I've cried
So many tears over this
I've looked to the sky
Searching for answers
That were never found
All I knew was that it was all me
Myself
I got myself into that mess
And I had to get myself out of it
Just me, myself
I couldn't shake the feeling inside
That feeling of self-hatred and regret
Knowing that I could have done something
But even if it happened again
I would still react the same
Solitude brings peace
Attention brings anxiety
So that night, I guess I was frozen
With the fear that something more
Would happen than what did
Looking back now
It was the one thing that broke me
I'm still pondering over it
But yet, I'm here to tell the tale
Surviving through that guy's trophy story
Author notes
Written on 4th January 2005 at 01:54 GMT
Again, this is a response to something LunarAngel wrote. Her poem is called There Is No Justice . It made me cry. And this poem is about remembering and reflecting. He may have gotten away with what he did to me, but I'm surviving still.
In a list
- trophy 1 - gold • next in list
- about my life • next in list
- survival stories • next in list
- 21-30 • next in list
A contest entry
- tell your story, what made you who you are by Kimmehh.
305 points, ended September 3, 2005, 14 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - ~Abuse~And it's Effects~----I Hate the Games but Love the Player--- by Clinging-to-Life.
700 points, ended February 26, 2008, 11 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
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Interesting write thank you for entering and thank you for following my rules! I can relat to this in many ways...Good write and I wish you all the best
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Yes....this deserved a gold...you can tell you have poured it all into each line. I loved the end...it was just enough bitter to make the sorrow understandible...
Peace, Kelly -
wow. i really liked that. i liked the connection with the sky. i was pretty depressed a few moments ago. thank you for you insight. solitude is sometimes a gift. i'm glad you entered my contest.
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nice write
this is touching, wonderful, terrific, etc. Keep it up.
XOXO
~laura -
Laura, I am so proud of you. You have come through so much in the last year or so, and you are still here. You are a shining example of what self-help can do. I do sincerely hope that you carry on with this great motion.
Always yours -
Trophy story, yeah I like that bit. Too bad that sucker didn't get what he deserved. Maybe one day, eh?
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This is wonderful Duckie. I wuv ya and I'm glad you are writing about these things, by writing about them you could be helping yourself
Love yas
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