Afraid of loving, to be loved. Afraid of loving and being hurt or afraid of hurting the one you love.
Love isn't always what they tell you in fairy tales.....
Love isn't always what they tell you in fairy tales.....
Is it worth the HIDE?
By xXxinsanityxXx on June 14th 2009, early evening.on topic Afraid of love
Im so afraid of love
My mom talks about it
my dad only says love is equal as shit
but I take in every little bit
Bits of peaces of love
are like the bits and peices left over from my broken heart
my dad says it sucks wen ur sad and then he farts
What do i do?
How do i decide
Is love worth me to hide??
I dont know how
or when to know
if im really in love
i feel soaring like a dove.
My mom talks about it
my dad only says love is equal as shit
but I take in every little bit
Bits of peaces of love
are like the bits and peices left over from my broken heart
my dad says it sucks wen ur sad and then he farts
What do i do?
How do i decide
Is love worth me to hide??
I dont know how
or when to know
if im really in love
i feel soaring like a dove.
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By HayleyMai on June 14th 2009, evening time.
on topic Afraid of love
on topic Afraid of love
afraid of love
afraid of touch
afraid of hugs
afriad of much
afraid of all in life worth living
open your arms and just keep giving
a smile
so intimate and open
can pearce your heart
afraid of touch
afraid of hugs
afriad of much
afraid of all in life worth living
open your arms and just keep giving
a smile
so intimate and open
can pearce your heart
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Afraid
By porcelaine hearte on June 14th 2009, late evening.on topic Afraid of love
but it doesn't mean that you can take it. im afraid of loving or to be love, so i rest in my side doing nothing for love can i'm afraid to be hurt or to hurt someone.
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By Angel-of-Chaos on June 15th 2009, early afternoon.
on topic Afraid of love
on topic Afraid of love
My mind dreams of an endless love,
one that will never let me down.
A love that feels more than words could say,
only for me.
Though, my heart bears the scars,
of a love that was supposed to be like that.
I am affraid of loving, of being loved.
Fearful of loving too much,
and not being loved enough.
I am affraid of touching,
and being touched.
The aching need I feel that can never be filled,
because even if someone tried I don't think I would know how to react.
one that will never let me down.
A love that feels more than words could say,
only for me.
Though, my heart bears the scars,
of a love that was supposed to be like that.
I am affraid of loving, of being loved.
Fearful of loving too much,
and not being loved enough.
I am affraid of touching,
and being touched.
The aching need I feel that can never be filled,
because even if someone tried I don't think I would know how to react.
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Afraid of loving you
By XSlayerOfSoulzX on June 15th 2009, early evening.on topic Afraid of love
I'm afraid of loving you for i believe that i will fall so deeply for you that i will no longer be able to save my self i will depend on you to help and guide me through the worst.
I'm afraid you will find that you no longer want me the way you once did. I fear in that you will leave me. I separate my self from you pushing you away because i fear what may happen yet im the one hurting my self and you.
I'm afraid because i dont know what you want, i dont know how to act around you. I fear i am doing everything wrong, i feel like i cannot please you. I just want to make you happy.
I'm afraid of loving you even though i already do. I do not want it to end i want this fear to go away i want to be in your arms for ever. Most of all i just want your love to equal what mine is for you.
I'm afraid you will find that you no longer want me the way you once did. I fear in that you will leave me. I separate my self from you pushing you away because i fear what may happen yet im the one hurting my self and you.
I'm afraid because i dont know what you want, i dont know how to act around you. I fear i am doing everything wrong, i feel like i cannot please you. I just want to make you happy.
I'm afraid of loving you even though i already do. I do not want it to end i want this fear to go away i want to be in your arms for ever. Most of all i just want your love to equal what mine is for you.
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do i take a chance...??
By carrots on June 15th 2009, early evening.on topic Afraid of love
i have been hurt too many times
that im scared of falling in to deep
just feeling your warmth makes me smile
but imagine if you walked away were would my
smile go..?
you mean so much but at the same time so
little
so scared to fall truly in love
so scared of loving because ive gone
through so much pain
so many scars left
i cant even count them anymore
i just wish someone would love me for all
eternity and stay with me
but thats just in my dreams
been wounded too many times
ive cried too much
ive loved to be hurt
ive given up in love
but then you came
but i wasnt sure if you were true
scared of showing you my feelings
scared of keep liking you more
and more
scared of just plain falling for you
because what if your like the rest
what if i get played again...?
i dont know if i should risk it..
that im scared of falling in to deep
just feeling your warmth makes me smile
but imagine if you walked away were would my
smile go..?
you mean so much but at the same time so
little
so scared to fall truly in love
so scared of loving because ive gone
through so much pain
so many scars left
i cant even count them anymore
i just wish someone would love me for all
eternity and stay with me
but thats just in my dreams
been wounded too many times
ive cried too much
ive loved to be hurt
ive given up in love
but then you came
but i wasnt sure if you were true
scared of showing you my feelings
scared of keep liking you more
and more
scared of just plain falling for you
because what if your like the rest
what if i get played again...?
i dont know if i should risk it..
