Everyone keeps telling me to take a chance
Falling won't be as hard as wondering about what could have been
Just take a chance
They tell me to hold my head high and explain what I feel for you
But I'm truly terrified about what you might think of me after I do
I've told them time and time again about how you turn away from me when I talk to you like I'm stupid
Which in turn makes me think of myself that way
Everyone says it will be fine if I tell you
But I don't want to be made fun of like all the other times
I don't want to walk by you and your friends and hear you whisper and giggle
I even thought about how I'm not good enough for you
How I'm too ugly and too fat and God, how stupid I can be
Not what you want
How you must really think of me when I act entirely stupid in front of you
But what you don't know is that I only act stupid to see your smirk
Oh, I love that about you
I only act stupid because I'm terrified if you don't you'll see the true me
The small, scared, little girl I am inside
And how much that scared little girl wants you to notice her
God, how much I love you means nothing and I realize that
Even if you knew I don't think you'd care
You'd probably laugh and turn your back on me like everyone else I've loved
All of the things I've listed are the true reasons I keep my love for you hidden under everything else
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Written December 16th, 2004
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great poem....i really know how that feels!
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hmm.. great poem! thanks for commenting on mine.
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Hmm...this doesn't really sound like poetry, but more like a diary entry, or a letter. It might work a little better if you break up some of the sentences and space it out into verses. About the poem itself, although the topic is a little cliche, it seems real and genuine. As crisstiena said, you shouldn't put yourself down. I know sometimes it's hard to have self-esteem, hell, I've been through it, but you have to push past. Notice the good points, try to move past the bad. Everything will work out for the best, if you believe it will. Keep writing, stay strong and take care.
Phoebe -
sad writing
Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If we were to go through our life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Smile at opportunity, take a chance and leave no room for regrets.
Beautifully written heartfelt poem.
And it's true - you need to have more confidence and don't
put yourself down so much. Repeat after me
I am beautiful...
My thoughts are with you this Christmas time.
Be strong. Best wishes ~ crisstiena
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ok, I really need to talk to you, cause I'm so lost, it aint even funny, I love ya chika, and I love your poetry, I can't wait to talk to you again.
~Brit~ -
I agree with Painful. This kicks ass and you decide what you should do. I'm sure its hard going back and forth with him. Did he even give you a reason why you all broke up? If you love him and it was meant to be, it will. Sounds cliche, but love is one of the truest things on the damn earth.
Meg -
*wipe tears away*
hell its up to you
YOU decide what
YOU want to do
its nobody elses'
plus what can you lose
if you do?
what can you gain
if you dont?
happiness
or
hell if you do
and
a crush forever
or
a withered away old love
if you dont
you need to decide
what YOU want to do
its nobody elses desicion
m'kay?
love ya always
~shay~
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