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If you would jump in front of a bullet for your girlfriend, boyfriend,
ex-girlfriend, ex-boyfriend, best friend, family member, or just a
person you love, repost this onto your page


I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.
I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.
I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.
I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I'm JAMICAN so I must smoke weed.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage
I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool.
I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO
I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.
I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy.
I'm a STONER, so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon and fried chicken.
I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST have a small penis.
I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm PREP, so I MUST be rich.
I don't FLIRT WITH GUYS AT SCHOOL so I MUST be gay.
I don't like the SUN so I MUST be albino.
I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo.
I wear BOY'S CLOTHES so I MUST be a lesbian.
I'm POSTING THIS so I MUST be a groupie.
~~~Put this on your profile if your sick of stereotypes~~~


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Guy + Girl = ♥
Guy + Guy = ♥
Girl + Girl = ♥
HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!!!!!!! ♥
Laundry is the only thing that should be separated

"α ѕнσт тσ кιℓℓ тнє ραιи
α ριℓℓ тσ ∂яαιи тнє ѕнαмє
α ρυяgє тσ ѕтσρ тнє gαιи
α ¢υт тσ вяєαк тнє νєιи
α ѕмσкє тσ єαѕє тнє ¢яανє
α ∂яιик тσ ωιи тнє gαмє
αи α∂∂ι¢тισи'ѕ αи α∂∂ι¢тισи
вє¢αυѕє ιт αℓωαуѕ нυятѕ тнє ѕαмє"

нєℓℓσ αи∂ ωєℓ¢σмє тσ тнє мєитαℓ нєαℓтн нσтℓιиє.
● ιf уσυ αяє αи σвѕєѕѕινє-¢σмρυℓѕινє, ρяєѕѕ 1 яєρєαтє∂ℓу.
● ιf уσυ αяє ¢σ-∂єρєи∂єит, ρℓєαѕє αѕк ѕσмєσиє тσ ρяєѕѕ 2 fσя уσυ.
● ιf уσυ нανє мυℓтιρℓє ρєяѕσиαℓιтιєѕ, ρяєѕѕ 3, 4, 5, αи∂ 6.
● ιf уσυ αяє ραяαиσι∂, ωє киσω ωнσ уσυ αяє αи∂ ωнαт уσυ ωαит; ѕтαу σи тнє ℓιиє ωнιℓє ωє тяα¢є уσυя ¢αℓℓ.
● ιf уσυ αяє ∂єℓυѕισиαℓ, ρяєѕѕ 7 αи∂ уσυя ¢αℓℓ ωιℓℓ вє тяαиѕfєяє∂ тσ тнє мσтнєя ѕнιρ.
● ιf уσυ αяє ѕ¢нιzσρняєиι¢, ℓιѕтєи ¢αяєfυℓℓу αи∂ α ѕмαℓℓ νσι¢є ωιℓℓ тєℓℓ уσυ ωнι¢н иυмвєя тσ ρяєѕѕ
● ιf уσυ αяє α мαиι¢-∂єρяєѕѕινє, ιт ∂σєѕи'т мαттєя ωнι¢н иυмвєя уσυ ρяєѕѕ, иσ σиє ωιℓℓ αиѕωєя.
● ιf уσυ αяє ∂уѕℓєχι¢, ρяєѕѕ 969696961001
● ιf уσυ нανє α иєяνσυѕ ∂ιѕσя∂єя, ρℓєαѕє fι∂gєт ωιтн тнє
нαѕн кєу υитιℓ α яєρяєѕєитαтινє ¢σмєѕ σи тнє ℓιиє.
● ιf уσυ нανє αмиєѕια, ρяєѕѕ 8 αи∂ ѕтαтє уσυя иαмє,
α∂∂яєѕѕ, ρнσиє иυмвєя, ∂αтє σf вιятн, ѕσ¢ιαℓ ѕє¢υяιту иυмвєя, αи∂ уσυя мσтнєя'ѕ мαι∂єи иαмє.

