what to do

i've only known you a little while,
but now i cant seem to get you off my mind,
i think about you as i sleep,
it's like you are there in my dreams,
you've made me happy through this time of pain,
you've made me smile when no one else could'

not knowing what to do,

my heart is telling me to go for it and never look back,
but my mind is remembering all the other times,
all the times i have cried my self to sleep not knowing,
all the times i have wanted to die because of the pain,

not knowing what to do,

i think about the way you are,
the way you look at me when i walk up to you,
the way you say those sweet things in my ear as we sit in class,

i cant help but think about the way you trusted me,
the way you wanted me to help.

But now I cant help but wonder if this is all just a feeling,
a feeling that is going to disappear as soon as i say yes,

Are you going to change, and treat me the way the world does?
please tell me your not that way, please tell me you can help.

i have only known you for a little while but i cant seem to think that way,
it seems like i have known you for a while, like we knew each other before.

now what do i do?
fallow my heart...
  or
follow the experiences of before