By DajaVoue56 on June 16^th 2009, late evening.
on topic Painful memories

blood dripping down, dark skies, everyone sleeping, don't know what to do, who to talk to, what to say, skipping PE, Jared, cars smashing, icy roads, cold, chilled, rivers, snow camp, don't know, how does this go away? addicted absolutely lost, decay, dead, no hope, what's left? empty, gone, blue flowers, mountain...I have no clue anymore...don't care, 13 reasons...Dallas' words, Henry knows can't stand it, Davis lake, tears. drowning...Tilton,

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Unwanted Memories

By beauty from ashes on June 17^th 2009, the wee hours.
on topic Painful memories

I sit on my bed
demons dig their nails into memories
that were long forgotten
and never wanted.

They taunt me
tease me
strike me down

they show me who I want to be
but never can be
it hurts
I break
I cry

my demons whisper
in my ears
keeping me in a state of fear

I'm scared of life
scared of love
scared that I'm not good enough
scared that I'll be left alone





There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Remember Dad...?

By LovexMexDead on June 17^th 2009, early morning.
on topic Painful memories

Dad...you were there, remember?
Sitting on the couch, smoking a cigarrette.
Uncle Shawn your brother sat next to you.
I remember him as well.

Then mid-conversation, you scared me.
An innocent six-year old girl.
Your eyes shut tight and opened and shut again.
I screamed your name, "DADDY!"

You wouldn't get up.
I started bawling like the baby I was.
You scared me daddy.
You truly did.

The ambulance rushed in,
and I watched them take you away.
God, if you only could have seen,
the discolouration of this face.

It's been nine years since then, my father,
and I haven't seen you since two months after.
Are you still using that needle I wonder?
I guess I'll never know.

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

By Angel-of-Chaos on June 18^th 2009, the wee hours.
on topic Painful memories

The excitement built up inside of me, as I saw my mom sitting in the car with my aunt. I let my thoughts run wild, telling myself this had to be a sign because I had not seen or heard from her for almost a year. I hurrid into the car, ignoring the woman who tried to be there for me and said, "Hi Mom!" My aunt shot me a look and I quickly acknowleged her as well. My mom turned her head as far as she could to look at me in the back seat and said, "I've got a surprise for you." Oh this was it finally, my aunt must have told her I was being good so she would stop being mad at me and let me move back in. I was so happy I could have cried, I wanted her love and comfort so much. I wanted to hug her and tell her how sorry I was for whatever it was that I had done that made her not want me anymore. Looking back on it now, I think my aunt knew I had gotten my hopes up but didn't want to say anything. I looked back and forth thinking, "any second now she is going to say she wants me back home." Suddenly my mother picked up a plastic sack, and opened it to reveal this pink teddy bear that she had bought just for me. My smile faded though I tried not to show my disappointment, my eyes watered as I took this symbol of what I guess was supposed to be her love, that meant absolutely nothing to me. I sat quiet in the back trying to hide my tears, although I know my aunt could see in the rear view mirror. I listened as my mother talked all about my brothers, her apartment, and all of her friends. There was one name I had prayed would be missing, one of the reasons she made me leave her house. She didn't say his name! Again I felt this great swelling of excitement, and I said, "what about your boyfriend?"
I don't love with him anymore, he moved out. Thats it I got upset for nothing, she said if he left I could come back. I shot forward in my seat and said, "That means I can move back home then right mom?" The car fell silent and in an instant I knew she still didn't want me home.
Annoyed she said, "No, that doesn't mean that you can move back in, there isn't enough room for you."
God my heart sinks now just remembering how that felt. I really meant nothing to anyone that I loved. I slouched back in my seat, held up my new bear, then hugged it close. It was all I was going to get from my mother, but atleast it was something.

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Untitled

By Megativek2o11 on June 18^th 2009, the wee hours.
on topic Painful memories

The memory of you and me.
We were together every day.
We made a 'pact' to stay friends forever.
The word 'pact' means nothing to me.

I knew it was an empty promise.
But I just stood by and let it happen.

you met him,
and I met him.
People tore us apart.
Rumors and Lies became my good friends.
They were the false tension between us.

You knew I was hurt.
But you just stood by and let it happen.

You got my hopes up and crushed them.
Time and time again.
Claiming this time, things can work.
Filling me up with more empty promises,
only to let me fall through your lies.

I recongized this routine like the back of my hand.
And this time,
I walked away.