яєα∂ тнιѕ:

ιѕит ιт fυииу тнαт ωнєи уσυ gσ тσ тнє ѕнσρѕ ωιтн уσυя fяιєи∂ѕ уσυ ℓσσк ∂σωи αт тнє gιяℓ ωιтн вℓα¢к נєαиѕ αи∂ ѕтυ∂ѕ вυт ѕмιℓє αт тнє gιяℓ ωєαяιиg α α мιиι ωιтн α тѕнιят тнαт вαяєℓу ¢σνєя αиутнιиg؟

ιѕит ιт fυииу уσυ ¢αи ¢нαиgє уσυя мυѕι¢ тαѕтє тσ ιмρяєѕѕ α gυу вυт ωнєи ιт ¢σмєѕ тσ α gιяℓ ωнσ ℓιкєѕ нєя σωи мυѕι¢ αи∂ нєя σωи ѕтуℓє, уσυ gινє нєя α мσυтнfυℓ؟

ιѕит ιт fυииу тнαт α gυу ¢αи gєт αωαу ωιтн вєιиg α gαиgѕтα вυт тнє ємσ gєтѕ α мσυтнfυℓ fяσм єνєяуσиє

αяє уσυ ℓαυgнιиg؟

ιѕит ιт fυииу αи ємσ ¢αи вє qυιєт αℓℓ тняσυgн тнє ωєєк вυт gєтѕ мσяє ●вυииу● fяσм єνєяуσиє тнαи тнє gιяℓ ωнσ ѕℓєєρѕ αяσυи∂ αи∂ ѕєℓℓѕ нєя νιяgιиιту؟

ιѕит ιт fυииу тнαт уσυ ∂σит мιи∂ уσυя fяιєи∂ѕ ∂яιикιиg, ѕмσкιиg вυт тнє мιиυтє ѕσмєσиє мєитισиѕ ємσ мυѕι¢ уσυ ¢αи gινє тнєм α ℓє¢тυяє σи мєℓσ∂яαмαтι¢ тєєиαgє συт¢αѕтѕ؟

ιм иσт ℓαυgнιиg

ιтѕ ѕσ fυииу тнαт уσυ αи∂ уσυя fяιєи∂ѕ ¢αи мαкє α gιяℓѕ ℓιfє нєℓℓ αи∂ иσт киσω αиутнιиg αвσυт тнє ѕιℓєит вαттℓє ѕнє мιgнт вє fιgнтιиg.

ιѕит ιт fυииу тнαт уσυ ¢αи ¢αℓℓ ємσѕ, ρυикѕ, gσтнѕ тнє яєтαя∂ѕ вυт ѕтιℓℓ мαиαgє тσ gєт тняσυgн уσυя ∂αу ωιтнσυт αи ιи¢н σf gυιℓт ιи уσυя нєαят.

нσω уσυ ¢αи ¢αℓℓ α gιяℓ α ρσѕєя, нσω ¢αи уσυ ѕαу "уσυя иσт ємσ" σя "αттєитισи ѕєєкєя" ωιтнσυт ѕρєи∂ιиg α ѕє¢σи∂ тяуιиg тσ fιgυяє συт ωну тнєяє αяє ¢υтѕ σи нєя ωяιѕтѕ αи∂ ωну ѕнє ѕρєи∂ѕ нєя ℓυи¢нтιмєѕ ¢яуιиg ιиѕтєα∂ σя ℓαυgнιиg ωιтн нєя fяιєи∂ѕ

кєєρ σи ℓαυgнιиg

ιѕит ιт fυииу уσυ ¢αи ѕαу αи∂ ∂σ αℓℓ тнιѕ ωιтнσυт αиу ι∂єα σf ωнαт ιѕ gσιиg σи ιи тнιѕ ρєяѕσиѕ ℓιfє

ωιтнσυт киσωιиg нєя ѕιтυαтισи ωιтн нєя fяιєи∂ѕ

σя нєя fαмιℓу

σя нєя ℓιfє

вяανє ιѕит gσιиg υρ σи ѕтαgє αи∂ ѕтяιρριиg

вяανє ιѕ иσт ѕαуιиg α ѕρєє¢н

