"I'm a joker, I'm a smoker, I'm a midnight toker.."
- In the deepest
darkest
and most
ancient of
rocky depths
are to be found
the diamonds
forged in
the lakes of
fire -
"Man is like an onion-- when all shells are peeled only the tear remains"-- Rav Nachman of Breslav
"True sorrow is better than fake happiness"-- sshevak
"One can scream through a tear"-- Rav Nachman of Breslav
"A bridge never crossed is like a life never lived"-- another fortune cookie
"A great fire can start from a small spark"-- fortune cookie
"There are places
that are not really places,
But pieces of a Reality
that could never be..."-- Mordechai ben Chaim
*~I am a singer at heart...Music makes my soul shiver and I'm very tuned and sensitive to sounds-- I wanted to study audio engineering when I was a teen.
I have borderline personality disorder, erotomania & acquired bipolar disorder as the result of psychiatric injury.. Also I am an alcoholic.
"I'm just another writer,
still trapped within my truth
-- An hesitant prize fighter,
still trapped within my youth..."
~*~*~*~*~
Svecha
song
by
Veronika Dolina
Translated by Tanya Wolfson
"A CANDLE
Do not kill me. Do not touch.
I still want to burn so much!
There's still life in me, the candle.
Do not kill me. Do not touch.
Sweetheart boy, it's not a game,
I am not capricious.
I'm the keeper of the flame -
Small, but very precious.
Without white, there is no black,
And light is dark's firstborn.
Without poets, candles lack.
Without us no verse's born.
To my beam, however faint
A sailor's safety clings.
I'm your tiny patron saint,
Moths with burning wings.
Until daybreak let me stay.
Sweetheart, do not kill!
Do not kill - I light the way
For a poet's quill..."
~~~~
My first favourite poem:
What I Expected
What I expected was
Thunder, fighting,
Long struggles with men
And climbing.
After continual straining
I should grow strong:
Then the rocks would shake
And I should rest long.
What I had not foreseen
Was the gradual day
Weakening the will
Leaking the brightness away,
The lack of good to touch
The fading of body and soul
Like smoke before wind
Corrupt, unsubstantial.
The wearing of Time,
And the watching of cripples pass
With limbs shaped like questions
In their odd twist.
The pulverous grief
Melting the bones with pity.
The sick falling from earth
These, I could not foresee.
For I had expected always
Some brightness to hold in trust,
Some final innocence
To save from dust;
That, hanging solid,
Would dangle through all
Like the created poem
Or the dazzling crystal.
~~~*~~~~
My Favourite song:
"ELTON JOHN LYRICS
"Skyline Pigeon"
Turn me loose from your hands
Let me fly to distant lands
Over green fields, trees and mountains
Flowers and forest fountains
Home along the lanes of the skyway
For this dark and lonely room
Projects a shadow cast in gloom
And my eyes are mirrors
Of the world outside
Thinking of the way
That the wind can turn the tide
And these shadows turn
From purple into grey
For just a Skyline Pigeon
Dreaming of the open
Waiting for the day
He can spread his wings
And fly away again
Fly away skyline pigeon fly
Towards the dreams
You've left so very far behind
Just let me wake up in the morning
To the smell of new mown hay
To laugh and cry, to live and die
In the brightness of my day
I want to hear the pealing bells
Of distant churches sing
But most of all please free me
From this aching metal ring
And open out this cage towards the sun"
~~~~~~~~~~~****~~~~~~~~~~
My mood yesterday:
Дитя со спичками
Ты делишься со мною планами,
А я не вписываюсь вновь,
Опять неловкая, нескладная,
Ты, среднерусская любовь.
Где-где с котятами и птичками
Любовь танцует в облаках,
А ты у нас – дитя со спичками,
Дитя со спичками в руках.
У нас одних такое станется:
С резным крылечком теремок,
А пригляжусь: из окон тянется
Сырой, удушливый дымок.
Она стоит: платочек, валенки,
Бездумный взгляд её глубок,
В её ладони зябкой, маленькой
Зажат проклятый коробок.
О, это наши поджигатели!
Ничтожна мировая связь.
Какие силы мы потратили,
С сироткой этою борясь,
Какими нежными привычками
Нам защитить себя теперь,
Когда опять дитя со спичками
То в окна постучит, то в дверь? (2)
Child with matches
You share your plans with me, but surely
I do not fit into your plans?
Our love is cumbersome and surly,
It's anything but song and dance.
