In this photograph

In this photograph
Faces smiling out of somewhere down there
Life couldn't get worse
Staring at the walls closing in around me
Waiting for something falling close at hand

I feel
So used
So lost
And confused

My hands are numb
Please stop this pain from consuming me
Life hasn't gotten worse
Laying on my bed waiting for the puppets to take control
Looking at my future through the one way mirror

I cry
To sleep
To drown
All pain

What's this in my palm
Holding on to something strong
Waiting for the noose to fall around my neck
Screaming at the ceiling trying to strangle me
I lose my thoughts in the sea of me

I scream
At me
At you
Lost my voice

Flailing I am lost
Holding on to the deck of the boat
What's this, it's life, it sucks
Life sucks

What is happening
Why can't they see
This isn't meant for me
Life is to complicated
When did it all get jaded

Lost in
And now
Life's only
As good
As the our enemies
Hold on
To what
You've got now
Or lose it

I'm gone
It's done
Life's hit me in my ass
Trying to hold on
But my hands begin to slip
I'm sorry
If I
Don't seem to care

You mean so much to me
I only want you to see this is how I feel
I love you so much I miss you even more
Life isn't as good when we can't go for walks
Let me know we're still friends
I hate my life
But I can't go back
And make it right
I must go on from here
Take back all of my tears

I miss you
I love you
Always