I do not want to cut
I do not want to bleed
The pain that I feel
Is not all I need
I do not want to harm
This skin over my bone
I do not want to die tonight
I want to be alone
I do not want things to change
I do not want to be hated
I want people to be worried about me
'Cause then I'll feel loved
I don't feel worthless
I don't loathe myself
I don't screw up everything
I don't hurt everyone around me
I don't want to feel a needle
Running across my arm
In a straight line
Never any turn
I do want to feel like
I'm dying inside
I want to feel like
No one cares
I do want to be depressed
I do want to cry
I do want to feel like
I should really die
All of these things I should believe
I want to suffer in silence
With no friends to care about me
But somehow, I just can't believe this
I can't believe what I say
And I wish with all of my heart that I could
Because it'd be so much easier
To just embrace the eternal sadness
It'd be so much easier
If I just died
And I believe that
Or do I even know anymore
What I believe?
Author notes
Don't cut. Seriously. Ever.
Written November 18th, 2004
In a list
A contest entry
- Help me through by Kristen Corpse.
400 points, ended December 27, 2004, 18 entries
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WOW. Again my voice here my feelings I can totally relatwe to this poignant and wonderful read my friend, Great work again,
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Brilliantly written, so many things there that I can relate to. It really is amazing. Well done, another amazing write. xxx
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I'm glad you can relate to this and I hope it helps. I feel like this a lot of the time, so I know how you feel. I am a cutter trying to break the habit and have broken promises, therefore I don't make them anymore. The best advice I can give you is to just take it one urge and step at a time. Good luck and don't give up. People care about you, and that's worth living for.
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Exactly the things running through me right now. Brilliant write. It's like you have dug deep into my head and just pulled out what I am feeling. Great piece. Thank you for taking the time to enter this contest. Good luck. Love always,
Kristen -
I don't know if this was part of your poems form or what not, but I noticed a lot of contradictions going on. Also the flow and the thoughts were all jumbled so it was hard to follow along. Then again we’re all human beings and don't we think in contradictions, and fragmented thoughts that sometimes can read incoherent? lol, I guess I just deconstructed the literature...
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this is well written.. i like this dearly much i can so relate on what your saying in here and thx for the comment and fixing my error i made in the title.. hehe..well good job and great write...
~Sara -
I can relate to this very much. I am a recovering cutter, I know exactly how you feel. Thanks for writing this it really makes mefeel like I'm really not alone.
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wow. i can relate to this so well. its a beautiful poem, nice strusture and very powerful.
I do not want to cut
I do not want to bleed
The pain that I feel
Is not all I need
i really like these lines: the first stanza. a very powerful opening and it is how i feel at the moment. if you ever wanna talk, im here. great write
~mina~
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