Elsewhere love effortlessly hatches,
All grace and joy. But where I stand
Love is a vicious child with matches,
A child with matches in her hand.
Where else but here. A tiny castle,
Carved perfectly from pine and oak.
Come closer, and you'll have to wrestle
With suffocating, acrid smoke.
Watch her come out: dress full of patches,
Huge thoughtless eyes where one can drown,
And in her hand the dreaded matches
Are ready for another round.
Behold the safety barriers blasted:
Our little matchgirl plays for keeps.
Just how much effort have we wasted,
Rocking that ghastly child to sleep?
And how can gentle caring catch us,
How will affection change the score,
When I can hear the child with matches
Banging her fists against the door?
|
*
~*~
(Song by Veronika Dolina @ http://www.arlindo-correia.com/100505.html)
My mood right now:
"I close my eyes
Only for a moment, then the momen't gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind, ohh Now, don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind Dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
The wind"
_____________
My mood tomorrow:
~The Temptress of Steel~
Flame
flows through
my torn heart
Always aching deep
for your lustful caress
Unreachable desire stabs
My fiery yearning sweet soul sobs
I tempt light
away from darkness
And darkness
closer to light
With lustful sweet delight
Lies I perceive
And can deceive
I'm the mistaken double-dealer
Killer and Healer
Often unaware
Of pitfalls and stones
Which might crush
my small sturdy bones
I cover my flesh
And unveil my soul
For I fear no more
Though the fire of a passion can melt
the steel of a sword
Though nothing can quash
the flame of a word
As a double-edged knife,
I trust and enthrust
Tender hearts
and deceitful tongues
Where fangs abound
I burn bonds and melt chains
Soaring my soul for salvation in searing flames
Often flickering like a fading candlelight
My soul flows when the west wind blows
~SshevaK~
My mood yesterday's yesterday:
(Words by Van Halen)
Outta touch most the time
Got a lotta things on my mind
Kickin' down, but where to start
It's the hardest thing, oh Lord
Grow it long, shave it off
Life is hard, never soft
I need a change, I need it quick
Before it makes me sick
That's what's on my mind
(Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
Now pay attention, watch your back
Pay your dues and stay on track
Got no room to second guess
Puts me under stress, oh Lord
(Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
If I were you, if you were me
Wonder who I'd wanna be
With just one wish ya can't refuse
I wouldn't know what to choose
Yeah! Feelin'
No I don't like what I been told
I'm feelin'
Feelin', what no one else will ever know
I'm feelin'
Ohh, now! Black is white and white is black, ah!
Got politicians smokin' crack
And John Paul's all bullet proof
And it puts me through the roof, and yeah!
If I were you, and you were me
I wonder who I'd rather be
And if I had one wish I, uh, I'd take it
Feelin', oh I don't like what I been told
I'm feelin'
And I'm seein' what no one else will ever know
I'm seein'
Come on! Feelin', hey I don't understand these things
I'm feelin'
Nooo!
Yeah!
(Guitar Solo)
Yeah!
Oh, yeah!
Oh, yeah!
Uh!
Outta touch most all the time
Got too many things on my mind
Shuttin' down, I gotta stop this thing
Yeah! Feelin', no I don't like what I been told
I'm feelin'
And I'm bleedin', like no one else will ever know
I'm bleedin'
Whoa! Dealin', I'm dealin' with these things
I'm feelin'
Oh, I'm dreamin', I'm dreamin', I'm dreamin' things that show me
What I'm seein'
Yeah! Seein', I'm seein' things that don't know
What I'm feelin', yeah
Lord, I've been feelin', I'm feelin', I'm feelin' things that
I don't, I don't know, I don't know!
Lord, what I'm seein'
Yeah!
Yeah, yeah yeah
Hey, I don't understand
~*~*~*~
- In the deepest
darkest
and most
ancient of
rocky depths
are to be found
the diamonds
forged in
the lakes of
fire -
"Man is like an onion-- when all shells are peeled only the tear remains"-- Rav Nachman of Breslav
"True sorrow is better than fake happiness"-- sshevak
"One can scream through a tear"-- Rav Nachman of Breslav
"A bridge never crossed is like a life never lived"-- another fortune cookie
"A great fire can start from a small spark"-- fortune cookie
"There are places
that are not really places,
But pieces of a Reality
that could never be..."-- Mordechai ben Chaim
*~I am a singer at heart...Music makes my soul shiver and I'm very tuned and sensitive to sounds-- I wanted to study audio engineering when I was a teen.
