"Because we do not know when we are going to die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well and yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number really. How many times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood? An afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you cannot conceive of your life without it? Perhaps 4 .... 5 times more. Perhaps not even that.
How many times will you watch the full moon rise ...... Perhaps twenty and yet it all seems limitless.
This is the point of view this character is coming from in the whole film, because it has brought sharply into focus how precious each moment of his life was.
This is the best role I have had the opportunity to get my hands on".--Brandon Lee ---RIP
See me however you want, i know who i am......
SONGS THAT HAVE BEEN PLAYING OVER AND OVER IN MY HEAD LATELY:
----Question? by System of a Down------
sweet berries ready for two ghosts are no different then you
ghosts are now waiting for your are you....
sweet berries ready for two ghosts are no different then you
ghosts are now waiting for you are you dreaming
dreaming the night dreaming all right
do we do we know when we fly
when we when we go do we die
na na na na na na na na na na na na
------Terrible by ICP-------
oh my GOD look at that, turn it up please, poor nancy kerrigan, Sweet little knees, somebody took a black thing and went Thump, thats TERRIBLE we heard about it for MONTHs what about that one NOBODY guy that they found, dead in the grass with his dick in his ass, PLUS there was more, but you wont recall cuz micheal jackson just got Squeezed up on some little kids balls, what you considere DRAMA aint all that, its just that you WACK, with your intergallactic satalite data compress, yes, but we Cant feed the homeless, then oj's WACK story unfolded, and everybody watched THAT while oklahoma exploded, 900 really good reasons why this world really DONT care, thats when it calls for a wheelchair!
what YOU know bout trerrible? YOU DONT KNOW WHASTS TERRIBLE terrible You Dont Know Whats TERRIBLE yeah, she's so terrible you gotta beat her you bitch ass wack mother fucker!
LORDY LORD have we got a protest man, some rock and roll ninja bit the head off a bat, was watching his concert and Channeled to HELL, cuz he's so FUCKING TERRIBLE, meanwhile his record sell's double and triple cuz of YOU heard about him rubbin his nipple, RELIGIOUSE shit you helped them band, INSTEAD of helping them people eatin out of thoase grabage cans, when your Done with that bitch COME PROTEST ME, shit muther fucker i could use the money, the whole world was cryin when Kurts gun went bang, but when eazy-e died though it wasent no thang, rapper dies of aids but YOU hardley mention, rocker BLOWS his face off and becomes a legend, heroin and a shotgun, a hero is made, maybe I should do that shit so J can get paid
are your kids so terrible you gotta BEAT on them too you DRUNK muther fucker!
REBEL FLAG in your schools, REBEL FLAG in your parks, REBEL YELL in your courtrooms, REBEL FLAG, in your hearts, REBEL FLAG stood for slavery, REBEL FLAG stood for war, stood for hatred but go ahead and hang your flag up some more DONt worry bout my goddamn flag boy, whats terrible is you rappers cursein'...
the COUNTRY we live in was built by slaves, beat down and murdered and stuffed in there graves, you put a slave owner on the one dollar bill and you wonder why i KILL PEOPLE bombs are blowin up, cops are corrupt and all you care about is who the president fucked you DONT KNOW TERRIBLE but you will, ass SOON as our wagons come over the hill!
WHAT YOU KNOW BOUT TERRIBLE? terrible YOU DONT KNOW WHATS TERRIBLE!