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love isn't butterflies
By sezzy on June 16th 2009, the wee hours.on topic Afraid of love
love is about being ery vunerable to people and i feel it is such a risk now . I am scared to trust and i want to trust . loVe is time together its not just a gush of emotion it is the ltitle thigns . although i am glad t hat i lvoed muh and lost than not ever loving them i have euphoric memories and beautiful and my psychologicl memory loves the days . it is a mysth what they feed my girls on disney the best relationships are not happy ever after although my marriage was a paradise . I have two faces of grief now from lost love and loss in itself that i feel hqave taught me so much about love and myself .
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Fairy Curse
By mickeyjames on June 16th 2009, terribly early in the morning.on topic Afraid of love
She sits, remembering Cinderella.
The princess who meets her love.
In one second finds the perfect one.
Knows it right away.
Perfect forever.
Wishing for that,
Wishing it was real.
Knowing it isn't.
The fairy tale curse.
Hoping for that,
and settling for nothing less.
Therefore missing everything.
The myths of females in love.
Just myths.
So she thinks.
She sits watching him pack.
She found flaws,
and those cant exist in perfection.
So it must not be right.
The fairy tale curse...
The princess who meets her love.
In one second finds the perfect one.
Knows it right away.
Perfect forever.
Wishing for that,
Wishing it was real.
Knowing it isn't.
The fairy tale curse.
Hoping for that,
and settling for nothing less.
Therefore missing everything.
The myths of females in love.
Just myths.
So she thinks.
She sits watching him pack.
She found flaws,
and those cant exist in perfection.
So it must not be right.
The fairy tale curse...
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Fairy Tales
By AnAverageGirl on June 16th 2009, evening time.on topic Afraid of love
Fairy tales and make believe,
They fill us all with lies,
No one finds the right one,
On the first try.
Hearts will be broken,
And mended along the way,
You will break them,
And have yours broken,
Its all in the course of time.
Fairy tales and make believe,
Is never how it is,
You have to deal with pain and suffering,
To know who is the one.
No one finds the right one,
On the first try,
But this is no reason to give up hope.
They fill us all with lies,
No one finds the right one,
On the first try.
Hearts will be broken,
And mended along the way,
You will break them,
And have yours broken,
Its all in the course of time.
Fairy tales and make believe,
Is never how it is,
You have to deal with pain and suffering,
To know who is the one.
No one finds the right one,
On the first try,
But this is no reason to give up hope.
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blinded
By Br0kEn WiNgS on June 17th 2009, early afternoon.on topic Afraid of love
shattered peices of my soul,
unknown and scattered in the dark,
every breathe more out of control,
pale whispers echoe stark,
unseen and breakable,
don't quite fit together,
mind set black and unstable,
dark memories haunt forever,
many are missing,
holes that can't be filled,
outside i dismiss,
i wish to be killed,
mindless of the world,
absorbed in my own delusions,
beaten down the word,
falling faster to conclusions,
my heart a black abyss,
broken and beating by both means,
always gone far amiss,
hidden scars and horrid screams,
dark and cold dead as can be,
blind to myself i try to replace,
love a thing far to risky,
voids that cannot be erased,
i give up on love,
it cannot be found,
a deadly dove,
a poison proud,
hollow whispers all around,
tears are words my heart can't say,
no heart i have,
i gave it away,
and its gone forever more,
shattered and bloody to the core,
so i fall to the floor,
and died of a broken heart.
unknown and scattered in the dark,
every breathe more out of control,
pale whispers echoe stark,
unseen and breakable,
don't quite fit together,
mind set black and unstable,
dark memories haunt forever,
many are missing,
holes that can't be filled,
outside i dismiss,
i wish to be killed,
mindless of the world,
absorbed in my own delusions,
beaten down the word,
falling faster to conclusions,
my heart a black abyss,
broken and beating by both means,
always gone far amiss,
hidden scars and horrid screams,
dark and cold dead as can be,
blind to myself i try to replace,
love a thing far to risky,
voids that cannot be erased,
i give up on love,
it cannot be found,
a deadly dove,
a poison proud,
hollow whispers all around,
tears are words my heart can't say,
no heart i have,
i gave it away,
and its gone forever more,
shattered and bloody to the core,
so i fall to the floor,
and died of a broken heart.