There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

By xmiasmatik on June 18^th 2009, late morning.
on topic Painful memories



There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU

By lostgirltd on June 19^th 2009, late afternoon.
on topic Painful memories

ALL MY MEMORIES ARE OF YOU EVERY WHERE I GO
I SEE YOU
YOU HAUNT ME LIKE A GHOST
I LOVE YOU
CANT HAVE YOU
WANT YOU
BUT IM FAR FAR FROM YOU
YET EVERYTHING I SOMETIMES SEE, HEAR, TASTE
REMINDS ME OF YOU
I FEEL CURSED
I FEEL LIKE I CANT GET RID OF YOU
AND I DONT WANT TO BUT IF I CANT BE WITH YOU
WHY THINK OF YOU
IT HURTS ME
ITS LIKE A BURDEN
IF MEMORIES COULD BE ERASED
I STILL WOULDN'T ERASE YOU
EVEN THOUGH THINKING OF YOU BRINGS ME PAIN
MY LOVE FOR YOU IS SO GREAT
THAT THE PAIN IS NOTHING
BECAUSE IF I CANT BE WITH YOU
AT LEAST I HAVE MEMORIES OF YOU AND
YOU COULD NEVER TAKE MY MEMORIES
MY MEMORIES OF YOU
YOU CANT TAKE THEM AWAY
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

me&you

By The-Scene-One on June 19^th 2009, late evening.
on topic Painful memories

teardrops falling down my face
i wish i was in your warm embrace.
when i left i almost cried
missing you makes me want to die
i really don't know what to do
i just kept on loving you
my thoughts run down the sink
while i cry out in defeat
the teardrops stopped running down my face
i no longer wish i was in your warm embrace
when i left you almost cried
and sometimes missing you still makes me want to die
i still don't know what to do
i can't stop loving you
your thoughts running down the sink
now your the one crying out in defeat
these are just some of the painful memories we both went threw

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Hallucination

By rainbows. on June 20^th 2009, terribly early in the morning.
on topic Painful memories

These painful memories are consuming me,
They thrash and writhe in my head.
Turning my other thoughts to ash,
I wither away in the most conservative of ways.

And I'm breaking apart,
I don't know when this started.
I have broken glass around me,
And thorns creep into my skin.
Vines becon me to join them,
And this game is my end.

Im lying here in pieces,
Wishing I could forget your smile.
Your memory haunts me still,
Of red hair and hazel eyes that torture me too high.

It's all a broken dream,
And It'll make me believe this isn't what it seems.
So remember me,
When I am nothing but a broken hallucination.

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Stupid me...At it again

By Leanna-bean on June 20^th 2009, late afternoon.
on topic Painful memories

Painful memories are all I seem to have of you...I really don't know how to put this into words and I don't even know why I am trying...I don't think I ever mattered to you...You always pushed me away when I wanted to get close...you never wanted to kiss me even though I was your girl friend...Was I not good enough for you Frank because I don't do drugs or just because I wasn't good enough? I really wish I could know but I want because you are out of my life now...I do hope that you will miss me but that is just me being selfish...it's like that song that hurts me too much to hear says...if you see my face hope it gives you hell hope it gives you hell!

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

My two dogs worth

By DeathuponTyne on June 20^th 2009, late at night.
on topic Painful memories

OMG. Two of my dogs died in one month and I'm still not really over it i have managed to compose myself enough but whenver I think about them I usually cry - usually just a tear or two but still it sucks. One died of a snake bite and I'd had her 4,like, 5 years an I was so sad that I cried and cried and cried and cried and I was almost sick but then I came into some money from a 'contest' (I was only eight) and I got the second dog who was squashed by a horse that was ironic since her name was Mckybie after Mckybe Diva! It really sucked since I had only had her for few weeks but then Cozie came up from Triple M and interviewed me and he gave me a puppy! It ruled and I've still got the dog and her name is acaroni but she is really bounc, lol.

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Biggest Regret...

By BloodlessValentine on June 22^nd 2009, the wee hours.
on topic Painful memories

Our love..
It was strong
Would never leave
So I thought
But then he left

The last thing I said..
I hate you
He crashed his car that night

Through the blaring sirens
I heard a mumble..
'I love you' maybe?
But I did not reply

I was by his side..
But I never said a word
I hated him
Didnt I?
Didnt I?

That day he died
I never said goodbye
The last words he heard from me..
I hate you.

