ShatteredXbroken• Show poetry

My names anna, and i'm almost 17. I live in missouri. I weigh 98 pounds... i starve myself. I cut myself. I take depression medicine. I usally never take it, i just make people believe i do. I'm always sad or lonely, and i often find myself thinking of suicide. This is the only place that i found, where people don't judge me. i write alot of poems and storys. I think what i write sucks but everyone has there own opion. If you wanna know anything feel free to ask. I'm a friendly person even though i have some probalems, but who doesn't....
I wrote a story on here if you wanna read it, its called, Innocent Suicide

It hurts to be around you, when I see you, even from across the room. It brings up a thousand memories. Not just of us but of my entire life before. It's like I'm frozen in this place that I can't seem to bear to be. I care about you so much. As long as I can remember, everything's always come back to you. I mean, even no matter what was happening between us even the thought of you is at least a constant comfort, but I can't go back. It just hurts.

Dear Holly,
I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends.
P.S. I will always love you.




Suicide is a person’s way of telling
god, "you can’t fire me; I quit.

"you aren’t worth my time, and I know I
can do better than you," she screamed at him.
"then why are you still here?" he replied.

Me: Congratulations on your new girlfriend!
Him: That was hard for you to say wasn't it?
Me: What are you talking about?
Him: I know you're in love with me

Smiles are like Band-Aids - they cover up the pain, but it still hurts

Let's play truth or dare, and if you say dare,
I'll dare you to tell me the truth, for once.

I bet you love me now.
now that you've had your drinks.

it’s the hardest thing to do ..
forget about the guy who forgot about you .

id rather be standing out in the freezing cold
with you then to be warm in the arms of someone else
She always went back to the memories of those nights. The nights that she was the only one on his mind, and he was the only one on hers.

And you get to a point where
you stop feeling sorry for yourself.
You realize no one's going to save
you, so you have to save yourself.
You turn your life around, not
knowing where you're going, just
knowing that you'll do anything,
anything to be happy again.

I want him out of my mind,
but I need him in my heart.

This one's for the lonely
The ones that seek and find
Only to be let down
Time after time

"I wasted a year waiting for the words..."

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me. the problem is that as much as i can't force you to love me, i can't force myself to stop loving you.

I miss you. Not the I haven't
seen you in a while kind of miss
you; but the I wish you were here
at this very moment kind of miss you.


Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it
opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside
you and mess you up. You build up these defenses,
you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can
hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any
other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.
You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.
They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or
smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out
and leaves you crying in the darkness, working its
way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination.
not just in the mind. It's a soul hurt, a body hurt, a
real gets inside you and rips you apart pain. I hate love.

You began to cry, just crying.
The deep and ugly kind, the kind
you lose yourself in; though you're
thanking God that no one has to
see how rubbed and blotched your
face becomes. Though, some
detached part of you also wishes
there was someone there to see
you now, to see and understand
just how sad you are at heart.
They don't see it and of course,
you would never show them.

I think it should be said that I love you. I always have, and I mostly likely always will. I want you to know that there's always going to be someone in the world that loves you. We may not be as close as we once were, but no matter what, I'll still love you.

after all this time
i still miss you everday
the same world spins 'round
i guess some things never change
sometimes i go out
but it never feels the same
i still look for you
maybe some things never change

Everyone says that life is such this amazing thing, when in reality, it isn't.
It's full of drama, complicated boys, harsh crushes, evil sluts, backstabbing friends,
family issues, self-image critisizing, and so much more.
We're telling people that life is like flying, but we don't warn them about the fall.

Seriously, after all you put me through,
I just don't see how my heart finds enough
strength to keep coming back to you.

i want you to listen to all my favorite songs.
all of them actually expresses everything
that i feel. but somehow, wish i don't.


I'm mad at myself, not you. I'm mad for always being nice. Always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, for making you a huge part of my life, wasting time on you, depending on you, thinking about you, wishing for you dreaming of you, changing for you. & Most of all, for not hating you when I know that I should.


I quit. I'm over you. I fell so hard. I was always
there when you needed to talk to someone. Yeah,
basically I'm tired of being just a friend or chasing you.
If you want me, I'm here. But I'm done wasting all
my time on someone who doesn’t care.

It's really hard to decide when you're too tired to hold on, but you're too inloved to let go.

we always seem to be on the run.
we haven’t spoken in so long.
we can’t get past the “how are you?”
we aren’t talking like we used to.

i don't know if I like you or if I love you.
i can't tell if i need you or if i want you.
all i know is that when i'm next to you,
the feeling is unexplainable.

