Nobody knows

No one knows how much I love him. I can't stop thinking about him. He is my everything. I love him more then anything (except my family and friends). I won't go out with any other guy because he is all I think about. He is a jackass to me but I cant get over him. My friends think I'm crazy for even wanting him. I just love him so much and i don't no why. When he is around I'll do anything to get his attention, or i can't find any words to say. When he hugs me I feel as if nothing is wrong. When we kiss i can't think of anything else but all the warmth I feel inside. I cant go out with him though, because I can't trust him. Why do I do this to myself? Why can't I let him go? Why is all I want to know. I just want to walk up to him and tell him how i feel. I want to shout out to the world that i love him. I LOVE HIM, but he doesn't love me. He plays the games that I hate. I still LOVE him though and I don't know why...

I know that's not a poem but i just had to write what ever came to my mind and there it is...