---------Enfilade by At The Drive In--------------
This could last us all a lifetime limbs intact, untouched
on the screen of a video tape
confined to bedposts
we wait as lepers upheld at knife's reach
we covet all the status quo this syringe will take a lifespan
it's filled with bait and tackle
try and catch us if you can sacrifice on railroad tracks
freight train coming unconscious tied and gagged
freight train coming meet us at the corner
of fifth and pontiac
make sure that no one else
is with you if you wish to see them alive
again then humor me with this request
humor me with this request in basements we will hide
amnesia in our alibis they kept a close eye
on your get well incentive
------------Love Song by the Cure----------
whenever Im alone with you you make me feel like i am home again
whenever im alone with you you make me feel like i am whole again
whnever im alone with you you make me feel like i am young again
whenever im alone with you you make me feel like i am fun again
however far away i will always love you however long i stay
i will always love you
whatever words i say i will alwasy love you i will always love you
whenever im alone with you you make me feel like i am free again
whenever im alone with you you make me feel like i am clean again
however far away i will always love you however long i stay
i will always love you whatever words i say i will always love you
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
---------Black by Pearl Jam------
of empty untouched sheets
sheets canvas of clay
out before me once did
her lace spread as her body
All five horizons revolved around her soul
as the earth to the sun
tasted and breathed and all i tought her
now the air i has taken a turn
was everything
gave me all that she wore hands chafe
i know she and now my bitter
beneath the clouds
OF WHAT WAS EVERYTHING?
have all been washed in black
the pictures tattooed everything...
outside im sourrounded at play
i take a walk by some kids
laughter so why
i can feel there do i sear?
oh twisted thoughts that spin round in my head
oh im spinning can drop away
im spinning how quick the sun
bitter hands
and now my cradle broken glass
OF WHAT WAS EVERYTHING?
all the pictures have been washed in black, tattoed everything.....
gone bad to black
all the love truned my world
tattoed all i see
all i am
all i'll be
yeah
I KNOW SOMEDAY YOU'LL HAVE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE
I KNOW YOU'LL BE A STAR
somebody sky why? cant be
in elses but why it me?
WHY CANT IT BE MINE?
-----Violent Pornography by System of a Down (anyone catching that i got a new cd? go buy this cd by the way...)) --------
ev'rybody livin now ev'rybody fucks
ev'rybody livin now ev'rybody sucks
ev'rybody livin now ev'rybody cries
ev'rybody livin now ev'rybody dies
its a non-stop disco betcha its nabisco betcha didnt know!
its a violent pornography
chokeing chicks and sodomy
the kinda shit you get on your tv
its on the tv fuck turn off your tv
can you say brainwashing?
--------Vermillion Part 1 and 2------Slipknot
She seemed dressed in all the rings
Of past fatalaties
So fragile yet so devious
She continues to see
Climatic hands that press
Her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home
Forever
She's the only one that makes me sad
She is everything and more
The solemn hypnotic
My dahlia bathed in possession
She is home to me
I get nervous, perverse, when I see her its worse
But the stress is astounding
It's now or never she's coming home
Forever
She's the only one that makes me sad
Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed and crazy, aphid attraction
Carve my name in my face to recognize
Such a pheromone cult - to terrorize
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I'm a slave, and I am a master
No restraints and, unchecked collectors
I exist through me need - to self-oblige
She is something in me - that I despise
I won't let this build up inside of me
She isn't real.
I can't make her real.
She seemed dressed in all of me
Streched across my shame,
All the torment and the pain,
Leak through covered me,
I'd do anything to have her to myself,
Just to have her for myself,
Now i dont know what to do,
Dont know what to do,
When she makes me sad,
Shes everything to me,
An unrequited dream,
The song that noone sings,
The unattainable,
Shes a myth that i have to believe in,
All i need to make it real is one more reason,
I dont know what to do,
I dont know what to do,
When she makes me sad,
But i wont let this build up inside of me,
I wont let this build up inside of me,
A catch in my throat,
Choke,
Torn into pieces i wont,
No,
I dont want to be this but i wont let this build up inside of me,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
She isnt real,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
I cant make her real,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
