I think I put the pressure on myself,
But sometimes I'm not quite sure
It feels like the world flies by
In a whirl of lights and debris
And I'm stuck in the middle
Dying to be free
And I realized today,
I don't always have to be perfect
I don't always have to 'thin'
I don't have to be as beautiful,
Outside, as I am within
But the intensity rises,
Somedays I feel like I can't,
Live without my disguises
I think I set expectations,
For myself, that I can't keep
The steeper they are, the further
I tend to fall, and why?
Just so I can prove to be a failure,
After all, people say behind my back
...And sometimes I wonder if it's them..
...Not me that lack...
Society today feels like a drowning pool
Of our own filth and fervor
13 year old girls, feel like women
And the older we get, the worse we're off
I'm afraid of my own complexes, and
To walk down the street without someone
Holding my hand for moral support
...and when did it change..?
...Our views of body, or the late report..?
And somedays I feel like it's my fault,
The issues I have, or the entire world
I'm the encompassment of everyone's problems
Or maybe just those in my household, but it feels like
The entire world has gone cold under my touch...
...And then I realize,
I don't have to be 'perfect'
In anyone's eyes but my own
And I don't have to be 'thin'
To fit in, and I shouldn't
Feel guilty even if I am...
And I don't have to as beautiful
Outside, as I am within...
And I don't have to be afraid
Of my own shadow, or the
World outside my little fence
...It's all in how you look at it..
Author notes
I'm not exactly sure it makes sense.. I was inspired by recent events in the news, and my own warped sense of life and myself..
***for this contest: I commented on "Mirrored Memory"
Written June 28th, 2004
A contest entry
- True Beauty by crazymomma.
1400 points, ended August 19, 2008, 31 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
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I really enjoyed the repetition and the lines:
"...And then I realize,
I don't have to be 'perfect'
In anyone's eyes but my own
And I don't have to be 'thin'
To fit in, and I shouldn't
Feel guilty even if I am...
And I don't have to as beautiful
Outside, as I am within..." I took too many wasted years trying to please others. Now I see my beauty and want to help others see their own. That is the whole reason for this contest. Thanks for the lovely entry and good luck.
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Very well written - I loved how this poem wasn't entirely focussed on yourself, but looked at the wider social influences also. A positive message expressed clearly and emotively - well done!
Vivi -
awsome
wow darling you were amazing i enjoyed your write and good luck in my contest! HB~
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that's an excellent poem. you get like a feeling of realization by just reading it.
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If one of my friends was here theyd probabily give me a lecture in believing in what this poem says about loving yourself. I totally agree with the way the world looks at beauty today. In fact, I had a terrible firt hand experience with this kind of "filth" that even today has left me scarred. Excellent representation.
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i thik we all can relat e to this, some people think only women worry abotu self image and their weight but us fellows do too! of course i was blessed to look like brad pitt
lol
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Take Care
I liek the moral to this poem. Keep it up, your pieces of poetry make a difference to all that read it & give readers a different view on things
Thanks for sharing this piece on ap, I hope to read more of your work in the very near future 
Take Care 
---Sara
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This is a very well written poem. You did a very good job on it! Good job I look forward to reading more of your poems!!
Keep up the Good work Sometimes I feel like this too!
Well I guess I will let you go here!!
*Staycee Mae*
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