Story of My Life

I know it’s life.
I know that happiness is not always guaranteed, make that NEVER guaranteed in my life.

Always waiting for the other shoe to drop, never having a good year.

And I thought that all of this had changed, that my luck had turned around. That it is my turn to be happy. And happy I was….till the other shoe dropped, as always.

Sad thing is, I live my life knowing I am not destined for eternal bliss, forever eluding me. But still I chase after what I cannot have.

Love is maybe not for me, the forever afters, the picket fences, complete with the kids.
That’s all I’ve ever wanted, that’s all I’ll never get.

I saw my life, thinking happiness had finally bestowed its kindness upon me.
Only to have it painfully removed in front of my eyes.

I gave him my all. But I have since learnt, my all can never be enough.

It all hurts, but I now realize that the life I dream of, is not my life.
I shall forever be standing on the outside looking in.
It’s time I accepted my fate.
It’s time I lived my life for what it’s meant to be.

Alone.



You have learnt to love. I am glad I could show that to you. Show you that you are capable, to give and receive love.
You are destined for greatness.
I have to accept that all that I dream of shall never be mine.
As long as you've really known me. All I really wanted was to be somebody's wife - can you believe I've started this foolishness almost ten years ago.
Me- somebody's mother.

Life does not always go the way you plan.
You do not get what you think you want.