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Not Again

H - heart
M - mind
B - body
S - soul
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M: Hey wake up! You need to listen to what I've been thinking.
H: Don't listen to the mind, it's the reason you've been sinking.
M: Shut up! So anyways... I think it's kinda pointless to continue on, don't you agree?
H: No she doesn't, because if that were true she wouldn't be here, this is destiny.
M: Whatever... you're alone in reality & no one likes you so just cut a bit.
B: OMG why did you do that to me again?! I didn't do anything to you, shit!
H: It's right ya know, it's all mind's fault. It's a bad influence.
M: Why don't you stay the fuck outta this! You have no common sense...
H: At least I don't hurt her & others for some sick fun -
M: Ha! You've done the most damage, because of you she fell for the wrong guys, remember that one?
H: I can't help who I love & I try my best.
M: She nearly ripped you out because you made her love people that didn't love her back & you're still broken so it's no contest.
B: Hey! I'm still bleeding over here! What are you gonna do?
H: She's gonna clean you up & dress you too...
M: Stop it! Heart is not logical & body doesn't matter when you're dead... you'll never feel pain again.
B: Hey, that is true. No more heartbreak over stupid men.
H: Yo, who's side are you on, clairify that if u could...
B: I can't help it, the cutting is starting to feel so damn good.
H: Of course it is, you're addicted because she's confused. Shana stop hurting yourself, the body doesn't need to be abused.
M: Are you seriously still trying? She made me up a long time ago.
H: The past doesn't matter, you're playing a shifty game mind & you're playing it low.
M: Your mom hates you, you're driving pepple crazy, plus you hate body anyway because no matter what you do, it won't slim down!
B: Don't talk about me like that, you're the reason she hurts me... I wish you could never make a sound.
H: See body's right & on my side. Ignore mind, it's the one starting this war.
B: I'm not on anyones side but Shana's. Shana, can you cut me once more?
H: No body! You're falling into the trance. She's gonna get trapped & mind's gonna take over.
B: I don't care anymore, it feels incredible, I dont wanna be sober!
H: Fine! Don't listen to me... I don't care.
M: See, what did I tell you? Heart doesn't care, but I'm still here, tired, gonna let you rest, just made sure you were aware...
B: Once again it's you & me & I'm still in pain, but I'm not taking this anymore... I'm done with you because it ain't fair.
S: Shana! What have you done? Yourself hates itself. You keep trying to run but you cant escape. You're dying due to your own pollution because you can't seem to get away, but there's a simple solution... you have to let go of everything & start over.

Author notes

This is how I feel a lot of the time when I hurt myself or I'm depressed. I'm not crazy but sometimes I feel I am. I know what I have to do but that's easier said than done.

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  • wow this is very good! I couldnt stop reading, I am so sorry you feel like this, I can relate to this, I started to se a therapist but that dosnt even help, I know exacly what you are feeling, really great write and keep writing, it helps a lot to pen things out. thank you so much for entering and I wish you the best of luck in this contest, if you ever want to talk about things dont be afraid to send me one. thanks again

    • thank u so much for understanding. it wouldnt even be so bad but i drive my friends crazy. i try not to be down so much and stay positive cuz maybe if all of this didnt happen to me i would have never met my best friend who does his best.

      • its always good to try and think positive even tho it can be really hard, its awsome that you have a friend that is there for you,those are the best of friends anyone could ever have