She isnt real,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
I cant make her real,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
---------Lecher Bitch-------Genitortures-----
I am the Lecher bitch and I wear the X of castigation I am the whore of the extreme I am the heretic and I crave your excommunication Look in my eyes Get a little star struck and a little insane Tell me your story. Don't worry, I won't care Cuz I'm the incomparable Got a mission impossible Just say that you love me I say HEY! You're coming all the way I've got some hell to pay I'm diggin' all the way All the way down I am the Lecher Bitch and I call on all who feed on danger Taste of the whore suffer my seed Crawl with the heretic and the world outside gets a little bit stranger Look in my eyes Wanna little star fuck and a little good pain Tell me your story. Don't worry, I've been there Crown me your savior
Don't worry I'll be there Don't belong lording above me
Won't be hard to pull you underground It won't be long till ya love me Then I'll be coming at your back To break it down Crossed your heart but still I lied Stick this needle down inside Leave you with an open wound Left to die alone Like an animal
--------Slut--------Velvet Acid Christ---------
well it may sound absurd
i want to be a wreck for you
smash out my honor on your floor
fill up your bathtub with my moods
well it may sound a little frightening
i want to swallow all of your skin
chew your soft tissue into ash
beat your ego black and blue
i will be your doll
i will be your hole
i will crush your bones
i will abrade your soul
i will be your toy
i will be your thing
i will tear you down with the twist i bring
i will be your doll
i will be your toll at the gates of hell
that is what i'm for
i will be your flesh
i will be your end
then on to the next
i will start again
i will be your doll
i will be your girl
i will remove your heart
i will burn your world
i will be your object
tease and tear
i will be your "hell, i don't have anything to wear"
i will be your slut
i will be your bitch
i will be your never ending, unbefriending
self-expending, moral-bending thorn
Anything else you want to know about me you can email me or IM me... NakhtiMiwsher6
dont worry, im not a bitch, i'll write back...unless your a jerk.
How many times will you watch the full moon rise ...... Perhaps twenty and yet it all seems limitless.
This is the point of view this character is coming from in the whole film, because it has brought sharply into focus how precious each moment of his life was.
This is the best role I have had the opportunity to get my hands on".--Brandon Lee ---RIP
See me however you want, i know who i am......
SONGS THAT HAVE BEEN PLAYING OVER AND OVER IN MY HEAD LATELY:
----Question? by System of a Down------
sweet berries ready for two ghosts are no different then you
ghosts are now waiting for your are you....
sweet berries ready for two ghosts are no different then you
ghosts are now waiting for you are you dreaming
dreaming the night dreaming all right
do we do we know when we fly
when we when we go do we die
na na na na na na na na na na na na
------Terrible by ICP-------
oh my GOD look at that, turn it up please, poor nancy kerrigan, Sweet little knees, somebody took a black thing and went Thump, thats TERRIBLE we heard about it for MONTHs what about that one NOBODY guy that they found, dead in the grass with his dick in his ass, PLUS there was more, but you wont recall cuz micheal jackson just got Squeezed up on some little kids balls, what you considere DRAMA aint all that, its just that you WACK, with your intergallactic satalite data compress, yes, but we Cant feed the homeless, then oj's WACK story unfolded, and everybody watched THAT while oklahoma exploded, 900 really good reasons why this world really DONT care, thats when it calls for a wheelchair!
what YOU know bout trerrible? YOU DONT KNOW WHASTS TERRIBLE terrible You Dont Know Whats TERRIBLE yeah, she's so terrible you gotta beat her you bitch ass wack mother fucker!
LORDY LORD have we got a protest man, some rock and roll ninja bit the head off a bat, was watching his concert and Channeled to HELL, cuz he's so FUCKING TERRIBLE, meanwhile his record sell's double and triple cuz of YOU heard about him rubbin his nipple, RELIGIOUSE shit you helped them band, INSTEAD of helping them people eatin out of thoase grabage cans, when your Done with that bitch COME PROTEST ME, shit muther fucker i could use the money, the whole world was cryin when Kurts gun went bang, but when eazy-e died though it wasent no thang, rapper dies of aids but YOU hardley mention, rocker BLOWS his face off and becomes a legend, heroin and a shotgun, a hero is made, maybe I should do that shit so J can get paid
are your kids so terrible you gotta BEAT on them too you DRUNK muther fucker!
