Well, to start off I am Tiana Cross and I am 16 years old. My mom is not the most loving mom. I know she wants the best for me and cares about me but she seems to think that the problems i have will be put behind me and forgotten...you see, I cut....and i have been i stopped like a year then stopped for like 4 months but im back to my old self...I am also having trouble with my eating :/ I have a lot going on in my life and I am trying to deal with it. I am also depressed but not really depressed like I want to die kind. I feel like my mother can't ever be pleased. All she tells me is that I am fat in "nice" ways according to her. i really want to just run away sometimes...
"i wanna die
i wanna bleed
i wanna cry
but all i can do
is just keep walking
with a smile on my face
and pretend the scars
aren't really there" ~Author Unknown
.*.♥.*.♥~A true friend can see the suffering in your eyes, while everyone else can just see the smile on your face~♥~
Month 1
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.
Month 2
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here.
Month 3
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.
Month 4
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.
Month 5
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?
Month 6
I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!!
Month 7
Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. he is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me, Mommy?
Every Abortion Is Just . . .
One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak. Repost this if you have a heart and are against Abortion.
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put this on your page if you think
>>>>>>>ITS OKAY TO CRY<<<<<<<<
...Have You Ever...
[x] Smoked a cigarette
[_] Drank so much you threw up
[X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[_] Been arrested
[_] Gone on a blind date
[_] Skipped school
[X] Seen someone die
[_] Been to Canada
[x] Been to Florida
[_] Been to Mexico
[X] Been on a plane
[X] Been lost
[_] Been on the opposite side of the country
[_] Gone to Washington , DC
[X] Swam in the ocean
[X] Felt like dying....
[X] Cried yourself to sleep
[X] Played cops and robbers
[X] Recently colored with crayons
[_] Sang karaoke badly
[X] Paid for a meal with only coins
[X] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[X] Made prank phone calls
[X] Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[_] Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
[X] Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
[X] Danced in the rain
[X] Written a letter to Santa Claus
[_] Been kissed under the mistletoe
[_] Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
[X] Blown bubbles
[X] Made a bonfire on the beach
[_] Crashed a party
[X] Gone roller-skating
[X] Ice-skating
[X] I'm single
[_]I'm in a relationship
[_] I've had someone cheat on me.
[_] I've gone on a blind date.
[_] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[_] have a fear of commitment.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[_] I've cheated in a relationship.
[_] I've been the cheatee ( if that means that you were the person some cheated on their gf/bf with )
[_] I've gotten divorced
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them
[_] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[_} i've been molested and/or raped repeatdly by sumone i knew
Sexuality
[_] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[_] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[X] I love to flirt.
[_]I've been kissed in the rain. =]
[_] I've hugged a stranger.
[_] have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[_]I am a terrible liar.
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[X] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[X] I've cheated on a test.
[_] I've run a red light.
[_] I've been suspended from school.
[_] I've witnessed a crime.
[_] I've been in a fist fight.
[_] I've been arrested.
[_] I've shoplifted
Drugs/Alcohol
[_] I've consumed alcohol.
[_] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[X] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[_] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[_] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[_] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[_] I take anti-depressants.
[X] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[_] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose
[X] I'm addicted to self harm
[X] I've woken up crying.
[X] I've cried myself to sleep.
Death and Suicide
[_] I'm afraid of dying.
[_] I hate funerals.
[_] I've seen someone dying.
[X] Someone i no has attempted suicide.
[X] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[_] I've attempted suicide.
Random
[X] I can sing well.
[_] I open up to others easily.
[X] I watch the news.
[_] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[X] I curse regularly.
[X] I sing in the shower.
[_] I am a morning person.
[_] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[_] I'm a snob about grammar.
[_] I am a sports fanatic.
[X] I twirl my hair
[_] have "x"s in my screen name
[_] I love being neat
[_] I love Spam
[_] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[X] I bake well.
[_] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[X] I would wear pajamas to school.
[_] I like Martha Stewart.
[X] I know how to shoot a gun.
[_] I am in love with love.
[X] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[X] I eat fast food weekly
[X] I believe in ghosts.
[_] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[_] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[_]I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish.(depending on where)
[X] I love white chocolate
[X] I bite my nails
[X] I play video games (sometimes)
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[X]I'm good at remembering names.
[X] I'm good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[_]I have tried to join a circus and failed
[X] My answers are totally honest
Repost this on your page and put X’s in the boxes that apply to you and _ that don’t
"i wanna die
i wanna bleed
i wanna cry
but all i can do
is just keep walking
with a smile on my face
and pretend the scars
aren't really there" ~Author Unknown
.*.♥.*.♥~A true friend can see the suffering in your eyes, while everyone else can just see the smile on your face~♥~
Month 1
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.
