Black Silence

He took my happiness, my life, my world.
He took it all away.
All I have left is depression.

Ah so sweet, yet so bitter.
Nobody can help me.
I'm falling.

Falling ever closer to point of self harm.
I can't escape.
I'm too far in.

And then HE came along.
My feelings returned, the disappeared.
because I knew I couldn't have him.
I couldn't have the one thing that would get me better.

The one thing I needed was forbidden.
Yet I dreamed and schemed,
And failed every time.

I knew I doomed to die depressed.
Of my own doing.

Because of things that went wrong in my life,
I came closer to the point.
The point of self harm.
Then I bypassed it altogether.

I took that knife,
So simple, yet so dangerous.
I took it and pushed it into a place that hurt.
I did something nobody should ever have to do.

I escaped because I wanted to stay sane.

I escaped to a world of blackness where I was only simple me, nothing more.

Black silence. It's deafening