REBEL FLAG in your schools, REBEL FLAG in your parks, REBEL YELL in your courtrooms, REBEL FLAG, in your hearts, REBEL FLAG stood for slavery, REBEL FLAG stood for war, stood for hatred but go ahead and hang your flag up some more DONt worry bout my goddamn flag boy, whats terrible is you rappers cursein'...
the COUNTRY we live in was built by slaves, beat down and murdered and stuffed in there graves, you put a slave owner on the one dollar bill and you wonder why i KILL PEOPLE bombs are blowin up, cops are corrupt and all you care about is who the president fucked you DONT KNOW TERRIBLE but you will, ass SOON as our wagons come over the hill!
WHAT YOU KNOW BOUT TERRIBLE? terrible YOU DONT KNOW WHATS TERRIBLE!
---------Enfilade by At The Drive In--------------
This could last us all a lifetime limbs intact, untouched
on the screen of a video tape
confined to bedposts
we wait as lepers upheld at knife's reach
we covet all the status quo this syringe will take a lifespan
it's filled with bait and tackle
try and catch us if you can sacrifice on railroad tracks
freight train coming unconscious tied and gagged
freight train coming meet us at the corner
of fifth and pontiac
make sure that no one else
is with you if you wish to see them alive
again then humor me with this request
humor me with this request in basements we will hide
amnesia in our alibis they kept a close eye
on your get well incentive
------------Love Song by the Cure----------
whenever Im alone with you you make me feel like i am home again
whenever im alone with you you make me feel like i am whole again
whnever im alone with you you make me feel like i am young again
whenever im alone with you you make me feel like i am fun again
however far away i will always love you however long i stay
i will always love you
whatever words i say i will alwasy love you i will always love you
whenever im alone with you you make me feel like i am free again
whenever im alone with you you make me feel like i am clean again
however far away i will always love you however long i stay
i will always love you whatever words i say i will always love you
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
---------Black by Pearl Jam------
of empty untouched sheets
sheets canvas of clay
out before me once did
her lace spread as her body
All five horizons revolved around her soul
as the earth to the sun
tasted and breathed and all i tought her
now the air i has taken a turn
was everything
gave me all that she wore hands chafe
i know she and now my bitter
beneath the clouds
OF WHAT WAS EVERYTHING?
have all been washed in black
the pictures tattooed everything...
outside im sourrounded at play
i take a walk by some kids
laughter so why
i can feel there do i sear?
oh twisted thoughts that spin round in my head
oh im spinning can drop away
im spinning how quick the sun
bitter hands
and now my cradle broken glass
OF WHAT WAS EVERYTHING?
all the pictures have been washed in black, tattoed everything.....
gone bad to black
all the love truned my world
tattoed all i see
all i am
all i'll be
yeah
I KNOW SOMEDAY YOU'LL HAVE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE
I KNOW YOU'LL BE A STAR
somebody sky why? cant be
in elses but why it me?
WHY CANT IT BE MINE?
-----Violent Pornography by System of a Down (anyone catching that i got a new cd? go buy this cd by the way...)) --------
ev'rybody livin now ev'rybody fucks
ev'rybody livin now ev'rybody sucks
ev'rybody livin now ev'rybody cries
ev'rybody livin now ev'rybody dies
its a non-stop disco betcha its nabisco betcha didnt know!
its a violent pornography
chokeing chicks and sodomy
the kinda shit you get on your tv
its on the tv fuck turn off your tv
can you say brainwashing?
--------Vermillion Part 1 and 2------Slipknot
She seemed dressed in all the rings
Of past fatalaties
So fragile yet so devious
She continues to see
Climatic hands that press
Her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home
Forever
She's the only one that makes me sad
She is everything and more
The solemn hypnotic
My dahlia bathed in possession
She is home to me
I get nervous, perverse, when I see her its worse
But the stress is astounding
It's now or never she's coming home
Forever
She's the only one that makes me sad
Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed and crazy, aphid attraction
Carve my name in my face to recognize
Such a pheromone cult - to terrorize
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I'm a slave, and I am a master
No restraints and, unchecked collectors
I exist through me need - to self-oblige
She is something in me - that I despise
I won't let this build up inside of me
She isn't real.
I can't make her real.