Month 2
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here.
Month 3
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.
Month 4
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.
Month 5
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?
Month 6
I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!!
Month 7
Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. he is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me, Mommy?
Every Abortion Is Just . . .
One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak. Repost this if you have a heart and are against Abortion.
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.........................................
........VV
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.....VVVVVVVV
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................................VVVVVVVVVV
.................................VVVVVVVVV
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put this on your page if you think
>>>>>>>ITS OKAY TO CRY<<<<<<<<
...Have You Ever...
[x] Smoked a cigarette
[_] Drank so much you threw up
[X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[_] Been arrested
[_] Gone on a blind date
[_] Skipped school
[X] Seen someone die
[_] Been to Canada
[x] Been to Florida
[_] Been to Mexico
[X] Been on a plane
[X] Been lost
[_] Been on the opposite side of the country
[_] Gone to Washington , DC
[X] Swam in the ocean
[X] Felt like dying....
[X] Cried yourself to sleep
[X] Played cops and robbers
[X] Recently colored with crayons
[_] Sang karaoke badly
[X] Paid for a meal with only coins
[X] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[X] Made prank phone calls
[X] Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[_] Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
[X] Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
[X] Danced in the rain
[X] Written a letter to Santa Claus
[_] Been kissed under the mistletoe
[_] Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
[X] Blown bubbles
[X] Made a bonfire on the beach
[_] Crashed a party
[X] Gone roller-skating
[X] Ice-skating
[X] I'm single
[_]I'm in a relationship
[_] I've had someone cheat on me.
[_] I've gone on a blind date.
[_] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[_] have a fear of commitment.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[_] I've cheated in a relationship.
[_] I've been the cheatee ( if that means that you were the person some cheated on their gf/bf with )
[_] I've gotten divorced
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them
[_] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[_} i've been molested and/or raped repeatdly by sumone i knew
Sexuality
[_] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[_] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[X] I love to flirt.
[_]I've been kissed in the rain. =]
[_] I've hugged a stranger.
[_] have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[_]I am a terrible liar.
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[X] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[X] I've cheated on a test.
[_] I've run a red light.
[_] I've been suspended from school.
[_] I've witnessed a crime.
[_] I've been in a fist fight.
[_] I've been arrested.
[_] I've shoplifted
Drugs/Alcohol
[_] I've consumed alcohol.
[_] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[X] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[_] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[_] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[_] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[_] I take anti-depressants.
[X] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[_] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose
[X] I'm addicted to self harm
[X] I've woken up crying.
[X] I've cried myself to sleep.
Death and Suicide
[_] I'm afraid of dying.
[_] I hate funerals.
[_] I've seen someone dying.
[X] Someone i no has attempted suicide.
[X] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[_] I've attempted suicide.
Random
[X] I can sing well.
[_] I open up to others easily.
[X] I watch the news.
[_] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[X] I curse regularly.
[X] I sing in the shower.
[_] I am a morning person.
[_] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[_] I'm a snob about grammar.
[_] I am a sports fanatic.
[X] I twirl my hair
[_] have "x"s in my screen name
[_] I love being neat
[_] I love Spam
[_] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[X] I bake well.
[_] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[X] I would wear pajamas to school.
[_] I like Martha Stewart.
[X] I know how to shoot a gun.
[_] I am in love with love.
[X] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[X] I eat fast food weekly
[X] I believe in ghosts.
[_] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[_] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[_]I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish.(depending on where)
[X] I love white chocolate
[X] I bite my nails
[X] I play video games (sometimes)
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[X]I'm good at remembering names.
[X] I'm good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[_]I have tried to join a circus and failed
[X] My answers are totally honest
Repost this on your page and put X’s in the boxes that apply to you and _ that don’t
- Last seen on Nov 30 12:22 PM. Member since March 11.
- I'm a topaz horse poet for 16 comments.
- I am a 16 year old girl (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm being stressed out.
- I am in the groups Eating Disorders, To Write Love On Her Arms, cutters and bleeders
- I have 16 comments, 16 poems
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I have to tell you
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You said you hate me
then why do you
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fallin 4u again on November 26i miss you tooooooo so much i will call you when i get a chance i promise!!! i love you tiana!!!
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scarletepitome : ehem on June 5you are my fave tiana.
not like the tiana in my yearbook. LOL -
fallin 4u again : heyyy on March 17Tiana i love youu!!!!!
