Hi My name is Kelle Marie Stavron, I'm a 45 yr old woman from California. I have been
married to a wonderful man of 28 yrs & have 3 Gorgeous Children that make up my world.
I recently lost my Son and thought this would be a way to help with my grief. Please
enjoy these pages I lay before you, God Bless!
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God you blessed me when I was 21, and I gave birth
A difficult birth to a beautiful boy named Matthew first
He was my very first baby to ever be born
Through many of the years my heart has been torn
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Matthew is a brilliant, wonderful and talented man
He has struggled with drugs, and the friends that he ran
Matthew ran from the pain he felt deep within
He wanted to be cool and to fit right in
The pressure that comes from so called peers
These peers he ran with brought me many of tears
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My son Matthew was a great athlete with great skill
He was a motocross racer he jumped many, many hills
People would stop and watch just to see him ride
His talent was natural God had given him deep inside
He felt great joy when he rode and raced his bike
But because of drugs he lost what he truly liked
Drugs robbed him of his dream to be a motocross pro
Probably because of his pride and putting on a show
Injured again shattered his ankle this time now
But he is still alive one more time, God's miracle somehow
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Matt's heart deep inside loves the Lord believe it or not
The disease of addiction and bi-polar has robbed him a lot
I know our God will help him get back to his true heart
So my precious son can have a very new start
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As a mother I'll continue to pray and not give up hope
For the Lord our God has helped me and many to just to cope
I'm a mother like many who loves and adores her son
All through many of the years we have also had great fun
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Matt was a beautiful baby and a great looking young boy
He grew and became a handsome man brings me great joy
My hope and heart is Matt can begin to love himself
To Know Gods still there for him with great hope and help
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Neither one of us has to do this difficult life alone
We both have God and friends, believe me this has shown
This journey of life my son and I has gone on, for so long
I just pray to our God that it will one day become a great song
A song of praise to God and heaven of sin defeated
An addictive sin that never ever again has to be repeated
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My Lord I surrender, I surrender as a mother my son today
Hoping that someday Matt and I can laugh again and play
We can play and visit and be mother and son both drug free
We have paid a very high price of pain to play again with glee
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It can happen today you never know it's a new day
I will as a mother, to just continue to love and pray
God bless my son Matthew with new hopes and dreams
Wonderful dreams fueled with love and God's esteem
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Matthew's journey is most definitely not over yet
As a mother I know the best part will be next I bet
May God bless all mothers and all of their sons
For all of them are truly a gift, from our God above
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I claimed my fate, & faced it head on
but know this one thing, I am not gone
I'll continue to live in many A'heart
and my legacy shall never come apart~
This sMile will always be very near
when you need it most, it will be here
As your heart longs to see me agAin
take a walk for me down memory lane
So visiT often and without regret
for you are one friend I shan't forget~
I still ride The wind within my soul
with our loving Lord whom I extol
Pain does not exist in tHis place
just gentle visions of your smiling face
You will forEver have this heart
as you always have, right from the start~
Those Who are here know me by name
they say I'm an ~Angel~ without shame
Someone will bring this message thru
I am not alone mom and, ..."I So Love you"
I will race
In the lines my brother traced
I compete
For the defeat
This is a race track
Never look back
The misplaced dirt
You must be alert
Pin the gas
To make the pass
The checkered flag
Begins to wag
All as I wait
For the gate
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...............to drop
Written by: Mikaela Marie Stavron 2007
I love you my Matt So Much!! Love Mik
My sons had a dream of a christian motorcycle ministry
They hoped to spread the good news all over this country
The oldest son was in a christian rehab at the time
He wanted to please God and everyone with his life in his prime
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He struggled from drug addiction but wanted to help others around
Only one year ago, but now he has overdosed, I saw him and found
I thought the ministry was completely over now just like his life
Now I know different for the ministry is kicking off, from his strife
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This is what my son would have wanted his heart everyone liked
His journey was so hard for us all and a difficult hike
His life not in vain not at all for God uses everything
Yes good and bad found in us all so full of grace really is something
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So I'm excited for my sons for the one who died lives on
Beyond the Grave was what they were going to call it, my sons
Pretty amazing in hind-site to look back and remember this all
For God had a purpose and a very huge reason for my son to fall
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He wanted to touch many through my son who died, beyond the grave
For Beyond the Grave Motorcycle Ministries my sons wanted to see many saved
Ride on Matthew William Stavron & Bryce Andrew Stavron!
This is the truth about Beyond The Grave Motorcycles Ministries for my sons love for God!
All the young men on the gate are bowing their heads in prayer so beautiful!!
Beating red heart of rose petals a gift from my son
It all began when we were taking a nap, he had some fun
He sneaked out of the house at the little age of five
He picked red roses this I did not know, what would arrive
For I was napping, pregnant and sleeping so very deep
We always took a nap after kindergarten to get some sleep
But when I awoke I had red rose petals all over my heart
My precious son began our red heart rose petals from the start
My son grew from a boy into a man, red roses was his gift for me
Mothers day or birthdays he would bring me red roses so I could see
Beautiful loving red heart rose petals is something we always shared
But now he has died at 24 and it was my turn to give to him because I cared
I sprinkled red heart rose petals all over his dead body with love
Our special relationship of red heart rose petals came from above
Oh my precious son I will always treasure your heart for me
Red heart rose petals I can always dream of and you I see
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Mom loves you my precious Matthew and you are so very missed!
But I will always be able to get red rose petals so I can see you
and our red hearts of love for each other as mother and son!!
