I should have...

My love,

I want to tell you

All the things that I’ve done wrong

And things that I regret not doing

That might complete my song.

I should have gone to collage

And obtained a fine degree

I might be a corporate big wig

But there is no guarantee.

I should have waited till I married

To give my body in sweet lust

But loneliness caused better judgment

To wash away like dust

I should not have married him

Or should have left him long before

His contempt took away my self-esteem

And made me long to cross deaths door

I should never have left my loved ones

Moved a thousand miles away

When I knew I should divorce him

Oh God, why did I stay?

I should not have given into lust

When I’d finally broken free

Falling for eyes filled with passion

And warmth that overwhelmed me.

I should have left a married man

The second that I knew

Closed my heart to pleas of love

Not listened to your point of view

I should not have cared

About the problems with your wife

Or that she didn’t care enough

To share your bed and life.

I should not have waited for you

Two years is a long time

But I love you more then life

So I guess it’s not a crime

There are so many more things

I could add to this list

But in the end what matters

Is what I might have missed

I thought and thought about it

As I gave this review

And I’d not changed a single thing

For it might keep me from you.

Patricia Gibson-Williams

July 26, 2004