You'll still always be here
Here in my head
My heart
You shattered my dreams
My hope
My feeling
You took away my purity
My life
You'll always be in my life
I can never get away
I'll always have the memories
Always.
The memories...
Of all of the pain you caused
The pain that will never leave me.
How you would hit me
Yell in my face
The hate I could see in your eyes.
How your eyes were glazed over
An alcoholic face
Your breath smelled like booze
You would push me against the wall
Force yourself on me
Pushed harder
Until I bled.
I tried to keep my cries to myself
You'd leave me for dead.
See how long it would be till I tried to commit suicide
Again.
Taking the bottle of pills
One by one
Hoping one would be the magic one
That would kill me
So I wouldn't experience this pain again
I wish the person who found me
Would of just left
Acted like they never saw me
Just walk away
Laying in the hospital
You would laugh
As I'd tell the lies
Making excuses for the bruises
And saying everything was fine.
I was just depressed
That was all
Making excuses in my head
Saying I deserved it
It was all my fault
Just like always
I did something to piss you off
For you to hit me
Push me
Yell in my face
Kicking me as I cry.
Not caring that I have a baby
A baby from all your pain
That is growing inside of me
I try to run
You pull me back
It seems I can never get out
Till that one faithful day
My cousin saved me from the pain
Told you if you ever hurt me again
You'll be in a grave
That was the day
I was saved
Author notes
Self explainitory.
Cut your heart out and I commented on Princess Muse's poem.
Written December 26th, 2004
A contest entry
- Cut Your Heart Out... by x3 Bang Bang x3.
300 points, ended December 28, 2004, 44 entries
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i love this piece of writing. it puts people in the authors shoes for a brief moment. its ironic that a story of such pain can bring such a beautiful poem to life. very nice.
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this is very honest and moving
while i was reading it-i was hoping it wasnt from a real experience-but it think it is
i'm glad your cousin was there for you
i hope everything is well now
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Oh. I'm soooo sorry, I thought you didnt read it. I shouldnt have acted like that. I really am sorry.
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sorry. you didnt win. i dont know why it didnt say i veiw this. but i swear to it i did. so when i learn how to give somebody points. ill give you some for entering. thanks
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good job
this is an AWESOME AWESOME poem...GREAT JOB im so sorry this happened 2 u and even happier that u got out of it the important thing is the baby now....keep it up!
Amy
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