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hey, i'm Jana.
1. i use to be very insecure, then i started loving myself.
2. i'm loud, get use to it.
3. i almost have everything i've ever wanted in life<3
4. i have major trust issues, it's nothing personal.
5. i absolutely love and hate who i am all at once.
6. i have high hopes, higher then bob marley ever was.
7. i thought i finally found love, but i was horridly mistaken.
8. i'm stubborn, and hard headed.
9. the few true friends i have, keep me breathing.
things you should know:
-i could make you fall utterly and completely in love with me, then crush you, but i'm not that mean.
-i absolutely love and hate my soap opera life all at once.
-i'm not random; just have many thoughts, and i usually speak them without thinking.
-i am addicted to sappy love stories that never seem to come true.
-i've lived a sappy love story, just didn't get my happy ending.
-chips and salsa from a good mexican resturant is my weakness.<3
-i love artificial strawberry and watermelon flavored things especially when pregnant.
-oh yeah, i know what it's like to miscarry, and have your heart broken by the one person you thought would always love you, all in one week.
-even in a false case-
-i also love orange and yellow starburst, as well as grape skittles.
-i've changed ALOT in the past year. -i absolutely love the idea of going organic, but still haven't.
-also, i'm tossing the idea of going vegetarian around as well.
-i refuse to change who i am for someone else.
-i changed for him never will i make that mistake again.
-cliques and labels should have never been created.
-i love music -- it makes me smile.
-i hate fixing my hair, but when i do, i take my time.
-i'm a brutally honest person, and very open.
-i have no idea what i want to be, so stop asking.
-i love meeting people, yet at the same time, totally hate it.
-i'd be lost without my writings.
-i love to daydream.
-vampires and witches are soo kick ass.
-i recently started reading books again.
-i absolutely love to travel, and plan on backpacking through europe.
-i make up my own words :]
-although i don't get nearly enough, i love to sleep.
-i hate traffic...and people asking pointless questions during movies, yet, i love it.
-i love photography-- art of almost any sort.
-if i'm in a dazed off state with a depressed look on my face, chances are i am, just leave me be for a moment and i'll be fine.
-i am no where near most people you'll ever meet.
-it takes alot to make me mad, life to make me sad, but everything to make me glad, but with each emotion my eyes change colors, and you see a new side of me, so sit back, and enjoy the show.
-you will never fully understand me nor will i ever fully understand myself.
-and finally, don't put too much faith in me, because i will let you down, but if you just let me be, and live my life, i promise, i will suprise you.