σя ∂υмριиg уσυя вσуfяιєи∂

вяανє ιѕ

gσιиg тσ ѕ¢нσσℓ σи мυfтι ∂αу αи∂ иσт fσя α ѕє¢σи∂ ¢αяє ωнαт тнє ●вυииу●ѕ αяσυи∂ уσυ αяє ѕαуιиg αвσυт уσυя ¢ℓσтнєѕ

ιтѕ ℓιѕтєиιиg тσ уσυя σωи мυѕι¢ αи∂ вєιиg ρяσυ∂ σf ιт

ιтѕ gσιиg тняσυgн єνєяу ∂αу ωιтн тнє тнιиgѕ ρєσρℓє ѕαу тσ уσυя fα¢є αи∂ вєнιи∂ уσυя вα¢к αи∂ уσυ ѕтιℓℓ кєєρ qυιєт

ιтѕ киσωιиg ωнαт уσυя "fяιєи∂ѕ" αяє ѕαуιиg αвσυт уσυ αи∂ ѕтιℓℓ ¢αℓℓιиg тнєм уσυя fяιєи∂ѕ

вяανє ιѕ киσωιиg тнαт тσмσяσω ιѕит α вяιgнт αи∂ нαρρу fυтυяє

ιтѕ αиσтнєя ∂αу σf ●вυииу●ιиg αи∂ ∂σ∂gιиg яυмσяѕ

кєєρ σи ℓαυgнιиg
ιf уσυ αgяєє ρυт тнιѕ σи υя вℓσg
αи∂ α∂νιѕє σтнєяѕ тσ ∂σ ѕσ
ѕ¢яєω тнє ємσ нαтєяѕ.



вєιиg тяυє тσ уσυяѕєℓf
иσω тнєяє ιѕ α fιgнт
ρєσρℓє ∂σи'т υи∂єяѕтαи∂
уσυ ωιѕн уσυ ¢συℓ∂ нι∂є

fιи∂ α ∂αяк ¢σяиєя
тσ ¢υяℓ υρ αи∂ ∂ιє
вυт иєνєя gινє υρ тнє fιgнт
нαρριиєѕѕ ιѕ αℓℓ уσυ ωαит

уσυ киσω ιт яιgнт
ѕσ ωну ιѕ ιт ѕσ нαя∂
тυяи тнєιя вα¢кѕ
мαкє уσυ ωαииα ¢яу

ѕσмє gєт нυят
тнєу ωαит уσυ
тнє ωαу тнєу мα∂є уσυ
σтнєяѕ fσя ωнαт уσυ αяє

вυт уσυ ωιℓℓ киσω ωнσ ¢αяєѕ
иєνєя нανє αиу fєαя
тнєу ωιℓℓ ℓσνє уσυ
fσя ωнαт уσυ αяє
αи∂ fιgнт σff αиуσиє ωнσ ∂αяєѕ


тнєѕє αяє уσυя тяυє fяιєи∂ѕ
тσ ℓσνє αи∂ тσ нσℓ∂
тσ ℓιѕтєи ωнєи иєє∂є∂
тσ ¢σνєя тнє ѕσяєѕ
ѕσ уσυ нυят иσ мσяє

тнєѕє αяє уσυя тяυє fяιєи∂ѕ
тσ ℓσνє αи∂ тσ нσℓ∂
тσ ℓιѕтєи ωнєи иєє∂є∂
тσ ¢σνєя тнє ѕσяєѕ
ѕσ уσυ нυят иσ мσяє


ιf уσυ ωαит тσ вє тяυє тσ уσυяѕєℓf ρσѕт тнιѕ σи уσυя ραgє! тяυє fяιєи∂ѕ ωιℓℓ αℓωαуѕ вє тнєяє тняσυgн ιт αℓℓ! єνєи тняσυgн тнє яєѕт тнєу'ℓℓ иєνєя ℓєт уσυ fαℓℓ!

ι’м иσт α вιт¢н ----- ι נυѕт ℓιкє вєιиg яυ∂є.
ι'м иσт α ѕιииєя ----- ι נυѕт ¢αит ∂σ αиутнιиg яιgнт.
ι'м иσт ∂єρяєѕѕє∂ ----- ι'м נυѕт αℓωαуѕ ѕα∂.