I have borderline personality disorder, erotomania & acquired bipolar disorder as the result of psychiatric injury.. Also I am an alcoholic.
"I'm just another writer,
still trapped within my truth
-- An hesitant prize fighter,
still trapped within my youth..."
~*~*~*~*~
Svecha
song
by
Veronika Dolina
Translated by Tanya Wolfson
"A CANDLE
Do not kill me. Do not touch.
I still want to burn so much!
There's still life in me, the candle.
Do not kill me. Do not touch.
Sweetheart boy, it's not a game,
I am not capricious.
I'm the keeper of the flame -
Small, but very precious.
Without white, there is no black,
And light is dark's firstborn.
Without poets, candles lack.
Without us no verse's born.
To my beam, however faint
A sailor's safety clings.
I'm your tiny patron saint,
Moths with burning wings.
Until daybreak let me stay.
Sweetheart, do not kill!
Do not kill - I light the way
For a poet's quill..."
~~~~
My first favourite poem:
What I Expected
What I expected was
Thunder, fighting,
Long struggles with men
And climbing.
After continual straining
I should grow strong:
Then the rocks would shake
And I should rest long.
What I had not foreseen
Was the gradual day
Weakening the will
Leaking the brightness away,
The lack of good to touch
The fading of body and soul
Like smoke before wind
Corrupt, unsubstantial.
The wearing of Time,
And the watching of cripples pass
With limbs shaped like questions
In their odd twist.
The pulverous grief
Melting the bones with pity.
The sick falling from earth
These, I could not foresee.
For I had expected always
Some brightness to hold in trust,
Some final innocence
To save from dust;
That, hanging solid,
Would dangle through all
Like the created poem
Or the dazzling crystal.
~~~*~~~~
My Favourite song:
"ELTON JOHN LYRICS
"Skyline Pigeon"
Turn me loose from your hands
Let me fly to distant lands
Over green fields, trees and mountains
Flowers and forest fountains
Home along the lanes of the skyway
For this dark and lonely room
Projects a shadow cast in gloom
And my eyes are mirrors
Of the world outside
Thinking of the way
That the wind can turn the tide
And these shadows turn
From purple into grey
For just a Skyline Pigeon
Dreaming of the open
Waiting for the day
He can spread his wings
And fly away again
Fly away skyline pigeon fly
Towards the dreams
You've left so very far behind
Just let me wake up in the morning
To the smell of new mown hay
To laugh and cry, to live and die
In the brightness of my day
I want to hear the pealing bells
Of distant churches sing
But most of all please free me
From this aching metal ring
And open out this cage towards the sun"
~~~~~~~~~~~****~~~~~~~~~~
My mood yesterday:
Дитя со спичками
Ты делишься со мною планами,
А я не вписываюсь вновь,
Опять неловкая, нескладная,
Ты, среднерусская любовь.
Где-где с котятами и птичками
Любовь танцует в облаках,
А ты у нас – дитя со спичками,
Дитя со спичками в руках.
У нас одних такое станется:
С резным крылечком теремок,
А пригляжусь: из окон тянется
Сырой, удушливый дымок.
Она стоит: платочек, валенки,
Бездумный взгляд её глубок,
В её ладони зябкой, маленькой
Зажат проклятый коробок.
О, это наши поджигатели!
Ничтожна мировая связь.
Какие силы мы потратили,
С сироткой этою борясь,
Какими нежными привычками
Нам защитить себя теперь,
Когда опять дитя со спичками
То в окна постучит, то в дверь? (2)
Child with matches
You share your plans with me, but surely
I do not fit into your plans?
Our love is cumbersome and surly,
It's anything but song and dance.
Elsewhere love effortlessly hatches,
All grace and joy. But where I stand
Love is a vicious child with matches,
A child with matches in her hand.
Where else but here. A tiny castle,
Carved perfectly from pine and oak.
Come closer, and you'll have to wrestle
With suffocating, acrid smoke.
Watch her come out: dress full of patches,
Huge thoughtless eyes where one can drown,
And in her hand the dreaded matches
Are ready for another round.
Behold the safety barriers blasted:
Our little matchgirl plays for keeps.
Just how much effort have we wasted,
Rocking that ghastly child to sleep?
