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about me...? well me, im geuss im just your normal average, every day teenager. my life is full of drama. and i used to not know how to deal with it all. then i started writing poetry, and even though most of my poems sucked balls, it made me feel better and deal with every thing.


in the last year, i lost a best friend. i lost my first actual serious boyfriend, ironically to that same 'best friend". half of the people i swore i would always be friends with hate me. i've made some mistakes and i've said and done stuff i regret. i miss my bestfriend terribly and no one even knows.

i lost my boyfrined next serious who i loved more then he will ever know becasue i cut my slef. i was completly in love with him. i miss him terribly.

im also a huge geek. i love to read and i hate anything below a b.
i am in LOVE iwth the twilight series. i wish i had an edward. instead im stuck with a jacob who loves some one else

im not the skinniest girl in schoool, or the prettiest. i dont get everything i wear from hollister and abrcromie. im known to say things i dont mean. but im a strong believer in fate, and if its supposed ot happen it will happen. I dont believe in god and if you judge beucase of that i'll give you and earful. I'm a strong beliver in prochoice and i dont really value induvidal feelings in the grand scheme of things. and if you have a problem with that then you have a problem with me

i am a recovering cutter. its hrad but im doing it. and just beucase i cut doenst mean im emo, thats one of my pet peevs is when people automatically assume im emo cuz i cut.


lyrics and stuff
RELIENT K -"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.

HollyWood Undead- the loss
Sick with myself, but i've got no one else,
so i give it to myself it's the only thing that helps
it's the same thing this pain thing that keeps me from sleeping
and screaming that god i must be motha fucking dreaming
and i can rest in peace and atleast cease to be
cease to see those things in me that make me wanna cease to breath
and ceased to need and ceased to feed, sickness thats in me
this is all that I can be, i can't breath as I bleed

I dont know why I cut myself, god, give me a sign or help
I wont cry it'll be fine, I'll take my last breath
push it out my chest till theres nothing left

I know that my minds near the end, god, I hurt myself and fell
I wont cry it'll be fine, i'll take my last breath
push it out my chest till theres nothing left

Have you ever met a living legend, just a real friend who planned his
end and where do I began you said it was pretend. And when the bullet
went through it took more then just you, it took two it was you it was
me and suddenly...... How can someone say they're helpless and then they act so
selfish. You put me through hell with this so fuck you lets just end
this. And what about our friendship and what you did was senseless. You
thought you found an exit. Like I said lets end this

/Chorus/

I just wanna say good bye, Dissappear with no one knowing
I dont wanna live this lie, smiling to the world unknowing
I dont want you to try, you've done enough to keep me going
i'll be fine, I'll be fine, i'll be fine for the very last time


Madina lake- Here I Stand
My hands shake cause today,
i know you're gonna break my heart and,
my life without you in it
is a life thats not worth living.
i'll be strong but i wish i was someone else,
anyone but me tonight

here i stand, all alone,tonight
and i wish i was strong enough to breathe
without you, in my life,
i wish i was anyone but me.

so I'll start to pretend I'm ok
but you should know by now that
my life is smoke and mirrors,
the one thing is crystal clear
that i'm the one wishing i was someone else,
Anyone but me tonight

here i stand (here i stand)
all alone, (here i stand)
tonight (here i stand)
and i wish i was strong enough to breathe (here i stand)
without you, (here i stand)
in my life, (here i stand)
i wish i was anyone but me.

(Where do we go?) (Where do we go?)

inside i start to fall apart. (Where do we go?)
and i'll pretend I'm holding on (Where do we go?)
so i guess i'll bleed in silence.(In silence)
i guess i'll bleed in silence.

here i stand (here i stand)
all alone, (here i stand)
tonight (here i stand)
and i wish i was strong enough to breathe (here i stand)
without you, (here i stand)
in my life, (here i stand)
i wish i was anyone but me.


so yea thats basically all there is to me, i dont care if you didnt read it, it doesnt bother me at all.