It happened many years ago,
it's now lost deep within my mind,
the worse year I had ever seen,
life was treating me so unkind.
I had lost the will to live,
God was not in my life back then,
my pain and sorrow overwhelmed me,
I could not face the dawn again.
It was the long Thanksgiving weekend,
I was divorced and far from home,
the kids were with dad for the weekend,
I found myself so all alone.
I cried writing each child a letter,
I had a large bottle full of pills,
my mind thinking of the man I loved,
he was a gentle man named Bill.
Bill had killed himself the week before,
he had left me pregnant and alone,
the only thing that stopped me,
was the ringing of the telephone.
The children called to say they missed me,
their little voices as happy as can be,
as I hung up the phone tears were flowing,
I could not leave them such an awful memory.
Author notes
This happened when my life was full of sorrow. Recently I have found God and He has taken away all my painful memories. Thank you dear Lord for coming into my life and making me smile again.
Written November 8th, 2004
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Excellent !
Sandy,
Oh my God, what you have gone through. You are a great
writer. It comes out in you're words. I feel you're
pain. I am sure that guy is in Hell right now suffering the wrath of Almighty God for what he did to you. Just remember you went through all that pain and heartache to be the person you are today. Each experience we have in this life makes us a better person. Just keep that in mind. You're New Pal,
Pietro789
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Excellent
This is toooooo sad, I am crying
The poem stands on it`s own merrit
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Thank you for the lovely comment. I only found God last July through a young Christian poet on here, live4eternity. My thought of suicide was 25 yrs. ago. It was a long road to finding God and His forgiveness. My life now has changed in so many ways for the better. Take care, Sandy.
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I know that everyone has said that they're sorry to hear your story, but I, for one, am not. I am glad that you found God. However, I am saddened that it took such an event in order for you to find Him. Deeply troubled, but great write. I just can't seem to win against you ;-)!
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Thank you for the nice comment. I appreciate it. Take care, Sandy
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omg thats one of the best poems iv eva read keep this up
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Thanks Stephanie, this was a sad time in my life but was a long time ago. Thank you so much for the lovely comment. It is most appreciated. Thanks again for inviting me to join your group. Take care, Sandy
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The Stuff Good Writing Is Made Of--
sandy, 'bout time i wandered over to your page... for someone who's only been writing a short time, you sure do have an amazing grasp on the sincerity and honesty it takes to be a good writer... thanks for sharing... i'm putting you on my favorites list so i can watch out for your latest works
stephanie
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Thank you so much Laura, your are so kind. Life is wonderful with God in my life. I was truly lost till I found Him and he took my burdens from me. God Bless you Laura, Take care, Sandy
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Oh sweetheart you had a wake up call thats what I call it. Everytime I felt or feel down something happens it wakes me up to realize life isn't all that bad. Usually the hurt will happen to me.
I should of been dead many times, but, GOD has kept me alive for a reason and maybe this is it, my Life now. Mind you they were not suicides they were car accidents, sliding underneath a moving car from ice, I could go on and on. Here I am writting you on this lovely day. I am so glad you found GOD and all his wonderful things that he can do on a daily basis, making sure we are safe and sound is his big job write now. I really think these are the last days very soon. GOD's major job write now is to protect his flock of sheep. We will never be walking alone again. Praise him for all he has done, give thanks. GOD BLESS YOU MY FRIEND I am here if you need to talk. LAURA
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Thank you pozo for the kind and thoughtful words. Yea when I gave my life to Jesus Christ he took so many burdens off my shoulders. I was reborn and it feels wonderful. This website has literally given me a new life with our Lord. Truly amazing. God bless you my friend. Sandy
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Wow, this is an excellent poem but it really made me think. I kind of knew you had a hard life but I didn't know about the suicide etc. I'm sorry this has happened to you but I'm glad you found God and your life is good now
Thanks for commenting on my poem He isn't worth it, considering it doesn't really affect me and it's just one little bad point
But I really wish he wouldn't say things that hurt people and do things that hurt people, instead that he would think about the real priorities
All the best,
Good luck in the contest,
God bless,
Pozo
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Thank you so much Ann I always look forward to your comments. I have learned, when life knocks you down, pick yourself up and try again. It's so much easier now, I have God helping me up when I fall down. He's always beside me. Take care, Sandy
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Oh Sandy, how sad a story, it's so strange, I went through something similar at that same time, his name was also Bill and I had the same feelings, (1972 for me)...but the poem really touched my heart, it was so close to home. Writing is such a wonderful way to place all these memories in the past, and now look, God is in our hearts, we are blessed with beautiful children, a wonderful husband, what more joy could we have? We are so blessed! Peace be with you dear friend, I do enjoy reading your writes each day. Ann
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Thank you for the kind words. They make me smile. Some how I can picture you being a little scruffy devil when you were a wee lad. Always stay as nice as you are. Boy this is a serious comment,
I have to get back in my silly mode. 
Take care, Sandy 
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such a sad poem/story here, life throws at us its deafening glances at times, and in the moments of pain it is so easy to think of giving in. i am glad you didn't. i was er, nine, in nineteen seventy four, the light of my mother's eye, a little angel lol well more like scruffy devil
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