my role in my life

my role in my life
is misunderstood by all
I've had 11 boyfriends
all of them were taken away from me
5 by friends
5 by people i didn't even know
1 by my bestest friend
my life is a train wreck
people don't know i even exist
I'm a tomboy and i hate it
my friends aren't friends at all
don't support me when i tell them who my new boyfriend is
just say oh in a disgusted way
my friends keep me single so i can help them whenever they need it
help them in love
help them in life
just do this and that i say
really?okay I'll do that then
and they leave with not even saying goodbye
or even a small thank you
how i hate them how i despise them they're all so mean
they tease me and try to hook me up with some guy
that i don't even like simply because they think he's my type
I'm the adviser in my world
need advice?there you go,welcome
my brother is the brattiest kid in the world
my neighbors are so nosy
i cry myself to sleep now simply because of how
i live so horribly
if you were me you'd want to die just as i want to
but god won't let me
so instead i live in utter pain
i help others but it brings me only grief
i cry every day of my life now
only cause i can't stand to live no more
my life's a train wreck so those who care help me
help to try to bring joy in my life.