And there once was...

I once had a smile
until my suffering made it hide
then out of no where
it just up and died

from all the pain,
and all the crying
I try and tell myself ill be okay
But I'm just lying

Sometimes I just go off into a deep stare
contemplating why I'm even here
Watching people slowly walk by,
Whispering "why does she cry?", "She's a loser thats why!"

Listening to the distant voice from within the wall
it creeps closer as the shadows grow tall
I creep back to my corner where i silently weep
I try to yell and shout, but Ive forgotten how to speak

I cut away right down to the bone
I right with my blood "I'm all alone"
I turn around and this is usually when a tear rolls down from my eye
but not this time, Ive forgotten how to cry

I gaze off and see all the memories that have past
Wishing i could be the one with the final laugh
But in my world, I'm make believe
There's simple just no use for me