Starving4perfection• Show poetry

Heyy everyone! first of all thanks for visiting my page!
Im 17 year old girl from england, manchester. I love my family n friends (most of the time) they mean everything to me and i'd do anything thing for them. erm...im always listening to music kinda and i love meeting new people and making new friends.
Im kinda strange haha i think i am anyway probably cause im always hyper of energy drinks....-- Im the type of girl who'll burst out laughing in dead silence cause of something that happened yesterday -- haha thats ME
I love disney -- winnie the pooh, lion king, nemo, mickey mouse and minnie mouse! EVERYTHING about it! i know im soo childish! i dont care though..I LOVE TOONS!!! hehe...i love horror films...haha what a contrst dont you think?? anyway wanna know more about me just ask

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-----///\\-----Please
----///-\\\----Put This
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---|||---|||---page If
---|||---|||---You Know
----\\\-///----Someone
-----\\///-----Who Died
------///\-----Of
-----///\\\----Cancer

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"A shot to kill the pain
A pill to drain the shame
A purge to stop the gain
A cut to break the vein
A smoke to ease the crave
A drink to win the game
An addictions an addiction
Because it always hurts the same"

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''Starvation is control
Control is tough
Bones are beautiful
When thin isnt enough''

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"The girl who seemed unbreakable--broke
The girl who seemed so strong--crumbled
The girl who always laughed it off--cried
&& the girl who would never stop trying--Finally gave up"

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It's the loneliest feeling in the world - to find yourself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say "what's the matter with her?" I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something, or if you're just walking away...

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I'm alone in a room that is dark
Fighting the urge to leave another mark
My tears are flowing my thoughts collide
& the end result I'll have to hide
I'm battered & bruised & all alone
Unable to fight this on my own
Friends used to help me through this day
But they saw my pain & ran away

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I’m a daughter hiding my depression
I’m a big sister making a good impression
I’m your friend acting like I’m fine
I’m a teenager pushing her tears aside
I’m the girl sitting next to you
I’m the one asking you to care
I’m your best friend hoping that you'll be there

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never say i love you...if you dont really care.
never talk about feelings...if they arent really there.
never hold my hand...if youre going to break my heart.
never say youre going to...if you dont plan to start.
never look me in the eyes...if all you do is lie.
never say hello...if you really mean goodbye.
if you really mean forever...then say youll try.
never say forever...cuz forever makes me cry..

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Another poem, another line, another girl pretending she's fine.
Another hour, another day, she wishes she could get away.
Another heartbreak, another tear, another excuse she doesn't wanna hear.
Another paper, another pen, she writes she wants to be strong again.
Another story, another lie, another night that she will cry,
Another band, another song, another days passed, slowly gone.
Another scream, another doubt, ''Kick me while I'm down'' to him she'd shout.
Another forced smile, another broken heart, Just another girl wishing life would restart.

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Have you ever wanted to talk,
But never really dared?
Or miss that opportunity
To tell them that you cared?
Pretended that it doesn't hurt
And said that it's okay?
And spent each day wishing
It'd all just go away?
Acted how your "supposed to"
So no one knew you cried?
And never let them see
How you really felt inside?

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It hurts to look at yourself in the mirror and hate yourself, look into the mirror and wonder what ever happened to that smile that used to shine so bright. When you look at yourself, you see this version of "you" that your mind has created, someone that has become so distant and cold that nobody wants to be around her. Empty eyes. Fragile bones. The only thing you have left are the lies you tell yourself everyday to survive, lies that have become your painful reality, lies that will swallow you whole and crush your insides, lies that have turned you into someone you never wanted to be...”

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Sometimes...you gotta run away so you can see who cares enough to run after you
Sometimes...you gotta talk quieter just to see who’s listening to what you're saying
Sometimes...you gotta step up in a fight just to see who’s standing by your side
Sometimes...you gotta make a wrong decision only to see who’s there to help you fix it
& Sometimes...you gotta let go of the one you love just to see if they love you enough to come back to you...

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I’m a tear.
I’ve been here before.
I know her perfumed fingers.
I know the cold cold floor.
Every time you leave her;
Every time you don’t call..
When she can’t help herself,
It’s my job to fall.

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IT'S FUNNY -- how hello is always accompanied with goodbye. IT'S FUNNY -- how good memories can start to make you cry. IT'S FUNNY -- how forever never seems to really last. IT'S FUNNY -- how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past. IT'S FUNNY -- how friends can just leave you when you’re down. IT'S FUNNY -- how when you need someone, they're never around. IT'S FUNNY -- how people change and think they're so much better. IT'S FUNNY -- how many lies can be packed in one “love letter". IT'S FUNNY -- how people can forgive even though they can't forget. IT'S FUNNY -- how one night can contain so much regret. IT'S FUNNY -- how ironic life turns out to be. But the funniest part of all... None of that seems funny to me.

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♥...*...♥♥...*...♥
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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I nsecure~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~N eurotic~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~E motional~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~See im just F.I.N.E.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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║██║ Put this ipod on your profile if you
║(o)║♫ love music!!
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_♥♥_____♥♥_ Put this
♥___♥_♥___♥ heart
_♥___♥___♥_ on your
__♥_____♥__ page if
___♥___♥___ you love
____♥_♥____ someone
_____♥_____ very much

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Just some quotes.....

~♥~ You have to take the good with the bad, smile when you're sad, love what you got and remember what you had. Always forgive but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret, people change, things go wrong, so just remember that life goes on...~♥~

~♥~ I want to be remembered as the one who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one who would always brighten up your day, even when she couldn’t brighten up her own ~♥~

~♥~ We enjoy warmth because we have been cold. We appreciate light because we have been in darkness. By the same taken, we can experience joy...because we have known sadness ~♥~

~♥~ Don't ever give up if you still want to try, don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go ~♥~

~♥~ Everyone sees who I appear to be, but only a few know the real me. You only see what I choose to show but there’s so many things behind my smile that you just don’t know… ~♥~

~♥~ The cracks in the concrete remind that no matter how strong you are, you will always fall apart at some point in your life ~♥~

~♥~ Never frown...even when you're sad 'cause you never know when someone's falling in love with your smile ~♥~

~♥~ Everyone is sleeping while she remains awake and leaves reminders on her body of how much she hates herself ~♥~

~♥~ I walked through the hallway holding my wrists, hoping no one will see me like this. He looks at me, scared what he'll find. He never thought I had these things in mind. He asks me, "...is there any more?" Looking at him with tears in my eyes I whisper a simple reply,...'ever wondered what bracelets were for'..? ~♥~

~♥~ Everyone in life is gonna hurt you, you just have to figure out which people are worth the pain ~♥~

~♥~ Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow, fall in order to know, lose in order to gain. And sometimes we have to be broken so we can be whole again ♥~

~♥~ Not even make up could make her beautiful...because real beauty comes from loving yourself and that's something she can never do ~♥~

~♥~ The hardest thing about growing up is that you have to do what's right for you even if it means breaking someone's heart, including your own ~♥~

~♥~ Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face but are those that fall from the heart and cover the soul ~♥~

~♥~ Learn to appreciate the rainbow after cursing the rain. It’s just like loving again after experiencing the pain ~♥~

~♥~ You never know when you will lose someone, so grab them and tell them that you care now because it might be the last time you will ever be able to ~♥~

~♥~ The sky isn't always blue. The sun doesn't always shine. So it's okay to fall apart sometimes ~♥~

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