Troubled Marriage

I lost the weight like you asked,
Spending grueling hours on my knees doing push up after push up
Spent cash I couldn't afford on expensive make up
Pushed my feet up in uncomfortable heels
Sucked my body into unnatural corsets
Burned and ruined my hair with relaxers and perms
Spoke less so you could look smarter than me
Slept with you when I was too tired and weary and
I never complained

But now you say I'm too thin
Make up isn't enough to hide the natural "ugliness of my beauty
I need implants too and perhaps botox as well
My body doesn't look like beyonce's because I starve myself for you to love me
But it's not good enough because I'm not like the dirty girls in your videos
You want me to be a career-successful/mother/housemaid/porn star
And it's not acceptable for me to fall short in any of these demands
I'm starting to see
That you never married me
You're committed to an idea of what you can force me to become
A failure to myself