ι'м иσт ¢яуιиg ----- му єуєѕ αяє נυѕт fυℓℓ σf тєαяѕ.
ι’м иσт ℓινιиg ----- ι נυѕт кєєρ вяєαтнιиg.
ι'м иσт ѕтυρι∂ ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т gєт ιт.
ι’м иσт тяуιиg ----- ι’νє αℓяєα∂у gινєи υρ.
ι'м иσт ωєιя∂ ----- ι'м נυѕт ∂ιffєяєит.
ι'м иσт α яєвєℓ ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т тαкє σя∂єяѕ.
ι'м иσт α вєℓιєνєя ----- ι’νє αℓяєα∂у ℓσѕт нσρє.
ι'м иσт α fυ¢к υρ ----- ι נυѕт мαкє мιѕтαкєѕ.
ι'м иσт ємσтισиαℓ ----- ι נυѕт нανє α ℓσт σf fєєℓιиgѕ.
ι'м иσт α ¢υттєя ----- ι נυѕт fσυи∂ α ωαу тσ gєт яι∂ σf ραιи.
ι'м иσт ℓαυgнιиg ----- ι иєє∂ тσ ѕмιℓє fιяѕт
ι'м иσт ρєяfє¢т ----- ι ∂σи’т ωαит тσ вє.
ι'м иσт ιgиσяιиg ----- ι נυѕт ¢нσσѕє иσт тσ ℓιѕтєи.
ι'м иσт α gσѕѕιρ ----- ι нανє му σωи ℓιfє.
ι'м иσт ιмραтιєит ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т ℓιкє тσ ωαιт.
ι'м иσт тσυgн ----- ι נυѕт ∂σи’т тαкє ѕнιт.
ι'м иσт σριиισиαтє∂ ----- ι נυѕт νσι¢є ωнαт ι тнιик.
ι'м иσт qυєѕтισиιиg ----- ι נυѕт нανє му ∂συвтѕ.
ι'м иσт нι∂ιиg ----- ι נυѕт ωαит тσ ∂ιѕαρρєαя.

HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

REPOST THIS ON YOUR AUTHOR PAGE IF YOU BELIEVE HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!!

ABORTION IS MURDR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A baby cries for its first and last time when its aborted.
You can deny it, but its true
A baby is a liveing thing
Abortion is a form of child abuse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
REPOST THIS IF U THINK ABORTION IS WRONG!!
Abortion is Wrong!!

Month One
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of
your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your
heart beat is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could
definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home
though. It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl !! I hope that makes you happy. I always want
you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad
too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.

Month Four
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a
lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my
fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it
too.

month Five
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a
baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?

Month Six
I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it?
It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!! No . . .

Month Seven
Mommy, I'm not okay. I'm dead, how could you be so mean? Why didn't you want me Mommy?

Every Abortion Is Just . . .
One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak. Take this and if you have a heart, place this on your page.
Abortion is Just wrong it is murder

I remembered what you said.
you told me not to drink, Mom
So I had a Sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself,
the way you said I would,
That I didn't drink and drive,
though some friends said I should.
I made a healthy choice,
and your advice to me was right
as the party finally ended,
and the kids drove out of sight.
I got into my car,
sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming, Mom
something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
The kid that caused this wreck was drunk,"
Mom, His voice seems far away.
My own blood all around me,
as I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
"This girl is going to die."
I'm sure the guy had no idea,
while he was flying high,
because he chose to drink and drive,
now I would have to die.
So why do people do it, Mom
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell sister not to be afraid, Mom
tell daddy to be brave,
and when I go to heaven,
put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.
Someone should have taught him,
that it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter, Mom
I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
and I'm so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me Mom,
as I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say I love you, Mom
So I love you and good-bye.

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry if I don't meet your standards
I'm sorry if I'm not a
I'm sorry if my boobs aren't big enough to "satisfy" your needs
I'm sorry if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs
I'm sorry if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl"
I'm sorry if I'm not tanned enough for you
I'm sorry if I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you
I'm sorry if I'm weird
I'm sorry that I write about you every day
I'm sorry if I don't have a dream body that turns you on
I'm sorry if I'm not tall enough
I'm sorry if I don't have sex with you on the first date
I'm sorry if I'm annoying
I'm sorry if my hair is not long enough.