She seemed dressed in all of me
Streched across my shame,
All the torment and the pain,
Leak through covered me,
I'd do anything to have her to myself,
Just to have her for myself,
Now i dont know what to do,
Dont know what to do,
When she makes me sad,
Shes everything to me,
An unrequited dream,
The song that noone sings,
The unattainable,
Shes a myth that i have to believe in,
All i need to make it real is one more reason,
I dont know what to do,
I dont know what to do,
When she makes me sad,
But i wont let this build up inside of me,
I wont let this build up inside of me,
A catch in my throat,
Choke,
Torn into pieces i wont,
No,
I dont want to be this but i wont let this build up inside of me,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
She isnt real,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
I cant make her real,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
She isnt real,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
I cant make her real,
(I wont let this build up inside of me)
---------Lecher Bitch-------Genitortures-----
I am the Lecher bitch and I wear the X of castigation I am the whore of the extreme I am the heretic and I crave your excommunication Look in my eyes Get a little star struck and a little insane Tell me your story. Don't worry, I won't care Cuz I'm the incomparable Got a mission impossible Just say that you love me I say HEY! You're coming all the way I've got some hell to pay I'm diggin' all the way All the way down I am the Lecher Bitch and I call on all who feed on danger Taste of the whore suffer my seed Crawl with the heretic and the world outside gets a little bit stranger Look in my eyes Wanna little star fuck and a little good pain Tell me your story. Don't worry, I've been there Crown me your savior
Don't worry I'll be there Don't belong lording above me
Won't be hard to pull you underground It won't be long till ya love me Then I'll be coming at your back To break it down Crossed your heart but still I lied Stick this needle down inside Leave you with an open wound Left to die alone Like an animal
--------Slut--------Velvet Acid Christ---------
well it may sound absurd
i want to be a wreck for you
smash out my honor on your floor
fill up your bathtub with my moods
well it may sound a little frightening
i want to swallow all of your skin
chew your soft tissue into ash
beat your ego black and blue
i will be your doll
i will be your hole
i will crush your bones
i will abrade your soul
i will be your toy
i will be your thing
i will tear you down with the twist i bring
i will be your doll
i will be your toll at the gates of hell
that is what i'm for
i will be your flesh
i will be your end
then on to the next
i will start again
i will be your doll
i will be your girl
i will remove your heart
i will burn your world
i will be your object
tease and tear
i will be your "hell, i don't have anything to wear"
i will be your slut
i will be your bitch
i will be your never ending, unbefriending
self-expending, moral-bending thorn
Anything else you want to know about me you can email me or IM me... NakhtiMiwsher6
dont worry, im not a bitch, i'll write back...unless your a jerk.
- Last seen on Jun 11 12:43 AM 2007. Member since October 25, 2001.
- I'm a jade dragon poet for 273 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is "Therapy is Just one More luxury I cant Afford".
- I am a 21 year old girl (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm a zookeeper/trainer/educator/enrichment team member at NYS ZOO.
- Visit my homepage at www.angelfire.com/music5/redcat
- I have 273 comments, 131 poems
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im naked and shivering and covered in my own blood
god, please let it be my own blood....48 lines, July 23, 2006. In Dark -
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and breath deeply49 lines, 1 comment, August 4, 2005. In Sad
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Themajikalpance on April 30, 2005=-o you like the pixies. you've won me over to your side already.
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bakacoconut on November 26, 2004You like Disney movies???
I [insert heart here] you! lol. I used to have the original Little Mermaid with the penis's on the cover
My mom bought it when I was little. Sadly, it was taken with all of my other Disney movies. Anyways, I guess I'll leave you alone and read some of your work now...
Coconut
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pyrocat on August 5, 2004i want to give a huge THANK YOU to darkenedlife for my latest trophy!!!!! it was for my poem on trent reznor, "bewitching mind", THANK YOU SO MUCH!
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lifes torment on June 26, 2004Ok. I had to coment. I found your page through your boyfriends and I was looking at your art...and its WONDERFUL. Your work is beautiful. I just had to tell you that. =) Later.
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