The carcrash heartbreak

'Embrace yourself for the impact'

         Was the only warning you gave me.

But i didn't believe in Psychics.

         I only believed in him.

I only trusted his hands. . .to that day,

            when he led me inside that car.

But he didn't jump in beside me.

I just watched him fade into the horizon through my mirror.

             He disappeared.
   
           But i kept on watching,

            In case he reappeared.

     It didn't hit me,

               Until that car did.


. . .I was lost inside misted fantasies

      Where women wore evening gowns. . .

    And men fought great battles. . .Kids took heroin. . .

          And my Cat ran through fields.


     One day,
 
           It stopped being so misty. . .

      It was bright,

           A blinding light.

    There was your voice. . Deep and Kind.


               You saw me blink, and put down your book.

   'Welcome back' you said smiling to both of us.
                       'How was your trip?'

      I didn't understand, this room was so white,

           And machines beeped around me. . .

. . .Then i remembered the impact. . .but was far to confused to cry.

              I breathed instead.

        'How was your trip?' you asked again.

          And i told you of my fantasies.

           a look of understanding played across your face.

 You showed me the book,

      'I read to you everyday. . .

 I told you about the slut with the nose ring, who i couldn't turn down,

      . . .I even told you how your cat annoys the neighbours'.


        I sat up and smiled.

     because i'd found a friend.