Sexy vampire lust• Show poetry

I am currently in high school age 15 and i feel like I'm all alone even when i know theres poeple out their who wants to help. I am the eldest of 4, so i have 3 younger siblings who most of the time make me feel like shit because their always fighting and somehow i always get involved even if i'm somewhere else and to make life worse i'm what you would all call a loner because at lunch i have no one to hang out with...well i do but i don't feel like i belong with them...anyways i better let you go lunch is all most over...

quote of the day is "You do not truely know someone until you've seen them at their weakest moments"

this popped into my head one day, after my mask broke one day at school. I was sent to the office because i was late and i didn't want to stand for 90 minutes. To make things worse i had a horrible day the night before. My sister was being a B**** and fighting to the point where i wanted to beat crap out of her. So i got little sleep and was frustrated. I finally just broke and i was crying histerical trying to hold back the tears...

My parents are currently divorced and i hope it stays that way for as long as i live. I hate...HATE my asshole of a father...he better pray to god he doen't go to hell cause if i see him there i will torture his sorry ass for hurting me for all those years.

My mom...now thats tough cause in a way i do dispise her for reading my journal and calling my a spoiled brat when i was in so much pain when my dad was around. I wanted her to make him leave but no...

I hate my grandparents expecially theresa...that bitch. I'm sick and tired of her pretending that her son that bastard isn't wrong that everything is alright and i should "respect" him and her. sometimes i really want to go off on her and him. If only i wasn't so fragil then maybe...maybe the really Vampire could shine
I attempted suicide 1 or more times if cutting counts when you cut really deep.

i've written over 100 suicide note within a few years.

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