Tomass• Show poetry

tomass is and has been my nickname since the 6th. grade. some *ssh*l*s started calling me that and it sort of stuck after a while so i went with it. i am a great-to-hang-out-with kind of guy. i like to chill with friends whenever possible. many of them consider me a great help to them when it comes to emotional stress and overwhelming depression. i help them out with lots of problems. alot of inspiration comes from their stories. im always here to help out a person, but there are times when i need to look for comfort in others. but a major flaw is my selflessness...i worry about a persons problems while im trying to cope and or deal with mine. i get so frustrated that sumtimes i just stop caring. but no matter what i do, there's always that one special person that will say nothing at all verbally, but will always speak to my heart through a hug. My girlfriend helps to heal my down moods. she makes me feel better in so many ways. her name is Kyra and she and i are in love. she knows how to keep me in the right state of mind without even trying to do so in the first place.

My closest friend right now is Kage. he's an ancient friend of mine who's full name means "shadow dragonfly." Since im called Black Dragonfly, the relationship goes hand in hand (like Shadows and like the pitch Black nothingness of the darkness that normally doesn't allow Shadows to exist because the ethereal darkness is all one big shadow in the first place). Likewise, i am also close to my friends and family, but that Hell of a shadow that engulfs my world occasionally penetrates the usually impermiable border of light in my mind, and has the potential to overpower me if i don't ever fight off.
Although i do attempt to erase my negativity, i constantly feel like im falling into a deep pitch black hole from which i cant pull out from. there are thorns in this hole and they tear into my skin, but they dont ever snag a hold of me... its as if i fall and fall right through my pain. its really weird when i try to even think about climbing out of the hole. i just stop in mid air, a light appears from no where, and the sides of my walls go smooth. that right now is where my life is. im at a stand still and everything around me is going smooth because im able to write about it. i have to say my poems deal with a lot of built up frustrating mixed emotions. but i dont expect anything good or bad from anyone...and i am always open to constructive criticism.

thank you for wasting your precious little mind on something so insignificant.

for something of greater interest, here is a song that i really enjoy. this song on here im just in love with. it is somewhat inspirational in its own way...




Artist: Nobuo Uematsu
Song: Eyes On Me

Whenever (I) sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever (I) said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real, or just my fantasy?
You\\\'d always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs just once more
My last night here with you
Maybe yes maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
(Oh) did you ever know that I had mine on you

Darling so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you\\\'re never hurt
As if you\\\'re never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If (a) frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanna be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
(Oh) Did you ever know that I had mine on you

Darlin\\\' so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you\\\'re holding back
Or pain if that\\\'s what it is
How can I let you know
I\\\'m more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out and you will know that
You are not dreaming

Darlin' so there you are
WIth that look on your face
As if youre never hurt
As if youre never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly, but sure
If (a) frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer.




tomas vara (tomass)