Tothegrave• Show poetry

"In the midst of all the heartache, look for the roses. When destruction tears the world in two, can you find the roses? There must be more than a tear while I'm falling. A memory doesn't always cut away. No strength to pray for the end. The weeds turn to roses." -Howard Jones, Blood Has Been Shed, 'She Speaks To Me'

"Men of broader intellect know that there is no sharp distinction between the real and the unreal..." -H.P. Lovecraft, "The Tomb"

"When life gets tough, you just have to throw your hands up and say, 'well, all right'... cause it's probably going to get a hell of a lot worse." -Trey Parker as Alferd Packer, Cannibal! The Musical

"Darkness becomes this child..." -Tony Kakko, "Broken"

"Victims... Aren't we all?" - Brandon Lee/Eric Draven, The Crow

"Time has it's way, and I'll be right here, waiting for you."-Jason Wisdom, 'Into Oblivion'

"Nothing is trivial." - Brandon Lee/Eric Draven, The Crow

"Real love is forever." - Brandon Lee/Eric Draven, The Crow

"Everyone betrays the dream, but who cares for it? Oh Hailey, no, I could never walk away from you."-Mark Z Danielewski, 'Only Revolutions'

"All I won't abandon. All I have. She's all that I have. She's all that I'll ever have."-Mark Z Danielewski, 'Only Revolutions'

"I played with Judd, and I played with mommy... now I want to play with you..."-Stephen King, 'Pet Semetary'

"No tears, please... it's a waste of good suffering."-Doug Bradley/Pinhead, Hellraiser

"I am she that liveth and was dead, and behold, I am alive forever more, and have the keys of hell and death."-Mariano Baino, Dark Waters

"It is not hands that call us. It is desire."-Doug Bradley/Pinhead, Hellbound: Hellraiser II.

"I'm a son of yours, and I'm giving up...'- Moonspell, 'Everything Invaded'

"This world is not our world."- Indian Doctor Who Survived The Holocaust

"What do you look like?" ... "It depends on who's looking." -The Mothman Prophecies

I am a 21 year old male from Delta, Colorado, trying to make it in this crazy world.

"Hello my friend, we meet again..."
-Creed, 'My Sacrifice'

"I'll stay, right here with all these familiar faces..."
-Sevendust, 'Skeleton Song'

"Look at yourself, and live again"
-Sevendust, 'Live Again'

I will one day become an actor/director/screenwriter of movies. I have a mostly completed 106 page script, called Letter To Dana, based on songs from the band Sonata Arctica. If you want to know more about it, just ask, but so far the script has gotten very good reviews. It was basically my way to deal with losing somebody that I used to love.

"Love goes on, and I hope you will enjoy your ride..."
-Memento, 'Figure 8'

"When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight..."
-The All American Rejects, 'It Ends Tonight'

"Here's to hoping this becomes the soundtrack to your misery..."
-It Dies Today, 'A Constant Reminder'

Other than writing poetry and screenplays, my interests basically include drinking alcohol and watching movies. My favorite movies include, but are not limited to:

-Hellraiser
-Hellbound: Hellraiser II
-The Mist
-1408
-Event Horizon
-The Toxic Avenger
-The Toxic Avenger Part II
-The Toxic Avenger Part III: The Last Temptation Of Toxie
-Citizen Toxie: The Toxic Avenger Part IV
-Terror Firmer
-Poultrygeist: Night Of The Chicken Dead
-Cannibal! The Musical
-Behind The Mask: The Rise Of Leslie Vernon
-Night of the Living Dead
-Dawn of the Dead
-Day of the Dead
-Land of the Dead
-Diary of the Dead
-Donnie Darko
-30 Days Of Night
-American History X
-BASEketball
-Orgazmo
-Tropic Thunder
-Batman Begins
-The Dark Knight
-The Nightmare Before Christmas
-Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber Of Fleet Street
-Hatchet
-Hard Candy
-Nightbreed
-Dark Waters (The Mariano Baio one)
-It
-Automaton Transfusion (though the 'ending' sucks)
-In The Mouth Of Madness
-Jurassic Park
-The Texas Chain Saw Massacre (1974)
-The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (2003)
-Silent Hill
-Run, Fat Boy, Run
-Shaun Of The Dead
-Hot Fuzz
...and more to come...

"You brought this verdict on yourself... I hope you cry for the ones you lost..."
-Demon Hunter, 'Beauty Through The Eyes Of A Predator'

"Tell me what I'm supposed to do, with all these leftover feelings of you..."
-Rise Against, 'Roadside'

"Save me... Take me away..."
-Sonata Arctica, 'The World's Forgotten, The Word's Forbidden'

"They live, despite a chance to stop..."
-Calico System, 'They Live'

I am a pretty different individual, not by choice but rather by nature. I would hold no joy in being a cookie cutter product of this defunct society, and hold much pride in the fact that I am who I am, despite external factors who would love to change that. My favorite bands include, but once again are not limited to:

-SONATA ARCTICA (my number one, duh)
-Moonspell
-HIM
-Blood Has Been Shed
-Ensiferum
-Wintersun
-Katy Perry (weird, right?)

