Can't write for you - there's nothing there -
no love, no hope, no hate, no repair
(like a frozen fridge and the food out-of-date
and the ice and the heat from the oven
and the rape)...
I could have/should have shown you Two Thousand and Nine
but I didn't - so fuck it - I'll always be fine.
You couldn't read it anyway - 2009 lines
are a bit harder to love than my fucking blue eyes.
Blue eyed and perfect, and pretty and new.
Dad - WHAT THE FUCK - what should I do?
I would cut, I would kill, I would die, I would feel,
I would fight, I would go inside, I would hide...
but I would NOT run - like a chicken - watching the news -
thinking - fuck me - I should have a Father to use -
and then get that Father to buy me some booze -
and then I could ask you to choose:
your daughter
or a load of fucking kangaroos.
And I know the answer before the question.
I know the depth before the decision. I know the derision,
the reason, the meaning, the dolphin, the Winter,
the sea, sex-and sun-set. You know what you want and you
know how to get it. And you forget me (and probably regret it)
but get this: and please hold me with your voice -
the only thing left (if you gave me a choice)...
You might come back - I can tell myself that -
if your heart is still grey, if your skull is still cracked.
If I work hard enough - I can forget about you
and the hard-hearted heart that I can see through.
Because I am like you (believe it or not) -
I am cold, scared; full of hurt, harm and rot
and only you can tell me what I am and am not.
Dad - I hate you so much my heart has gone blue
but you could at least say that you hate me too.
Please tell me what you think
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Fucking amazing, dark, distorted in a way. I already can see I'm a fan of your work. Nice very nice.
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What a pity, to see love and find it blank. What a powerful destruction. Nice mess.
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JUDGED!
This is just Raw,
and to the Core
yes, that's for sure,
I need not say more...
Thanks for entering,
and all the best to you in the contest.
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ooh... very powerful!
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I love the way you put words together, Skitza...
"I know the depth before the decision. I know the derision,
the reason, the meaning, the dolphin, the Winter,
the sea, sex-and sun-set."
I love this! This write is intriguingly angry yet smooth, so smoothly I slid into it and was overwhelmed with the emotion here.
Good luck in the contest!
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I love this babes. And i think your dad is silly for missing the years with you. 
I hope he comes to realise what he is missing. x
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