It is too soon to tell
if I will survive,
letting go of you once
was hard enough
holding you, my child
in my arms, knowing that
I had to let you die
for you, I had to let you go
you were so sick
struggling to hold on
your tiny body, lying there
too weak to even cry
struggling to breath
your chest rose slowly
struggling for me
I had to let you go
holding you when you
took your final breath
letting go
I sat there, craddling
your lifeless body
knowing that going on without you
would be so hard
and today, as I sit here
thoughts of you pass through
my mind, like they do every day
missing you is all I ever do
I'm angry at your for leaving
Although, I know you had to go
forgiveness is in my heart
it is there for YOU
I need to let go
not for you this time
but for me
I have to let you go
I wont forget you
but I need to get my life
back on track
I need to live again
My heart beats for you
and I will never forget
all that you brought to my life
let me let you go
One day soon, I will smile
and for you, I will remember
the happiness you brought me
I will rejoice for your life
and all you brought to mine
one day, I'll smile
FOR YOU, my child.
Author notes
Forgiving her.... has been hard, because I have harboured anger in my heart, not wanting to let go of it.. of her...
Written September 28th, 2004
A contest entry
- Forgiveness; The Road to Healing (Contest) by PeaceChain.
500 points, ended September 30, 2004, 40 entries
Bronze trophy winner
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I can't comment on this.................just read and explore what happened.....3
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Beautiful and Sad
This is very emotional and you will be fine. You have people who love you and will hold on to you until you find your inner peace. I for one will never leave yourside, holding you so tight. Your friend for life. Love you babe,
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Your true-life song deeply moved me
Losing a child is beyond anyone’s endurance
It’s simply not a natural state of being but you have shown all of us
That one day you will smile for your child
Simply Stunning Moving and in my humble opinion should have won the GOLD.
Your song reminds me of when Eric Clapton sang for his son
Tears in Heaven and won seven Grammy’s.
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Thank you, Dearly.
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Losing anyone is difficult, but the loss of a child is worse. you have done a great job of showing how hard it is to let go and how easy it is to blame them for leaving us...
Susan -
This is totally heartbreaking, losing a child is terrible, you seem to have converted your pain and loss into anger and directed it towards her. poor little thing, this poem breaks my heart I am glad that you are finding your way back . I love the ray of hope at the end
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