Torn from memory• Show poetry

.my head smokes from a silver bullet engraved into my skull.

Just get in line and ill grieve you. Can you hear me? Are you near me? Can we pretend to leave, and then met again when we both have bullets buried deep into our bleeding necks. Hide your face, another knife ended up in my trembling hands. A stain that never comes off the sheets. I feel so dirty. The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the secrets pasted on my clothes. I miss you more then I did yesterday. I miss you more then words could ever say... I LOVE YOU! BUT I CANT HAVE YOU YOUR TO GOOD FOR ME! What's the worst thing you can take? From every heart you break. Nobody cares if you're losing myself am I losing myself, help me die. I think my heart still beats but what for is a question still to be answered. And like the blade I stain, a sharp pain holds every answer every lie every secret every wish everything I know I could never be. They gave us two shots in the back of the head and were all dead. now. We are the restless bodies hanging from choking ropes tied to tight around our bruised and broken necks. Slowly ripping off our pale rotting heads detaching them from our dangling limp bleeding bodies. And to think I poisoned my mouth with three small words whispered to your ear. Why did I let my mouth continue spilling my venomous secrets? My past is MINE. You had no part in my death wish. Yet you are here listening to the sound of my past. My dying breath enters your yearning ears filling your feeding brain with wasted lies. Letting my deteriorating mind drain out of my broken skull and spill into your un-quaking palms. Your lips scarcely open waiting with bated breath for your choking lungs to inhale the scarce line of smoke egress from the freshly blown hole in the side of my smashed in face. My mind has been held captive by your seductive tempting lies. Falling into myself, concaving into what I think is my soul. dead. rotted. destroyed. useless. I am destroyed from the inside out. Your toxic secrets will rot held captive behind my guarding teeth. They wait patiently for your protruding tongue to harshly rape my innocent mouth and steal them from me pulling your sharp burdens back to divulge your malicious body. The smell of my decaying body fills your choking lungs with filthy disease. I know you didn't forget what you told me. Your eyes working against your mouth, spilling everything you try so hard not to show, with just one glance. You are full to your neck with your fake words spoken into the empty minds of anyone who you find credulous enough to trust your pretty counterfeit attitude. Watch my smile as I hack you open slicing deep into your skin, your blood collecting on the floor as it drips down your chest. Your lies spill from the slit in your throat, empting your body, just to make room for new mendacities to fill your vacant body. Fill yourself up girl so you can stain my shirt with your dripping lies once more.