I'm sorry that I'm different from those other girls
I'm sorry I won't hang all over you, and be a complete tramp to make you happy.
I'm sorry that I actually care about you and actually call to see how you're doing.

But most of all...

I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.
If you're a girl and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry".
If you're one of the FEW GUYS with enough balls to repost and you would never make your girl feel this way, repost as "I love you just the way you are".

Place an X by all the things you've done.
(x) Smoked a cigarette
(x) Drank so much you threw up
(X) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
() Been arrested
() Gone on a blind date
(X) Skipped school
() Seen someone die
() Been to Canada
() Been to Florida
() Been to Mexico
() Been on a plane
(X) Been lost
() Been on the opposite side of the country
() Gone to Washington, DC
(X) Swam in the ocean
(X) Felt like dying...
(X) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Played cops and robbers
(X) Recently colored with crayons
(X) Sang karaoke badly
(X) Paid for a meal with only coins
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) Made prank phone calls
(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
() Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(X) Danced in the rain
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
() Been kissed under the mistletoe
() Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) Blown bubbles
() Made a bonfire on the beach
() Crashed a party
(X) Gone roller-skating
(X) Ice-skating
() Started a mosh pit
(X) Own a knife
() Ran away for more then a day
() Got in a fight and lost
() Got in a fight a won
() Got a new girlfriend
() Been dumped
() Been smacked then dumped
() Smacked someone then dumped them
() Gone to court
() Gone to jail
() Been picked up by the cops
() Tell a cop to: go to hell, go him/her self ect...
() Own a gun
(X) Love someone
() Hate someone
() Love and hate someone
() Think someone loves you
(X) Think someone hates you
() Is gay
(x) Is lez
() Is bi
() Is gay but no one knows
() Is lez but no one knows
() Is bi but no one knows
() Isn't any of them
() Works out
() Has a tattoo
() Is a goth
(x) Is emo
(x) Is something
() Is an alien
() Is "idk"
(X) Is no one
() Has ever been in boot camp
() Ever been to juvy
() Loves life
(X) Hates life
(X) Wants to die
(x) Wants to live
(x) Wants to die but not kill themself
(X) Wants to kill themself
(X) Has ever cut
(X) Likes to cut
(X) Loves to cut
(X) F*cking loves to cut
(x) Thinks cutting is wrong
(X) Thinks cutting helps
() Is a drama king/queen
(X) Doesn't care what people think
() Cares what people think
(X) Has more than one friend
(x) Has a best friend
() Is a goody-goody
() Is a bad-
(x) Has gone out with a girl for over a month
(X) Believes in one gf one bf relationships
(x) Has someone to talk to
(x) Thinks you're smart
(x) Thinks you're dumb
() Thinks you're cool
(x) Thinks you're lame
() Liked this thingy
() Disliked this thingy

Sexuality

[X] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[X] I love to flirt.
[_]I've been kissed in the rain. =]
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[_] have kissed a stranger.
[_] is gay
[x] is lez
[_] is bi
[_] is gay but no ones knows
[_] is lez but know one knows
[_] is bi but know one knows
[_] isnt any of them
[x]has had sex
[x] has had sex with more then one person
[complicated] regrets it
[_] is a virgin

Drugs/Alcohol

[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[_] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[_] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I take anti-depressants.
[_] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose
[X] I'm addicted to self harm
[X] I've woken up crying.
[X] I've cried myself to sleep.

Cutting Warning Label

Before you make that first cut, remember--

You will find the blood and pain release addictive.

Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren't deep and will heal easily--

They will get deeper.

They will scar.

They will take sometimes months to heal.

And years for the scars to fade.

If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again.

It will spread when you run out of skin.

Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame.

Even if you are the most honest person ever to live-- You will find yourself lying to the people you love.

You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison.

You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched.

Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don't know how bad it will be.

Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100.

Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting--

Cutting and covering up cutting.

And just wait till that first time you cut "too deep."

And you freak out because the blood won't stop...

And you are gasping...

And you feel yourself shaking all over.