Love, your mom
Mama Loves You All
Written by: My AP mom~ storiesuntold
Saw I was in my own little world .
Unseeing the blessings around me,
My son and my little girl .
I looked about the home we built on love ,
All the memories looking back at me.
Then as I took a deep breath then got up,
For in my home that love we need .
I walked into my sons room,
Asked him hey love how do you do .
He turned and looked in his special way ,
And replied Mom we all miss him so too .
He stood and came over to me ,
And kissed me gently on the cheek .
I wrapped my arms around him,
And replied come in here with me .
They walked over to her daughters room
And stood there in the door .
She turned and within her eyes ,
We knew we couldn't ask for more.
Now as a family as her husband joined in ,
We all decided from today on together we shall mend.
As Mathew flies then so will we ,
For he has so much to give us you see.
From heaven he will send the sunrise,
Painted in such a way .
To bring such beauty for our eyes ,
A gift from heaven they say.
The sunsets a brand new page,
Knowing you have lived another whole day.
Painted with hews of pink, blue and gold ,
Its a painting for loved ones to behold.
The blues are for the ocean,
The pink is for moms skin.
The gold is a promise,
One day we will meet again.
So smile for me mama, for I am in no pain.
And I will send you bouquets through the
"sunrise and sunsets" again and again.
For in the early morning hours ,
as the dew kisses your face.
Know and hear my whispers of love,
As I am in Gods grace .
Touched by You...
Written by my Big AP brother; Roaddogwolf
Oh how some things just fade away
then there are other things that never do
Life is not measured by the day
in times distance we all live very few.
You have opened your heart to so many
we've felt your heartbreak pain and sorrow
what you have shared with passion is plenty
You have touched us yesterday today and tomorrow.
I have watched so helplessly your pain of loss
seen the bond of love between mother and son
A bond that will never loose hearts shiny gloss
Your son is in your heart, he will never be gone.
After what you have gone through you need to know
your passion for life and those you love
has rippled the silent still waters of many souls
you've shown strength and layed your weekness on God above.
You have reached out in your hours of despair
you have given all the love a mother can give
You have open your soul where few would dare
and through you, dear lady, Mathew will always live.
I just know you are brave and strong
Myself, I suppose, I'd just like to say
so real, has your heart been all along
I'd just like to say,
no mother could love her son
in any better way
than you have
My AP mom~ storiesuntold http://allpoetry.com/stories%20untold
My Big brother~ Getsbetter http://allpoetry.com/getsbetter
My Big brother~ roaddogwolf http://allpoetry.com/Roaddog%20Wolf
My Sister~Talking Toni http://allpoetry.com/Talking%20Toni
My Sister~kiwigirljacks http://allpoetry.com/kiwigirljacks
My daughter~ UnityHope http://allpoetry.com/UnityHope
My daughter~ Crimson Tears http://allpoetry.com/-CrimsonTears-
My sister~ missmarie http://allpoetry.com/MissMarie
My sister~ BeautifulFlamehttp://allpoetry.com/Bejeweledone
My sister~ playfulpassion http://allpoetry.com/PlayfulPassion
My sister~ CandyPerfumeGirl http://allpoetry.com/AutumnsRain
My sister~Frogzter http://allpoetry.com/Frogzter
My little sister~ Disturbedness http://allpoetry.com/Disturbedmess
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Puzzling pieces to my heart,
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Is this the real truth about me,
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This was a short memorial video done the day after he passed away, come and check it out!!!!!!!!!!2 lines, 29 comments, November 1, 2007
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Yes this is a message to all who have supported me these last couple of weeks on AP. My son Matthew whom a lot of my poetry is written overdosed and I found him dead this morning in the bathroom. He was only 24 years old and
My Poetry
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Oh God where is my relief,
you have always been my belief.31 lines, 8 comments, August 27
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Stingersinger53 on September 4Hi! My name is cayla and I saw a link to your page on a contest. Your page has made me cry and I am sorry for your loss of your son. I too started on AP because of a loss of a family member, my uncle who was more like my dad. Sometimes I feel so alone with the pain of missing him and then I run across a page like yours and relize that I'm not alone and my heart goes out to others like yourself. I am only 17 but I'm sure the pain is much the same.
Here is a link to one of mine if you'd like to read it
http://allpoetry.com/poem/2075152
Just so you know, your son was very handsome and I am sure that someday you will be with him again and you would be making him proud right now with the wonderful tribute you have set up for him on your pages. Being 17, we sometimes wonder in our lives if anyone really knows who we are or if they even care. Your heart shows on this page.
Sorry this note was so long but it's been a while since I have seen anything that has touched my heart like this has.
I hope you have a wonderful night!
Hugs!!!
Cayla -
Sandygram : Hugs And Smiles Across The Miles Sandy on September 3
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SomethingLovely on August 25Just wanted to thank you for the comment, I'm glad you enjoyed my poem... your page is beautiful, and I am so sorry about Matthew. You're a terrific writer, and I hope you continue to express yourself and your love for life and your Matt. I look forward to your works. =)
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Grunts Girl on August 24
She made a garden
He watched her weed the
Long thick flowerbed
Her fingers twisted inside the gloves
While she thought of him
How they helped eachother make
Sense of the cards
He thought of the simplest things
Because those are what sometimes
Got so lost in hers
Then he walks out to her
She remembers...
No longer left in memories
Where he isn't meant to be
Just where you took me today.. me in your shoes in the future time someday when you can share your sons story publicly someday down the road....
I hope that was ok.