I listen to a lot of music, but those are my favorites.

"In the world of faded memories, where you're still in love with me..."
-Cold, 'Happens All The Time'

"I see you standing here, but you're so far away..."
-Skillet, 'Yours To Hold'

"One last song, given to an angel's son..."
-Sevendust, 'Angel's Son'

"The line is being drawn through my heart..."
-Bleeding Through, 'Line In The Sand'

I am only looking to survive this life, and would prefer not to die alone. I am a good boyfriend, very devout, but I am unfortunately given the ability to, well, not talk to girls. But that matters not, I still hold on to the hope that when the right girl comes along I will have no problem talking to her. But that is not now, and I am okay with that.

"I was raised from a broken seed... I grew up to be an unwanted weed..."
-Sonata Arctica, 'Broken'

"Say a prayer, but let the good times roll, in case God doesn't show..."
-Fall Out Boy, 'Thanks For The Memories'

"I'm the sheep who lost his way, I'm still looking for it every day..."
-Bleeding Through, 'For Love And Failing'

"And I can't remember, to know this, would conquer me..."
-Disturbed, 'Remember'

"We are like the living dead, sacrificing all we had, for a frozen heart and a soul on fire..."
-HIM, 'Soul On Fire'

I don't write for other people. I write what I am feeling, times of depression, times of happiness, whatever is on my mind. I love poetry cause it's the only time I don't give a shit about anyone except myself. If something I write influences or helps you, that's great, but I wrote it for myself. Writing is the only time I put myself first, which is probably much to my own detriment, but that's just the kind of person I am.

"Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you..."
-Blue October, 'Hate Me'

"I should have seen this coming all along..."
-10 Years, 'Beautiful'

"It's a day I thought I'd never get through... I got over you..."
-Daughtry, 'Over You'

"And I can't change this, I can never take this back..."
-Blue October, 'Congratulations'

"Inside my shell, I'll wait and bleed..."
-Slipknot, 'Wait And Bleed'

"So you think you can love me and leave me to die?"
-Queen, 'Bohemian Rhapsody'

I love horror anything. Comics, books, movies, stories, I love absolutely anything horror. I think in this day and age though that too many people that are associated with the horror genre have lost the passion for the genre, and that is something I am determined to never do. I love horror, I love the idea that there is a much darker side of life, and I want to be one of those people that isn't afraid to expose that to the world. That is why none of my writes will ever be without some sort of horror influence, because denying such a thing only makes you delusional, and I will never be delusional.

"There'll be a golden ladder reaching down, when the man comes around..."
-Johnny Cash, 'The Man Comes Around'

"From lashes to ashes, and from lust to dust..."
-HIM, 'Heartache Every Moment'

"And I'd give it all away just to have somewhere to go to..."
-Linkin Park, 'My December'

"Now that I've lost you, it kills me to say, I tried to hold on as you slowly slipped away..."
-Avenged Sevenfold, 'Almost Easy'

"In joy and sorrow, my homes in your arms..."
-HIM, 'In Joy And Sorrow'

My influences on life are the ones that drive me to be the man I know I can be. They include, but are not limited to:

-George A. Romero
-Sam Neill
-Christopher Nolan
-Lloyd Kaufman
-Stephen King
-Clive Barker
-Mark Z. Danielewski

"Will you hold me until morning's light, then I'll tell you what it's like to die..."
-The Agony Scene, 'We Bury Our Dead At Dawn'

"You're the closest to Heaven that I'll ever be..."
-Goo Goo Dolls, 'Iris'

"I can't be that way when my life looks this gray, so I let go..."
-Eighteen Visions, 'I Let Go'

"These scars remind me that the past is real..."
-Papa Roach, 'Scars'

"Love means nothing to me, without blinking an eye..."
-Sonata Arctica, 'Shamandalie'

I have lived through life after love, and it's not an easy thing. But you can do it. I am living proof. My love for somebody lives on through writing. I have existed throughout my heartache, and my heartache will live on. Whether my writings ever become recognized, I do not care. They exist simply because I wanted them to.

"Dark light, come shine in her lost heart, tonight..."
-HIM, 'Dark Light'

"You were always on my mind..."
-Elvis Presley, 'Always On My Mind'

"I am, I said, to no one there, and no one heard at all, not even the chair..."
-Neil Diamond, 'I Am... I Said...'

I used to be one of those people who just wanted to find the one and fall in love RIGHT now. I'm 21 fucking years old. I still have my whole life to fall in love again, why rush it? I just want to be me for a while, have fun, go out and not have to worry. I am okay with waiting for it. I think it's pathetic now that people 17, 18, 19, 20, even 21 are so desperate to find 'the one'. It'll happen when the time is right. Until then go out and enjoy living your life cause it's the only one you've got.

"Live. Love. Burn. Die."
-Atreyu, 'Lip Gloss And Black'

"All the pain in your eyes, my regrets have never known such sorrow..."
-Demon Hunter, 'One Thousand Apologies'

Basically, what I have presented here is all you need to know. If I think of anything else that I feel may be of any value, I will add it. Until then, 'oui oui, mai amour. Cest moi.'