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well they came home about a week or two ago but he was in there cause he has blood clots in his lungs
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Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.
It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.
I Love You
mommy

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ugh its just been a really crappy month or so... my moms bf is in the hospital so everything in her life revolves around him so im stuck at home with the younger ones all day and night... and their driving me crazy... i need a serious break but i cant get one cause they dont listen to me and its just gets worst cause we're tired of bein at home all the time and living off of frozen food and fast food....school sucks as usually and i broke up with my bf of two years two weeks ago cause i found out he had been cheatin on me for the past three months... god that really hurt... i still dont think im over that but saturday im gonna try and move on and go on a dae with a friend of mine but im not so sure how thats gonna work out.....
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btw my messages work when they want to so i had to send it on your page  sawwy
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aww mommy im sorry! but dont do that! i've been there trust me in the long run it only makes things worst =( and your no where near worthless! and dont let anyone ever tell you that or make you feel any different! please if you need someone to talk to im here! i promise! 
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im not too bad i cant complain i guess  though my muse has been dead for weeks now 
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Sweet Impatience : Merry Christmas sweetie.. Mommy misses you on December 14, 2008
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stavykm : I JUST LOVE YOU AND WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW. THANK YOU FOR BEING JUST WHO YOU ARE FOR YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. I LOVE YOU, KELLE MARIE on November 3, 2008
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stavykm : OH THERE WAS NO PICTURE TO THE CODE BUT I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT I MISS YOU LIL SISTER. MUCH LOVE ALWAYS, YOUR BIG AP SIS, KELLE MARIE on November 3, 2008
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hello there my dear AP mother! I thank you for your intrest in me (not many people look twice inmy direction lol) but anywho i hope we can become good friends  i update my page very often so you can learn alot about me from it and my poetry  but if there is anything in the world you wish to know about me.... shot me a message or comment to my page.
t2yl,
~*Princess Cuddle Bug*~
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I WAS TOTALLY GOING TO ADD YOU ANYWAYZ! ^_^
i had promised to do something a long time ago, and i read some stuff you wrote that i hadn't seen beofre. YOU OUTDID ME! LOL
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I'M SOOOOOO PUTTING YOU UP THERE!
LMAO
awwwwwww, and you put me on your page

*hugs*
your the GREATEST!!!!!!!!!!
I haven't updated my profile in centuries
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 a picture of you!
ive never seen what you look like
youre pretty!
& your eyes are gorgeous♥
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Haha! My name is Amanda too. Awesomeness! Lol Anywayz... Awesomeness page. ^.^
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hey!! we haven't talked in ages!!! hope life is treating you well!
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Just know that we love you,and hang in there,don'tlet go.
..Simply Me♥
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Geez, i really hope i didn't scare the shit out of you to badly with that entry. If i took it a bit to far, just let me know....

