I hate you.
For waking me,
from so-called
selfish dreams,
having me adorn
the lover's smile
and fill my
half-empty glass
with hope.
A diseased creature,
on a quest,
of alienation,
off to die alone.
Simply wanting
to lend a helping
hand, to atone
for my imaginary crime,
yet to come.
I only wanted to ease
your pain,
seeking
to end my own,
and continue on my way,
a stranger.
Why did you have to become
attached?
Why did I have to promise
to remain?
You chose instead,
to illuminate
a sad,
pathetic,
meaningless
existence.
Now I'm out in the cold,
still alone,
dreaming of the end
but bound by integrity
to uphold a solemn promise
and an oath to a silent,
distant friend.
I have walked
the dark path,
for too long.
I wish only to die,
free of guilt
laid upon my black heart
by the shadows
of your memory.
I hate you so very much,
for once loving me.
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This is one promise I wish I had never made.
Written May 11th, 2004
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i really love this piece! i think the words flowed well and you have some awesome imagery playing out in here. This literally brought tears to my eyes and i felt the old familiar sting of nostalgia. great write!
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romantic and oh so true
i really love the way you wrote this poem and can also relate to it now that i have been apart from my ex fiancee for 3 months, this touch's my heart and has made my pain a little more easier to bear. thank you -
wonderful.
man,
i really felt that one! especailly the last bit, "I hate you so very much for once loving me." sometimes when i see freinds who decided to hate me, boyfreinds who one day made me feel on top of the world, i say that exact thing. it wouldnt be so bad if they had just been aqaintences, but then they go and love you, you get attacked, and it ends, and you hate them, not for yelling at you, not for treating you like dirt, their are plenty of people who do that anyway, but because once they didnt. you really captured that. this was a really great poem, i think it might have been the best one i'v heard today.
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I hate this person for making me promise not to kill myself. I still feel I must honor the promise now, because we are still friends, at least on my end... Not sure how she feels
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well the words of this poem says Im angry because you loved me so much but the emotion behined the poem in my opinion says you dont realy love yourself and are looking for someone to blam for your unhappiness. Could be way off but just what I got out of it
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i loved this poem. nicely written and it is diffent from others but its still great. keep it up. take care
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oooh... harsh... hating someone for loving you... yep... I've had that happen to me... and I know how that feels, totally awesome poem though... *wanders off to read more*
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this is a good poem...diff. from most that i read, but it's good..nice job!
STAC
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