You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but

you can`t tell anyone.

So you sit there alone...

Praying it will be okay--

Swearing you'll never let it go this far again...

But you will, and further....

Don't worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the ER.

And the better you get at treating your cuts,

The deeper they get.

You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find youself spending 20, 30, or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy.

You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat everytime you go to the counter to ring up your order. Butterfly strips--

3 or 4 different kinds of dressings...

Betadine...

Antibiotic cream...

Medical tape...

Scar reducers...

You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will just move and noone will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things.

And at the same time secretly hope someone will notice--

Someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same supplies.

Someone who understands--

But of course that never happens.

Medical supplies won't be the only thing you spend all your money on.

Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe--

Longsleeve shirts in summer colors, bracelets, wristbands, boots...

The list goes on and on.

You will start looking at everyone in a different way.

Scanning their bodies for any signs of SI.

Just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you

don't feel so terribly alone.

You wont even think about it,

As your eyes scan their wrists arms.

Hoping, just hoping they will be like you.

But they are not.

You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone.

You will start doing a lot of things alone.

You will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels.

You will always be cleaning up the blood.

Scrubbing your bathroom floor.

Wiping the blood off your keyboard.

You won't be able to make it through a day without cutting.

Next thing you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergencies.

When you get really desperate,

Anything will be a cutting tool...

Scissors...a car key...a needle...a paperclip...even a pen.

Doesn't matter what it is if you need to cut bad enough you will find something.

Say goodbye to things you took for granted.

Like wearing shorts or sandals...pedicures...sleeveless tops.

A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you.

Get ready to itch.

Because you will itch and itch.

So much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease.

You will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully.

You will dream about cutting.

You will dream about being exposed.

It will haunt you day and night and take over your life.

You will wish you never made that first cut because while you absolutely hate cutting--

At the same time you love it and can not live without it...

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Mommy... Johnny brought a gun to school,
He told his friends that it was cool,
And when he pulled the trigger back,
It shot with a great crack.
Mommy, I was a good girl, I did what I was told,
I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold!
But Mommy, when I went school that day,
I never said good-bye,
I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry. When Johnny shot
the gun, He hit me and another,
And all because Johnny, Got the gun from his older brother.
Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much,
And please tell Chris; my boyfriend; That it wasn't just a crush.
And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now,
And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now, And
tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best; Mommy, I'm not
the first, I'm no better than the rest.
Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class,
And never to forget this, And please don't let this pass.
Mommy, why'd it have to be me? No one deserves this,
Mommy, warn the others, Mommy I left without a kiss.
And Mommy tell the doctors; I know they really did try,
I think I even saw a doctor, Trying not to cry.
Mommy, I'm slowly dying, With a bullet in my chest,
But Mommy please remember, I'm in heaven with the rest. Mommy I ran as
fast as I could,
When I heard that crack, Mommy, listen to me if you would,
I wanted to go to college; I wanted to try things that were new,
I guess I'm not going with Daddy, On that trip to the new zoo.
I wanted to get married, I wanted to have a kid,
I wanted to be an actress, Mommy, I wanted to live.
But Mommy I must go now, The time is getting late,
Mommy, tell my Chris, I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date.
I love you Mommy, I always have, I know; you know it's true, And Mommy all
I wanted to say is,"Mommy, I love you."



***In Memory of The Columbine Students Who Were Lost***.

"The Last Night"

You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know it's a lie.

[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be.
The last night you'll spend alone,
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go,
I'm everything you need me to be.

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all
I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But I know it's a lie.

[Chorus]

The last night away from me

[Bridge:]
The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand I will help you hold on
Tonight,
Tonight.

[Chorus]

I won't let you say goodbye,
I'll be your reason why.

The last night away from me,
Away from me.


"October" by Evanescense

I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it,
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You're my only strength,
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again.

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
In all my bitterness,
I ignored,
All that's real and true,
All I need is you,
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong,
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

Constantly ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it's cut too deep,
I'll never stray again.

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love,
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.


AP Family

-mom
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