make it what you will

its building

second by second
i can feel the pressure building
growing tighter in my chest

there are bees stinging the inside my head
and those stings breed more
and those too sting me
leaving my whole mind tender and raw

i watch as the world slowly withers around me and dies
i feel like i'm sitting inside a glass bowl
and can only stare at the world swirling around me
like i'm sitting in a snow globe
as the flakes scatter and twist
but never settle down
leaving me dizzy from trying to keep track

i miss the slow pace of the lazy sunday mornings
when we had nothing to do but lay in each others arms
and enjoy the warmth of another body

but now everything is so mixed up
and we hardly get a minutes rest
each day is too full
and the nights not long enough

i dont want us to grow apart
to wither and die like the leaves
crumble and decay
leaving nothing but a blackened mass
on the ground until next spring
when the death breeds new hope

please dont let this be the winter of our
lives, when the passion is smothered by the cold
of the daily routine
and the heat of summer fades into the cooling
autumn nights
turning colder by the hour
as the light fades and leaves the sun behind
bringing night that lasts too long

please dont forget me
when you find the hours
are too long to bear
and i'm not there
remember my kiss
and i beg you
dont leave me when i need you
to be the rock that i lean on
for the support especially
in the coming months
when i'll need you more than ever

because without you
my life would be a never ending winters night
frozen forever in a broken state that would
never change and never heal
because i hate the cold
and i love your heat

the solid foundation
that we've laid
is my safe haven
and i would die
if it were ripped apart

i love you