A world of my own

The sun is out
the sky is blue
im here alone
in this room
in theese purple clothes
i cant wear my own
away from my friends
away from my home
its as if im on lockdown
with everyone watching me
asking how i feel
so i sit facing the window
looking outside
seeing the sun
then i close my eyes
the sun is gone
it is not bright
just swarms of dark colors
how i feel inside
red is the blood that comes out of my cuts
blue stands for all of the tears
black is for how hopeless i feel
i havent seen the color white in years
Purple is all of the pressure i have and
for all the heartbreaks ive felt
then i see theese big streams of each color
as they swarm into one
i see myself swimming in this sea of misery
and i watch myself sink and drown
then i open my eyes.
i take a good look at the world
its alot differant from my world inside