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Fear.
By TheStupidLamb on June 18th 2009, early morning.on topic Afraid of love
They say the only thing
we have to fear
is fear itself,
and yet I find myself
cowering in cob webs
of loneliness and
repressed traumas.
Everyone laughs
their goddamn
twinkle-starred laughs
and no one thinks to
look deeper,
way deeper,
past this painted
on skin to
the carvern of my
inner demons.
And these monsters,
they reach
out and grab me when
I am starting to fall
for that [special?] someone
and yank me back
into the basement
of my own demise,
which is actually
simple reality.
The need in every human being,
whether they know it
or not,
is the need to love
and be loved,
and I need to be
loved more than
I need to breathe
and the fear the siezes
my heart everytime
someone gets
too..too..too close
just won't let me.
we have to fear
is fear itself,
and yet I find myself
cowering in cob webs
of loneliness and
repressed traumas.
Everyone laughs
their goddamn
twinkle-starred laughs
and no one thinks to
look deeper,
way deeper,
past this painted
on skin to
the carvern of my
inner demons.
And these monsters,
they reach
out and grab me when
I am starting to fall
for that [special?] someone
and yank me back
into the basement
of my own demise,
which is actually
simple reality.
The need in every human being,
whether they know it
or not,
is the need to love
and be loved,
and I need to be
loved more than
I need to breathe
and the fear the siezes
my heart everytime
someone gets
too..too..too close
just won't let me.
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Weakness Hinders Ambitions
By Rhiannan on June 19th 2009, late evening.on topic Afraid of love
I don't know why I can't just talk to you or let you in. I dream everyday about being with a guy like you, but I can't do it. I look at you, your red hair and big confusingly grey eyes and want to run. Then I start to think about you some more and my heart aches because I don't want to run from you and I don't want to see you with that look on your face ever again. But I simply can't be with you and I don't know what is holding me back. I'm sorry because I'm weak, I'm a coward.
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I'm Afraid
By smilebehindthemask on June 21st 2009, evening time.on topic Afraid of love
What i'n scared of is to get hurt
that my heart gets broken
and then i'll be left alone to pick up the pieces
of a shattered life
of a broken dream
I'm afraid
of a last goodbye
and the tear it'll leave
I'm afraid of not getting that call
of not seeing that smile
when he looks at me
of a disappointed stare
to not fill his expectation
and then to be left alone
But why would i want to fill his expectation in the fisrt place
just becuase I'm a woman
I know it shouldn't be like that at leat recognizing it is the first step
I'm afraid of becoming an accesory to a man
a trophy
just one more possession in the cosset
afraid of not living my life to its full
to glance around and wonder what happen to it
where did all my dreams go
wasn't I supposed to be more
I'm afraid of a man
that doesn't see the real me
that doesn't notice I hate whip cream
or that i bite just one nail
afraid of someone
that can't recognize my real smile
and I don't want to be afraid anymore
I guess I have to do something about it
I will start today
that my heart gets broken
and then i'll be left alone to pick up the pieces
of a shattered life
of a broken dream
I'm afraid
of a last goodbye
and the tear it'll leave
I'm afraid of not getting that call
of not seeing that smile
when he looks at me
of a disappointed stare
to not fill his expectation
and then to be left alone
But why would i want to fill his expectation in the fisrt place
just becuase I'm a woman
I know it shouldn't be like that at leat recognizing it is the first step
I'm afraid of becoming an accesory to a man
a trophy
just one more possession in the cosset
afraid of not living my life to its full
to glance around and wonder what happen to it
where did all my dreams go
wasn't I supposed to be more
I'm afraid of a man
that doesn't see the real me
that doesn't notice I hate whip cream
or that i bite just one nail
afraid of someone
that can't recognize my real smile
and I don't want to be afraid anymore
I guess I have to do something about it
I will start today
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Why
By spiritraven on June 24th 2009, evening time.on topic Afraid of love
I want to tell you how I feel, but you are so untouchable. You keep yourself at a distance from others. Are you afraid to let others love you. Do you think you are incapable of loving someone. Do you think you are better than everyone else because you have been told you are good looking and that every woman will worship you... I will not put you on a pedestal but I will love you. I want to be able to touch you and let you hold me...I want to be able to talk to you and not be afraid you will laugh at me....I want to be loved by you and become one with you..Why can I not say anything to you
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afraid
By bleedtofeel on June 25th 2009, the wee hours.on topic Afraid of love
i think im afraid to be in love because if i fall in love with someone that means that im giving them my heart.