And how can gentle caring catch us,
How will affection change the score,
When I can hear the child with matches
Banging her fists against the door?
|
*
~*~
(Song by Veronika Dolina @ http://www.arlindo-correia.com/100505.html)
My mood right now:
"I close my eyes
Only for a moment, then the momen't gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind, ohh Now, don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind Dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
The wind"
_____________
My mood tomorrow:
~The Temptress of Steel~
Flame
flows through
my torn heart
Always aching deep
for your lustful caress
Unreachable desire stabs
My fiery yearning sweet soul sobs
I tempt light
away from darkness
And darkness
closer to light
With lustful sweet delight
Lies I perceive
And can deceive
I'm the mistaken double-dealer
Killer and Healer
Often unaware
Of pitfalls and stones
Which might crush
my small sturdy bones
I cover my flesh
And unveil my soul
For I fear no more
Though the fire of a passion can melt
the steel of a sword
Though nothing can quash
the flame of a word
As a double-edged knife,
I trust and enthrust
Tender hearts
and deceitful tongues
Where fangs abound
I burn bonds and melt chains
Soaring my soul for salvation in searing flames
Often flickering like a fading candlelight
My soul flows when the west wind blows
~SshevaK~
My mood yesterday's yesterday:
(Words by Van Halen)
Outta touch most the time
Got a lotta things on my mind
Kickin' down, but where to start
It's the hardest thing, oh Lord
Grow it long, shave it off
Life is hard, never soft
I need a change, I need it quick
Before it makes me sick
That's what's on my mind
(Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
Now pay attention, watch your back
Pay your dues and stay on track
Got no room to second guess
Puts me under stress, oh Lord
(Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
If I were you, if you were me
Wonder who I'd wanna be
With just one wish ya can't refuse
I wouldn't know what to choose
Yeah! Feelin'
No I don't like what I been told
I'm feelin'
Feelin', what no one else will ever know
I'm feelin'
Ohh, now! Black is white and white is black, ah!
Got politicians smokin' crack
And John Paul's all bullet proof
And it puts me through the roof, and yeah!
If I were you, and you were me
I wonder who I'd rather be
And if I had one wish I, uh, I'd take it
Feelin', oh I don't like what I been told
I'm feelin'
And I'm seein' what no one else will ever know
I'm seein'
Come on! Feelin', hey I don't understand these things
I'm feelin'
Nooo!
Yeah!
(Guitar Solo)
Yeah!
Oh, yeah!
Oh, yeah!
Uh!
Outta touch most all the time
Got too many things on my mind
Shuttin' down, I gotta stop this thing
Yeah! Feelin', no I don't like what I been told
I'm feelin'
And I'm bleedin', like no one else will ever know
I'm bleedin'
Whoa! Dealin', I'm dealin' with these things
I'm feelin'
Oh, I'm dreamin', I'm dreamin', I'm dreamin' things that show me
What I'm seein'
Yeah! Seein', I'm seein' things that don't know
What I'm feelin', yeah
Lord, I've been feelin', I'm feelin', I'm feelin' things that
I don't, I don't know, I don't know!
Lord, what I'm seein'
Yeah!
Yeah, yeah yeah
Hey, I don't understand
~*~*~*~
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- When I'm not writing, I'm a Parasite, Jewelry Designer & Pandora silver jewelry representative....
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Cumbersome reality split in facets fragmented
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Shed light throughout voided emptiness fulfilled
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When the sun sets down / behind the mountains of the ground, / Darkness contrasts the daylight, / hidden in veiled moonlight. / Spotlight o
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Somber solitude / Only solace in shimmering shadows / Revolving riddles of shapes / Reveals countours of effaced forms / Worms crawl amidst sparks / Diamonds shine in white and black /
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in the hay of flies -
I’m the mistaken double-dealer
Killer and Healer -
Tried climbing without walking
For my soul yearned to soar close
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Enbrace my face alongside your fate
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unnamed1 on December 20, 2005I'm going by all my favorites/friends to wish you a Merry Christmas and happy New Year!
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unnamed1 on November 11, 2005Just had to come by to etch a mark on your page. You and your writes are growing on me. May you have a wonderful rest of the night as I read you are leaving for dinner. That is what I must do too, is eat dinner.
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wbiro on November 9, 2005Well, OK, relative to me, it was the work of a young mind, I see! But my gender assumption was wrong! and watch that overworking- you'll end up having a nervous breakdown!
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Carved Into Flesh on November 8, 2005Hey thanks for commenting on my lyrics. This AP account is run be me and a mate, we store our lyrics here. 'Daemons of Necrosis' is the singer of our band, and im 'emptymick', drummer and backup vocalist, I write the occasional song, like the last three on this list. Glad that u like them.