I love you" means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you're in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you're down, not just when you're fun to be with. "I love you" means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.


There are certain things in life that are better left unknown.
Things you wish you never asked,
Never heard, and sometimes never felt.


don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs. know that in the end, you'll get what your heart longs for. don't try to risk it all, don't stumble, don't fall. take the time to read the writings on the wall. hold your head high and don't be afraid to say goodbye. stay true and be you, do everything there is to do. live life to the fullest and never look back, there is the reason for the future and a reason for the past. love till it hurts, laugh till you cry and when your life flashes before you die, be happy for what you've done. be happy for what you've overcome, and most of all- be proud of who and what you had become.

I miss you, when something really good happens, you’re the
first one I want to share it with. Because I miss you when something
is troubling me, you’re the only one who would’ve understand. Because
I miss you, when I laugh and cry, you’re the only one who could make
me laugh harder and make my tears disappear. I don’t know where we
went and why we grew apart, but you should know, I miss you.

it's pathetic how much you used to mean to me.
how much i adored you.
how much you were pretty much my entire fucking world.

I think I noticed when things started to change. The hugs were quicker, the phone calls were shorter and weren't every night. We didn't hurry to the place where we said we'd meet. The I love you's felt more like a forced, daily routine, and really had no meaning. When we saw each other, the smiles weren't as bright, or as big. Our thoughts weren't only of each other. We seemed uninterested, we felt unloved. We had too many doubts. I think I noticed when things started to change.

i just can't get over you.
i've tried it a thousand times.
it doesn't matter what i do.
i guess i don't wanna get over you.
i can't get you off my mind.
i thought it was time you knew.

You were everything I ever wanted and I was so close to having you. But being close doesn’t mean you have it. It’s just something to tease you into believing you can achieve it. It’s letting you fight as hard as you can for it, and when you’ve almost grasped it, it disappears and you’re left with nothing. You cry and you cry, beg and pray, but it doesn’t come back. You were so close, but you lost it. Nothing will ever be the same. You know that if you had just pushed a little harder, you would’ve had it. And the pain of being so close hurts more than having it and losing it. Because you never got the chance to have it at all.

And I got so backwards, trying to make myself matter to him. All this time, there were real things to care about: real, good people who care about me and this place. It's so easy to get stuck.You just get caught up in being something, being special or cool of whatever, to the point where you don't even know why you need it; you just think you do.

Here's to being lied to. To being walked on, used, promised something, & fed bullshit. Here's to seeing the best in him; not believing that he could possibly be as awful as he turned out to be. Here's to trusting over & over & over again because you really wanted to believe that what he did was a mistake, that he's changed. He won't change. The way he is & was is the way he will always be. If he lies to you, he doesn't feel you are good enough to hear the truth. If he plays you, you don't mean enough to him for him to be with just you. Breaking a promise means he is okay with disappointing you. He knows what he is doing when he is doing it. He knows what will hurt you & he does it anyway. As much as he says he does, he doesn't really care about you. Here's to him saying he's sorry. With him, it's one of those words that is said so many times; it doesn't even sound like a word anymore. The only reason he is sorry is because he was caught in his lie. Excuses mean nothing; nothing he could possibly come up with could fix what he did. Now take this as a lesson learned: let him go & move the fuck on with your life.


Dear girl, I think it's time for you to let go of him. He has hurt you & me too much. Just let the memories fade. It..s time to leave him behind. I know it..ll be hard, but it..s for the best, trust me. Remember, always follow your heart & everything will be fine.
Love always,
Your Heart.

All I want is something real.
Someone who understands how I feel.
I don't need another broken heart.
I just want a love that won't fall apart.






I worote this to the guy i love...

Nathan.. idk when your gonna be on& idk when your gonna get this but i just wanted to tell you.. I love you! I miss you so much... I hate how we ended... I still think about you everyday. Your still the only one i want.. I'm still head over hills crazy for you...
I'm sorry but i had to get this off my chest, i listen to all these songs& they remind me of you.. if anything was to happen.. I love you! I always will& you have my heart, even if you don't know or want it...
I'm in love with you,& i've realized theres nothing i can do about it, nothing! Sorry that this is so much, i've kept it in for so long, telling no one,& i felt it's time i told someone.. so why not let that be you?
I miss the way you used to smile, the way you used to laugh. How we used to cuddle& fall asleep in each others arms. How we had the perfect kisses. And our hands, our body fit perfect together.
I miss everything about you& us. Ok i'm extremly sorry for writing so much i never meant to get this carried away.. bye