and if i give them my heart then the have the power to break it into a million pieces and i dont want that to happen. im also afraid that i wont find love at all so i think thats why i always shut everyone out. im scared to tell people how i really fell because i think that they wont understand. im afraid that im not good enough to be loved and that i will end up alone. i guess i just dont want to get hurt
and if i give them my heart then the have the power to break it into a million pieces and i dont want that to happen. im also afraid that i wont find love at all so i think thats why i always shut everyone out. im scared to tell people how i really fell because i think that they wont understand. im afraid that im not good enough to be loved and that i will end up alone. i guess i just dont want to get hurt
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afraid
By bleedtofeel on June 25th 2009, the wee hours.on topic Afraid of love
i think im afraid to be in love because if i fall in love with someone that means that im giving them my heart.
and if i give them my heart then the have the power to break it into a million pieces and i dont want that to happen. im also afraid that i wont find love at all so i think thats why i always shut everyone out. im scared to tell people how i really fell because i think that they wont understand. im afraid that im not good enough to be loved and that i will end up alone. i guess i just dont want to get hurt
and if i give them my heart then the have the power to break it into a million pieces and i dont want that to happen. im also afraid that i wont find love at all so i think thats why i always shut everyone out. im scared to tell people how i really fell because i think that they wont understand. im afraid that im not good enough to be loved and that i will end up alone. i guess i just dont want to get hurt
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Regrets
By Gypsy-Girl on June 25th 2009, early evening.on topic Afraid of love
Stay calm and never love
never let yourself be touched
Your heart must not waiver
to the looks of a stranger
You must never grow to close
to your friends or else
Then you may accidently fall in love with them
I told myself this
I repeated it a million times
But it didn't make a difference
You fell on your knees
Were far to weak
and now your in love
but it will never be enough
see he dosn't love you back
and now that space is deep and black
the place in your chest
where your heart used to be
If you had only listened you would never have loved him
but you had to go and be stupid
and do it anyways
never let yourself be touched
Your heart must not waiver
to the looks of a stranger
You must never grow to close
to your friends or else
Then you may accidently fall in love with them
I told myself this
I repeated it a million times
But it didn't make a difference
You fell on your knees
Were far to weak
and now your in love
but it will never be enough
see he dosn't love you back
and now that space is deep and black
the place in your chest
where your heart used to be
If you had only listened you would never have loved him
but you had to go and be stupid
and do it anyways
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By X FAlLeN-AnGeL x on June 26th 2009, early morning.
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on topic Afraid of love
i always thought love would be exactly like it is in cinderella. there would always be that perfect man. but i finally met this boy called jae, and i fell in love shortly after. but i guess i wasnt exactly perfect for him, because he left. and two years have gone past and i still love him and think about him everyday even though he probably doesnt even remember what i look like. im just that girl he dated in high school. ever since, any moment im even presented with love, i run. i dont want it ever again. my heart id wrecked and jae will always be the only one who can put it back together. hes the only one i have ever loved. and now i still love him so fucking much.
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Ring the alarm
By Uprizin on June 26th 2009, early evening.on topic Afraid of love
....but who am I?.. who am I and what's my motivation you say? You look into my eyes in hopes that passion won't go astray, because a connection so strong as intoxicating as this makes us both pause......................and wonder who is this? that I let into my frame , that's altered my game, that stirs my soul,and awakens my conscience to a level that invisions thoughts of a better day, someone thats opened my nose, and curls my toes in such a peculiar way, but i digress amidst the rain and humidity of this overcast day this is a freestyle about the carnal, as we turned and locked eyes as I heard her say...Ring the alarm Daddy, ring the alarm my candy's on fire.
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why?
By Chl0e on June 28th 2009, lunch time.on topic Afraid of love
they may love me but i don't feel it. any loving gestures- a stroke of the arm,an affectionate tone, makes me feel better, and worse at the same time. like i don't deserve love. to make up for this thing i recieved, this thing i never deserved, i cut. i feel the pain. i don't understand why fully, it's a bit like a punishment,atonement for my sins, the sin of recieving love. because i trust no-one, least of all myself, to love
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