I try and I try to reach up to you
I'm blinded by things around
I feel like a fool.
You say you're always there
to catch us when we fall.
Then why do I feel smashed up
against a brick wall?
you say you never leave,
That you're always around?
Then why when I fall do I keep
Landing on the ground?
Nothing to cushion my fall
before I finally hit
This emptiness in my stomach,
A huge giant PIT!
Where did you go?
Why can't I be angry?
What happens in the end
When will I feel free?
I'm not supposed to get angry at God?
Because he didn't leave us?
Why do I feel alone?
Why would I make a fuss?
If he were really there...
it wouldn't be so bad
We'd feel like we weren't alone
And we wouldn't be so mad.
But when the calmness comes
And we finally feel better?
Do we think to look to God
it's the storm that he weathered.
He was the one who fixed it,
but you didn't think to thank him
You thought 'oh things just got better'
It must have been on a whim.
It wasn't God who made it better
It just happened on its own.
But it isn't His fault
that I felt so alone.
"When you were crying
Do you remember what I said?"
God asked me if I heard him
But it wasn't in my head...
He said "breath"
"Just give me time"
"I'm trying to teach you
that my ways are so sublime"
"just take a deep breath,
And trust in my love."
"I love you far more
Than you could ever be loved."
"Why would I want to see
tears upon your face?"
"When it was my Son who I sent to the cross in your place?"
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) but honestly, this poem is gorgeous! it was truly amazing and not cheesy at all! the heart and soul that you poured into this was so vivid and it really touched me and made me think... the ending hit me hard and actually shocked me because i didnt know how you were going to manage to put such a great ending on that piece! im jealous of your ability to write such beautiful pieces
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but on a serious note. That was an awesome (meaning something great) description of what goes on in most of our heads... Between ourselves and god. Can't blame some "higher being" that you may not even believe in with all of your heart.. and you sure as hell can't assume it all got better "just because" at least I feel that way too. I'm religious in my own way. I believe in God - for the notion to have "faith" that someone or thing is looking over us. And to have faith that there's something better than this (this - being the life we're living now) It's so sad, heartwrenching and painful just to live (not to mention the struggles of the everyday man) so... it's gotta get better?! right? beautiful expressions here. thanks for sharing.
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