I will never live another day
That I dont regret what I said
This is how I will have to pay
For killing the one I loved

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Rape......and ya ITS REAL

By XxLonelyTearDropxX on June 23^rd 2009, lunch time.
on topic Painful memories

Rape. its hard to deal with and the fact is that we dont deal with it. i remember when i did get raped. i was 10 years old and he was 13.
he was my upstairs neighbor. he told me that we were going to play a game and that we had to get naked in order to do it. so i got naked. he took off my panties and shoved it in me. i didnt know what to do or say except scream my head off. i never told anyone before and im spilling my guts now because im ready to deal with the fact that i am alone. utterly alone. and thats the reason i mite fight of guys





im sorry that everyone here doesnt like the fact that i say this but, i do want a boyfriend. im just scared. scared of losing someone who i might grow attached to.

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Drugies, my brother, I'm in Hell

By Gypsy-Girl on June 24^th 2009, mid-morning.
on topic Painful memories

When I was eleven My brother was always doing drugs and I was completly surrounded by it. I remember some of his terrible friends that would tease me and 'play' with me. I remember being locked in a room so that I could try to withdrawl myself from my surroundings. but when there are all those things around you like drugs and alcohol and sex...how do you shut it out? I barely could for the time I did. and then, an avalache. it all had piled to high and it came crashing down. I was at the bottom of it and could not move. I was fully paralysed. I had given up. I was all alone. I'll never forget the day he left, the day we were evicted, forced to live on the streets. luckily the time came that my aunt took us in. and the day came when we finally moved into our new home, just my mom my sister and me. but before then, it had been hell. The hell that I will never forget.

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Cheater

By rylee on June 24^th 2009, mid-morning.
on topic Painful memories

My heart it beating like music
Do I have to choose?
The hardest thing is choosing
My love for you
I know you went but I can't bear it
My heart it dying for you, I swear it
I remember you
I forgive you
Please be true
The painful truth
Where are you now?
I miss you so
I feel so stupid
For letting you go
I feel so stupid
Around all my friends
I wince and I cringe
I can't tell them my trend
Of letting you go
I won't let you go
I put on a bad show
I put on a show
I know the hard thing to remain is too true
I know that you've gone my love still stand for you

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

UMMM...OBVIOUSLY..PAINFUL MEMORIES?

By xXPunkstarxX on June 24^th 2009, early evening.
on topic Painful memories

painful memories

they last

they haunt you

they wont go away

they are in your head

you hear the voices and sounds

you cover your ears as they only grow louder

you think of death

abuse.rage.drugs

all bad.no good.

there is nothing

there is no one

that can help you

you have to face

you are alone in this world

and you can only think of your

painful memories

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

By lifeattacked.ilived on June 24^th 2009, late at night.
on topic Painful memories

i cant seem to escape him......
he follows my every action......
and it freakin hurts.........

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

divorce.

By poetryprincess123 on June 28^th 2009, the wee hours.
on topic Painful memories

im stading there when u tell me all this. u never knew, that i knew more than u ever would. this memory haunts me. im here. im breathing in front of u and u dont think i have the slightest idea whats been going on in my own house for the past year? i was young and niave. it wasnt fair for me to be the last to know and to have to find out second to none and on my own. i never even got a sorry or the chance to tell anyone elseeeeeeee first. its unfair, i want it back. that day. those years of not knowing.the summer and falls that went by with my own homes lies being held behind myback. marriage is not something u can throw around. and neither is our lives.im here.im here. in this house. its years later and im so upset. no im sorry. no way for u to go back and fix it all. u didnt care. i dont know but i dont think u care now either. im just here. im pissed of that im still alone in this. that its something of shame. and that now i still need to have my own secret and lies i keep behind my back. that is, i didnt know for as long as u think, but a least i kept my mind. breathe. let it out someday. im here. im alive.

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

By screamforme. on June 28^th 2009, early afternoon.
on topic Painful memories

Him.
he's basically the only thing stuck in my head.
and i can't get him out.
it's been like;
4 months now.
and i'm stupid for letting im go.
and i'm stupid for not stoping myself.
and i miss him.
and this sucks.


There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

im sorry

By XxXVAMPKINXxX on June 29^th 2009, the wee hours.
on topic Painful memories

my father he looked into my eyes
the pain or disapointment bit at me like flys
i know i hurt him and know i did him wrong
but im his son he never should of gone
is it because of me or anything i did
i know im a disapointment and and disapoint him i did
the last word we said were the ones never herd
but by us we could tell this was the fight that
would never heal
i love him dearly but i hurt him i know
im such a fucking failure i think i should just
GO

There are no comments on freewrites, however you may message the author.

Online: 1289

Moderators - add ticket
Amunet Wolfbane

Greeters - ask question
Little Eagle

728 visitors

Profanity Filter