drew the invisible line
down the
middle
of
my
body.
this is what I wanted, and nothing works
nothing fits
but now I am practically hysterical because
I want every movement analyzed
and I want to know if
if
if
if
if
if
if
if
if
if
ififiDfifif0ifififEifififiSfifiIfififififiTfifitfififCifififOififififiUfififif
I don't even feel
like I thought that I would
(I don't feel don't feel don't feel feel feel feel
like a
slut
slut
slut
slut
slut
slut
slut
burning into my fucking head)
is this how everything is supposed to be feel
and why do i have the feeling that
nothing is right?
and EVERYWHERE
i can smell
him
smell
his
scent and the thought of everything
and
and
and
and
and
and
and
the way it looked
the way it felt
the way he looked?
why didn't i fucking get what i wanted
why
does
everything
always
have
to
be
so
fucking
difficult
for
me?
why can't this be
simple
why can't i just
fucking get it
OVER with
(why?)
(I want everything so bad, and I'm never good at anything and this....this is harder than I thought, but not hard enough.)
can you tell
the
di
ff
er
en
ce
in my face
my walk, the way
i produce my
words?
the way i am drip dr
opping
down through
everything and everyone and everyeveryeveryeveryevery
moment
everything is passing by.
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