what's the cure

I fucking hate you
Why can't your opinions of me get the fuck out my head?
Why can't I look at a simple pair of jeans without hearing your voice?
Your voice to me is like fucking nails on a chalkboard
I wish you the most painful death one could imagine
How can you still ruin my life so far away?
Why is there no mother fucking escape from your ideals on how to treat a person?
Why can't you fall off a fucking bridge and die?
Why do I still let you bother me?

It's not you,  
It's those fucking games you play
Why did I have to see your disgusting face?
You make me want to pour salt into my open wounds
You make me want to beat small children
You make me want to be anything but me
But it's not you
It's not you I miss
I have no fucking emotions for you

You made me believe I was worthless
You gave me the disease
But how can I find the cure?
Is there a cure you sick fuck?
Was this your plan all along,
Knowing I was naive and fucking foolish enough to fall for it?

Why can't I smile a real smile anymore?
Because I don't think I'm worth it,  
Because you told me so?
Who the fuck are you?
Your not fucking worth it you cunt rag
God I fucking hate you
But really for no reason
It's my fucking fault for staying with you
For believing every fucking word like an ass
So am I supposed to hate myself more than I already do?
What the fuck is the cure?