Paul & Alex Please read this.

Unopened Letter to the world by the ataris


If I died tomorrow would this song live on forever?
Here is my...unopened letter to a world
that never shall reply

If I died tomorrow would this song live on forever??
Here is my… unopened letter to a world
that never shall reply, never shall reply

From this second story window I can hear the church bells
calling out my name. This table is set for one.
Even angels would be homesick in this forsaken town.

On random notes of parchment I'm scrawling my existence,
Dressed in white. This candle radiates throughout the night
And it's never burning out, Never burning out

From this second story window I can hear the children
down on Main Street.  They're singing their songs tonight.
In the shadows, I will listen to their every movement.

Mr. Higginson, Am I not good enough for the world?
Am I destined only to die the same way that I lived...
In seclusion.

From high up on this mountain I can almost see
your lonely windowsill. They'll carry you off tonight.
There's a ghost in your old bedroom
And a candle burning bright.

If I died tomorrow
Would this song live on forever?

I'm posting this here, on AllPoetry because i know Paul and Alex will find it and share

Dear Dad,
        I do love you, thanks for caring about me, which I see now you really really do.  I'm really sorry, just I don't know, at least Alex is okay now.  Just, I don't know, keep your head up.  Thats what you always told me.

Dear Mom,
        You never did care about me, only about Drew, I have nothing to say to you.

Dear Alex,
        I don't know if I owe you an apology or what, I don't think I do, you were gonna do the same thing to me.  I do though, because I guess I'm nicer than you, I'm sorry and I love you, and I hope your really happy with your new girlfriend and just be with her and forget about me like you did before.  I'm not going to be mean to you right now though, I could, but I won't.  Just, stay up late for me and watch those old movies like we used to, be a big brother to Paul instead of me, And Sam too.  I do love you no matter what you drug me through and just, I love you, and if this doesn't work out, I'll try to get a room in there with you. I love you, remember me smiling.

Dear Paul,
        This is the hardest one, Paul, I'm sorry, I am.  I love you so much, and thats why I should do this, I talked to you and scared you and made you cry, and I'm sorry for that too.  This letter will have to do, I love you, I love you more than I love anything or anyone and thats why this might just be a pitless letter, And I'm sorry for even that, You just don't understand, and didn't even trust me, but don't ever cry about that, this is not your fault, don't ever cry and hold on and keep fighting.  Go find better even.  I love you, I love you but don't let me haunt you, just move, I'm sorry, I just need to be selfish right now before I hurt you later, I couldn't live with myself if I did, I've been trying and trying but I can't make it Fuck it, Okay, okay, I'm sorry I can't do it to you though, And now, I'm going to go wake you up and tell you, and I'm going to call my mom and tell her and going to call alex and wake up my dad.  I love you so much and now owe you even more, You are my reason, I could never do that to you, I love you too much, you are my everything, I want to live just so I can live with you, and this has been such reflection, I don't want to die at all, I want to smile with you and now thinking about you and watching you sleep I can't even remember why I wanted to in the first place, lets run away together, we can both heal each other, now we'll be even and you don't have to feel bad about the operation anymore, I'm sorry for even thinking that and now I just want to lay with you, I love you, you'll read this later, who knows when and already know all about it, I want to live forever with you and I'm so stupid for even thinking that.  I just want to hold you forever, you are my world, you can trust me, fuck zane, believe me, you can.  i love you I LOVE YOU! Legally you're mine, Paul Damien Neill, I love writing your name, i love everything about you. I hate that I even thought of what I did up there, I could erase it but 1 I want to show you what a great person you are and 2 I want to remind myself if I ever forget, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I can't say it enough, I'm going to go hold you now, sorry if I woke you up hehe, I love you.
                            Love,
                                 Adrian Neill