My Story..

A girl lays in bed,
smiling as she dials her phone,
"Hey baby how was your day?"
she asked a shine in her eyes,
just thinking about him.

"Nothings fucking okay,"
he growled harshly into the phone,
"come over please...
I wanna run away..."

"baby you know I would,
but I haffta stay..."

"what's more important then me,
you don't love me like you used to,
anyone else would be here by now,
but just just don't care..."

"Eric I love you..
you know that it's true..
but I....-"

"no, shut up!,
your a terrible girlfriend,
even worse a friend!
I can't believe I love you,
your not here when I need you."

"But Eric If I could,
I would make it all alright..-"

"but nothing my ass,
we're through!
I don't wanna be with you..."
his voice began to break
among with his heart,
"I don't want to live anymore,
I can't stand it any longer...
first my parents and now you,
no one cares about me..
I'll make you all happy..."

she heard a click on the phone,
face covered in tears,
barely being able to speak,
"Eric! Eric?!.."
the dial tone rang,
quickly she dropped the phone,
went out of her house,
and ran down three blocks,
pounding on the door,
no answer.. his parents weren't hme,
turning the knob she ran in,
a loud ringing present in her ears,
a gun had been fired near,
heartracing she ran to his room,
rushed in to find him on the floor,
covered in blood all around,
a note in his hand
clutched with the gun.

paramedics all around,
a sheet layed over him,
"NO! He can't..
no..he's not dead...!"
restrained by the police,
she battled to get free,
crying hysterically.

every night she lays in bed,
thinking of everything that night that was said,
note held tight in hand,
she holds the phone,
awaiting for his call,
still imagining hes there...

I await for him every night,
to hear his voice,
saying "I love you",
I reread the note,
"You know I love you..
I know your words were true..
I'm sorry this is what I had to do..."

Why did you leave me...
I knew you were depressed,
but now I'm the one that can't rest,
they all wonder why I want to die,
it's all to be back by your side,
no one know's about that night,
no one knows my real story...
please call me....
I await to hear your voice,
I wanna hear the ring of the phone,
and know I'm not really alone..
It's all my fault..