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hey babes
i'll join your group of course ♥ x]
lol i hope your hermit crabs live longer than my shitty fish that lived only 2 weeks (thats what you get when you shop wal-mart)
as far as if im fine? i dont know
ive been thinking about relapsing a lot and i cant make it stop
i just hate being here-with these people that dont get me and would rather not deal with me -im a room hybernater-
hope you are okay
noticed the new silver membership fuck yea!
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thats cool
nice to finally be away?
its okay here its just so damn hot and it never rains so i miss the rain and coldness of my city
plus laundry is so fucking expensive!
packing does suck, i dont know how i can get all this stuff back home
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hey you!
have tyou started college yet?
i start tomorrow & even though im dead tired i cant sleep x(
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Hey, haven't seen you in ages! Hope you're doing well!
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 hey you, hope all is well!
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Hi  I was looking through AbusedFlower's family (I'm her new sister) and noticed that you're her twinny! That would make us like... sisters. LOL. But yeah. We have a lot in common. I F-UCKING LOVE AMY LEE!!!! YAY OCTOBER 3RD! Ahem... yeah o.O I also love Foamy, he rocks my demented cartoon world  I shall read your poetry now. Toodles
Jeanette*~
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i saw you name on someone's page, thought i would check you out, seeing that we are both disturbed
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HEY! do you leave this weekend?
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did they delte you shh poem?
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How's it going? Thanks a bunch for all the comments! 
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notyourstar- 12 hours ago
2237 critiques, poems. said:
hey hun,
no i haven't.
i really haven't been on much myself.
so.. i don't really know
what's going on.
but i hope she's ok.
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that is/was your sister wasnt it?
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of course I still want to be sisters, you had been gone so long I thought you were never coming back! 
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ive been trying to find you on myspasce.. im lucin out.. im off to try it again
lylas
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hey! you're alive! you scared the shit outta me ya know?
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hey are you in disturbedmess's family?
I havent heard form her in a while, im starting (have been) to worry...
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hey are you okay? you havent been on in a month.. just a little worried... let me know okay?
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i'm definitely interested in being in your family because i write the same kinda stuff, --
thinkin' we could relate & have a great time
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hey hun hope youve been okay, im in a bad fight with my boyfriend, and he wont call me and ignors me and its a long story, and my dad ran off to Kansas, we dont know when well see him again.... so its been a shitty couple of days, and i need some cheering up cause my wrists getting swollen..
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hey what have you been up to?
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no im still here....I dont know what gotten into me lately but i just feel so damn depressed like bad, i dunno why...my boyfriend doesnt even make me as happy as i used to be, i still love him but im just not a hppy person as of late.
dont blame it on yourself for not replying, im the one who left you on your own forever while my computer was fucked up so dont blame yourself, i blame me because yet again im not strong enough to deal with my own shit and im just tired of being weak.
as for telling someone, i have and it doesnt help, shrinks hate me and i hate them, and i cant find myself in the hospital i mean we dont have the money for that and i dont have to time basically for me, i have to deal with this as it comes.
i will try to call you tomorrow if i can after school, i have your number in my cell so if you get a weird call its proabably me, ill add u to my aol thingy too, please be on Saturday night if you can.
i feel like i havent talked to you in forever! time flys when shit hits the fan i guess.
so yes i am alive still, no i dont want to be but i am here and i am still hanging on to whatever is left. i think its the whole justin thing thats getting to me again.....nightmares.... they wont leave me alone...and plus me and my ex are "okay" again so we can deal with each other and i got the strangest feeling today when i saw him, i miss him...how the hell can that happen? it cant and i wont let myself do that the last time i did i wound up getting hurt and i found myself with more deep scars then ever...
Sorry I'll stop Ive been rambling...
Love You Like A Sis
 Sarah
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hey i miss ya... I had a relapse, I cut again....  seriously i thought i was doing good... im so fucked up Im gunna go to hell for sure.. I mean i feel helpless im never gunna break this habit, i just dont have it in me... i give you props because at least you are in the hospital with help and im alone and not telling anyone and trying to make it on my own and failing like i always do...sorry ibroke our promise too... now i have to go cut again, i cant stop i dunno why....i dont vene know if this is my last goodbye, im bleeding alot but im not worried..... miss you
hope to talk to you soon
love ya like the sis i never had
Sarah
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i just missed you.. i have my own AOL account now its darkgreen13@aol.com sorry i forgot to tell you, tell me your name again so i can add it to my buddy list.
whats been going on thats been so stressfull that youve started to cut again? im worried about you! im glad youre at the hospital maybe you arent but they watch you like a hawk if youre in there for suicide attempts, i know, ive had my fare share of hospitals.
well you know im here if you ever need to talk or vent, and you should on your xanga too! i have a new site and its "HidingMyScarsFromTheWorld"
hope you get better and i hope you stop cutting yourself, what are you using to cut? try to substitute a sharpie and draw all over yourself, it might help.
lylas
as always
"The crazy lunatic in the world"
 Sarah
--i feel like I've changed so much in the past few months, I feel darker but yet I feel like I have a better grip on life- I think it's because of my boyfriend-
-oh yea sorry you had to meet me dad.....that shouldve been interesting...
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